Michael was in this era of great depression after knowing that his "current fuck" as they say, cum boyfriend Ben, was Brian, his bestfriend's past fuck. And he honestly didn't know what he was angry or upset or jealous about. Was it because Brian had slept with his boyfriend OR was it because of Ben who slept with his bestfriend, cum crush which Michael thought he had move on from since he started dating Ben.
Deep inside Michael knew what the truth was, he knew that it wasn't really because he was jealous about HIS boyfriend been slept with Brian but, it was because BRIAN slept with his boyfriend.
He always knew his feelings for Brian were more than just friends types, but its not like he didn't entirely think of Brian as a friend even. He did. Ofcourse he did. They had been bestfriends since ages. He loves Brian like a bestfriend but, also like a more than bestfriend.
On the other side, if we talk about IF Brian knew about Michael having such feelings for him? Then yes, it was actually pretty obvious. You see, Michael has that little kid innocence who actually gets depressed over a cartoon character's death, at his late 20s. I mean he sure isn't THAT innocent in some cases. But even Brian himself cannot help but adore Michael and protect him like the most precious and priceless gem in his world. And Michael really is Brian's world at some point.
They both understand each other like the back of their hands and why wouldn't they, afterall being friends for more than 10 yrs is a fucking big deal.!
Anyways, so Brian also knows Michael's feelings about him but he also knows that IF they confronted this confession which thankfully never came from Michael to Brian, then they wouldn't be the same. They would still be bestfriends no doubt, but there will be this void...that will keep both of them at a certain distance apart.
So as we know now, they both never confronted these feelings, and just went with the flow, until now.
Brian fucking someone isn't new to anybody in the town of queers, really. Its actually quite like the talk of the town, lol. And that's because Brian has literally slept with half the town. Not really surprising if you know someone like Brian up close.
And so it wasn't new to Michael as well, he had been through this many times, this feeling, this depression, this jealousy. He has been through it everytime Brian has fucked someone and Michael gets to know about it by some way around, intentionally or unintentionally, doesn't matter. But, this time, this time it hits differently cuz its his boyfriend OR lets say like, someone Michael knows up close, has seen a sensual, hot and wild side of Brian which Michael, himself hasn't seen yet makes him a little more at unease than usual.
The sound of the doorbell of Michael's own store interupted his train of thoughts and he looked up to attend to the customer only to see Brian Kinney standing there with his stoic and casual expression, entering the store oh so casually and looking around the shop and grabbing a random comic from a nearby shelf asking Michael in his casual deep and lazy voice, as Michael ignored Brian and looked back at the work he was doing or atleast trying to do.
"You got any "Buttman's" latest releases?" Brian asked, in a joking voice and his signature little smirk on his handsome sharp face.
"I am all sold out." Michael replied in a calm and serious voice still looking down at his work.
"Uh-Huh" Brian nods putting back the book on the shelf and dragged his legs slowly and casually towards the counter behind which Michael sat pretending to do his "work".
"You said you would be at the Babylon today." Brian asked finally, testing the waters.
"I am busy." Again Michael gave no reaction other than uneasy calmness.
"Uh-Huh..." Brian muttered then suddenly grabbed the paper that Michael had on his counter in which he was supposedly doing his "busy work".
Brian read out loud the content that was written on that paper and laughed while reading it. It was just some fantasy scene, obviously related to Caption Astro, an unpopular cartoon character, a.k.a Michael's lifetime hero. Michael wrote that scene himself just to distract his mind from thinking about his uneasy heart anymore.
"So this is the "work" that you are "busy" with huh?" Brian asked while smirking and mocking eyes, as he looked at Michael who was now standing beside him with enough distance between them. His eyes were furious and his lips were almost made in a pout but his face was dead serious so Brian didn't think it would be such a great idea to pinch his cheeks now no matter how adorable he still looks while being mad at him.
"Atleast I am not goin fucking around just anybody and everybody like you!" Michael said in a loud accusing tone. He was furious at the moment which was pretty obvious and so Brian didn't take any offense from his words, like always. Brian knew what this was all about but he still chose to ignore it.
Then there was silence. Michael wasn't looking at Brian now but just standing there with his face turned away from Brian and looking down with thoughtful expression.
"So you were never gonna tell me about it huh?!" Finally Michael broke the silence and confronted Brian about the matter. He dont really know why he was asking such questions which would later might bring him some troubles. But he needed to ask, he just needed to know a few answers of the questions he himself wasn't so sure of, but he was asking anyway. Maybe trynna figure out the questions through what answers Brian will give him.
