I was doing nothing, maybe some could call it old age or boredom, or Ego but I refused to admit that I miss my children and I want to see them.
I was not, and still am not the best father to them. But being who I was and how I am to them, then I really did do go by them for where they are right now in this life and society.
I am proud of Noah, how far he has gone! How much money he has made and how influential and powerful he is.
But I hate the fact that he did this without me, he doesn't owe me anything. I don't own him, I can't make him bend to my wishes and my whines, I don't even feel or think I am stupid or an idiot for this thought. I don't care how many times their mother tells me she is disgusted by me and she wishes she had not married me. Even she, I made her who she is, and I can tell her this to her face. Infact she and her children would never have existed without me in their lives, they would never have even happened.
