His Povs:
I had my worst birthday. I lost my family. I lost Violet. And I also lost my self. I lost every precious thing in my life. If I could be stronger as my friend Raize paniguradong mapoprotektahan ko sila but nope I failed.
I know I'm an asshole hurting my princess. Violet saw me kissing Catalina on my condo. It shocked the hell out of me.
"Vio! "tawag ko sa kaniya. Kakatapos lang ng meeting namin sa Org. Ako na din ang namamahala dito at si kuya Jake na inalalayan ako sa pagmamanage ng org at ng company ng Cabrera.
She didn't look back to me. We broke up that night and since then ay hindi niya ako kinakausap unless tungkol ito sa org at Cabrera enterprises. I'm also still mourning now dahil kamamatay lang din nila daddy, mommy and even ate Amber and her child in her womb.
Sobra ang sakit na nararamdaman ko and I need Violet by my side but heck. Because of what I did I pushed her away kung kaya mas nagdagdagan ang sakit at kirot na nararamdaman ko.
Ng maabutan ko siya sa parking lot ay hinawakan ko ang braso niya tsaka siya pinihit paharap.
"V-violet, please let's talk. "pakiusap ko. Her cold eyes look at me intently. I hate seeing her hurt while we are kid but now I'm the one reason why she is hurt that's why I hate my self for it.
"A-anong paguusapan natin kuya Asher? "she asked. And she back calling me ''Kuya' again. That time na nagbreak kami, I even accept Ethan's anger and even his fist. Oo, sinuntok ako ni Ethan-nah scratch that. Nagpabugbug ako kay Ethan dahil sa kagagohan na ginawa ko.
"Please forgive me for what I've done to you-"she cut me off.
"Forgiven. "malamig niyang tugon.
"I can't say to you why I did that but it's not my intention to hurt you violet. Hindi ko inaasahan na gagawin yun ni Catalina. "wika ko sa kaniya. Nagbago ang expression ng mukha niya.
"Asher... I have a question. "saad niya.
"Asked a way. "tugon ko.
"Do you really love me? "she asked.
"Hell yeah. I really love you Violet. " but I can't comeback to you.
"If you love me then w-why did you do that? "she asked. She looked away and avoid my gazes. "I-if you need that thing you can ask me anytime... B-bakit kailangang gawin mo pa yun? "naghihimutok na tanong niya.
Crap! She taught that I did tha because I need sex. But hell no! Lasing ako nun ng nagawa ko yun. I tried to push away Catalina. Pero ito na siguro ang mas madaling paraan para maitago ko ang isang sekreto sa kaniya.
"Because you are too young for it! Hindi mo pa mabibigay ang gusto ko na iyon dahil bata ka pa. "I lied.
I see her tears fell down to her cheeks. I want to wiped them like how I used to be back then but I can't.
"Yeah you are right. It's my fault Asher. "saad niya tsaka luhaang tinitigan ako sa mata. She even held my hands.
"Pero please Asher. C-comeback to me. "pakiusap niya. "I promise I'll do everything you want just please come back." she added.
Mariin akong umiling. "I'm sorry Vio. But maybe this is the right thing for us. "sabi ko sa kaniya.
"You deserved someone better than me Violet. Palayain mo na ako. "I said and let go of her hand. "Not now but soon you'll met that deserving man of yours. "saad ko sa kaniya. Umiling iling siya.
"N-no. You are the only one deserving man in my heart. Please, huwag naman ganito Asher. I know your guilt -"I cut her off. Kung pwede lang takpan ko ng kasinungalingan ang isang kasinungalingan ay gagawin ko. Why am I hurting the girl that love me the most? Because I don't want her to get hurt when she'll know about the truth. The truth that I'll be gone and decided to chase those demons who killed my family.
"I'm sorry but I really felt out of love Vio. I love someone. And please don't cry, I'm not worthy of your tears. "I said that make her stunned.
Yes, I'm going to Immortal world for justice. And I know she'll get hurt when I will go down there. That's why I choose to lied and hurt her instead. Hurting her for a reason is better that leaving her broken.
"Y-you felt out of love just because I didn't give that thing? "she asked. I see pain in her eyes. I just nodded. She cried in front of me. But before I could speak someone grab her hands. It's Ethan.
"Let's go home Vio" tsaka siya tumingin siya sa akin ng matalim. "Enough with this bullshit Kuya Asher. "he said to me.
"You know that I respect you so much pero nawala iyon dahil sa pananakit mo sa bestfriend ko. How dare you to hurt her feelings? "singhal niya sa akin.
"I have my reason-"he cut me off.
Sinenyasan niya si Ivan na iuwi na si Violet. Sumunod naman si Ivan tsaka pinatalog si Violet bago binuhat palayo.
"Fuck that reason Kuya Asher! Kung hanggang ngayon ay hindi ka pa nakamove on sa family mo. Pwes, huwag mong idamay si Violet sa sakit na nararamdaman mo. She didn't deserve what you did! "giit niya.
"I know. But please take care of her. "saad ko.
"Bakit hindi mo na lang sabihin sa kaniya na aalis ka? "he asked.
"Because I don't want her to got hurt. We both know how much she hate that world. "wika ko.
"Hindi pa ba siya nasasaktan sa sitwasyong ito? "giit niya. "If you really want to hurt her, now that she is free from your wings I'll take care of her and make her mine kuya. Matagal na akong may gusto sa kaniya pero nagpaubaya ako sa taong mananakit at mangiiwan din pala sa kaniya sa dulo. "he said at iiling na humakbang palayo.
"I'm very disappointed to you kuya. "he said before leaving.
"Yeah I know. And I'm sorry. "I whispered and cried silently. Pinanuod ko na lang ang papalayo nilang bulto. Wala na itong atrasan Asher, you pushed her para maprotektahan siya. This is not yet time for her to faced her reality and the only way tp do that is stay away from her. Do my revenge and seek for justice for my families death.