"Tell you what?" Brian being Brian, still ignoring and pretending to not know what Michael was asking about.
"You know damn well what!" Michael said as statement and a serious face which left Brian no space to run to or ignore anymore.
"It was 2 years ago. I don't give a shit about it. Neither does he. So why do you?" Brian asked finally confronting Michael as well but Brian looked as cool as ever as he asked such question while stuffing candies into his jacket's pocket, from the candy bar placed on the counter.
Meanwhile, Michael was having an inner war even thou he tried to look as calm as possible but Brian being his bestfriend for ages, can see through him just fine.
"Because he is my boyfriend and you are...you are my friend." Michael said finally knowing full well he didn't really fully mean the latter part. And ofcourse Brian knew he didn't mean it.
"Ooooh~ somebody's jealous~" Brian said whistling a little.
"But is it because I slept with him or....because he slept with ME?"
Now Michael was more furious, mostly at himself now that he realised what big mistake he made by asking such questions which lead to this. Now what should he answer?! He couldn't think straight so he just uttered "Arrogant prick" under his breath and crossed his hands over his chest and looked away from Brian again.
"So which is it?!" Brian asked shoving Michael's shoulder a lil, finally confronting Michael about it in an indirect way but they both knew it.
Not being able to answer Brian's question, Michael got frustrated and just said
"Why, Why should I care whom you have slept with?!" He was more likely askin these questions to himself now than to Brian.
"Its nothing new. Who haven't you slept with anyway?!" At this point Michael was just thinking to himself out loud.
"You" Michael looked up at Brian's response that he didn't expect but it made him think yet again about how it would be like to be with Brian in that way...to have... sex with him. He has heard so much about how Brian Kinney is like a sex god and that he has got some great techniques in bed to make boys as well as men squeal in pain and pleasure at the same time.
As he was thinking about this, Brian's hand swiped just right infront of his eyes, again breaking his trail of thoughts, or should we say fantasies.
Michael came back to reality and saw Brian starting to walk towards the door in his casual stance, without sayin anything more.
Michael thought Brian was gonna leave so he followed behind Brian out of habit to see him out but stopped, confused when he saw Brian turning over the OPEN store sign to CLOSE and locking the door and turning around to face Michael with his usual stoic expression.
"What are you doing?"
Michael asked as Brian backed him off till Michael's back hit a wall and Brian came so so close that their chests were literally pressed against each other.
"You wanna know how it feels like" Brian whispered just right beside Michael's ear as he dragged his hand from over Michael's torso towards his dick and grabbed it hard in the palm of his hand, making Michael shudder in ecstacy and temptation.
"So now its your chance" Brian continued as he now entered his one leg between the space between Michael's legs. Now it was Michael's turn to have no space left to run off to, literally.
Michael couldn't say anything and while he was too busy figuring out what the fuck was happening right now, Brian kissed him, hard on his lips making Michael's mind go blank for a moment. But it only took a moment for Michael to kiss Brian back with all his passion and love and forgetting his all time struggle of hiding his feelings for Brian.
They kissed and kissed with tongues and teeth until Brian finally pulled back and looked Michael right in the eyes. Michael on the other hand was a mess in the inside and out. His insides were screaming about 'What the fuck just happened' 'Did I just kissed my bestfriend?!' 'Did I just kissed Brian-fucking-Kinney?!' 'After all this time trying so hard to suppress my feelings, did I just lose everything?!' 'Did I just loose...him?'.
These questions were running like a marathon in Michael's head beginning to give him a major headache and on the outside he was a mess too since first of all, he was hard, which was pretty obvious and he felt like he was about to cry his lungs out.
But ofcourse he wouldn't show anymore of this disgusting vulnerability to Brian anymore so he said in a flat emotionless voice.
"Get the fuck out of here"
Brian didn't flinched or anything becz he rather expected this reaction. He got ahead of himself, he admits. He shouldn't have been that impulsive, atleast not with Michael of all people.
He stared right into Michael's eyes for a moment to find something but Michael's didn't let himself go even thou he was on the verge of collapsing right there and then against that very wall, but he didn't. He stood still and stiff until Brian slowly backed off leaving Michael feel empty and cold.
"I know your secret identity."
Before leaving Brian said these few words, letting Michael know that he aint letting him get away from him so easily.
Since...they are bestfriends for life, afterall.