Few days after my sixteenth birthday and in the early days of December, Diana had gone back to school. I and Dom had fixed a date to meet up. The day had finally arrived. I Did what I rarely do, told my parents I'm going to visit a female friend and after many procedures, questions, examinations and interviews. I was finally allowed to step out. I was wearing my rainbow coloured sleeveless shirt with a white inner on a black, short poly skirt with Gucci flower design at the left hem of the skirt. I tied my hair and let it fall leaving two in front . My braids stopped just on top of my round buts. I applied my transparent lip gloss and went to my brother's room in search of perfume so that I'll smell nice. I wasn't a fan of deodorants but I still managed to have a nice scent. I left the house and called Dom when I got to his street like he had told me to. I was late though. He told me that he was coming and that he had been waiting for me there but I took so long to show up so he had gone back home. I waited for so long in the sun. I got annoyed and wondered why he would keep a girl waiting like this. I started regretting coming then I finally spotted him.
"Angel, I'm so sorry" he started saying while walking up to me.
"It's okay," I said, cutting him off.
"Are you angry with me?" he asked, taking my hands and pulling me gently alongside him.
"No, I'm good," I said, giving him a small smile. If I was angry before, then certainly not now. I have a thing for guys holding my hands. We strolled past so many houses, took a left turn, strolled for a few more minutes and then another left turn.
"Is it still far away?" I turned to ask him, already tired of the small journey.
"No, we are almost there" I frowned, then tried to check if I could master all the turns we took incase of a next time. Next time? Who I'm I kidding?
I can't believe I already wanna come next time, uninvited!!!
"Boss, what's up?" I heard him say, bringing me out of my thoughts to another guy I hadn't realized we had walked up to. I looked around while they continued their conversation. The compound looked a lot like the one I visited with Christian. Speaking of Christian, I hadn't heard from him since then.
"Hello pretty" The guy Dom had been talking to said to me. I realized later that his name is Peter.
"Hi, Good afternoon" I replied shyly.
"What's your name?" He asked in our local dialect.
"Tracy, I mean Treasure but you can call me Tracy, that's what my friends call me" I replied talking too much.
"It's okay, stop questioning her" Dom finally said Saving me from answering further questions.
"This is my friend, Peter," he said, referring to the guy. "And this is Tracy, my girlfriend, sorry I meant my friend," he said, referring to me. I stared at him in shock at the mistake he just made. He in turn looked at me with a pleading eye. Peter was already roaring in laughter.
"Our wife, you are welcome to my humble abode" he said to me while putting Dom on the back and handing him a set of keys. Now it was I and Dom's turn to stare at Peter.
"Just go before you spoil things for me," Dom said to his friend. With that he left still laughing. Dom unlocked the door and ushered me in. Once again I hesitated a little like I did at Christian's place hoping things wouldn't turn out that way too. Seems Dom is a very patient guy because he waited with me there outside without uttering a word until I finally stepped in. He stepped in beside me and closed the door. The room did look a lot like Christians' except the fact that there was no TV. I sat on the bed and Dom sat beside me. For the first time I actually looked at him well noticing his brown jacket he had put on with no singlet, fixing only the Dow buttons and leaving the up on, exposing his chest, I could see the hairs on his chest, my eyes flew up to his beards and I just realized I loved guys with beards. The urge to touch it was too strong but I overcame it and finally my eyes landed on his face. His skin looked dull but in pictures it was light. I was about to ask the kind of cream he uses when my eyes suddenly landed on his lips. I hadn't realized we were this close. I started breathing heavily as Dom inched forward, his lips almost touching mine. I brought out my palms and laid it on his chest hoping to push him away only to feel the hot, hairy tender flesh underneath my palms. I could feel his heart beating so fast and in a split of seconds his lips covered mine. The world stood still even my heart beat. Nope, not like it was an electric shock that I used to read about in books haha. I only wanted to decipher if I liked the feel of his lips on mine. This wasn't my first kiss.
My first kiss experience was really not so good. It made me hate kissing and other guys I've tried kissing so far still didn't end up well. I can recall vividly that day, my parents had gone out as usual and my sister had taken us to the neighbouring house. There we met three other kids our ages.they had come to spend their holiday. And there was this guy who was obviously supposed to look after them. He must have been related to the owner of the house who knows?. I guess he must have been in his early 20s. I was just 11 then. I don't remember much but I can recall everyone leaving the house each to their own different destinations, some to play, my Diana left with another neighbor to get snacks. I was left alone with the guysm few seconds later he snugged up behind me, held me with full force, tilted me too backwards that my back and neck started hurting. His lips covered mine and all I could taste was saliva. The feeling was "Eeeewwww''. I'd tried so hard to free myself but it seems he was enjoying himself. When he finally let go of me I walked out of the door and straight to my house and to my room to cry without looking back.
I felt Dom's hands go up my breast and squeeze it and I jerked out of my thoughts only to realize that we had still been kissing and he was obviously enjoying himself while I was lost in thoughts.
"Is everything okay?" He asked, he must have seen the way I reacted to his touch.
"Yeah sure, but you had promised not to touch me" I reminded him.
"I'm sorry about that, it's just that I couldn't resist you" he said apologizing. "So what should we talk about?" he asked.
"Anything," I said, leaning forward and relaxing on his chest. Though I didn't really enjoy the kiss, I did feel like I belonged there because his arms wrapped around me immediately. His hands trailed my laps as I leaned further into him in response. This feeling wasn't compared to Christian's touch though but I did love what was going on here. Seeing my reactions gave him all the permission he needed because his hands were already under my skirt tugging at my panties.
The feelings came alive again as I parted my legs for his fingers to have access to my already moist clit. Surprisingly he had no trouble sliding a finger into me unlike with Christian. I felt him thrust in and out, the second thrust came in a painful way as I yelped and looked up at him.
"Did you use two fingers? '' I asked him. He only nodded. He seemed to be enjoying what he was doing. I kind of liked what he was doing but I didn't really enjoy it the way I enjoyed Christian's. Suddenly I started missing his touch. At a point I had to stop Dom. His touch was starting to cause an irritation to the walls of my vagina. Luckily for me Dom obeyed immediately and freed me. He leaned back on the wall and stared into space. I stared at him wondering what he was thinking about.
"What's wrong?" I finally asked when I couldn't bear the silence anymore.
"Why did you lie?" Dom asked, causing me to go into a state of confusion.
"Lie about what?" I was totally confused.
"You're not a virgin" I froze at his words.
"What do you mean?" I asked shivering.I could feel tears threatening to break out of my eyes. I was indeed a cry baby.
"I was able to finger you freely, it shouldn't be so if you're a virgin" he said looking at me with some kind of disgust obviously from the fact he thought I lied.
"But I've never had sex before" I said trying to defend myself.
"Okay what did you say really happened between you and that...guy" he said stammering and struggling to recall the guy's name.
"Kelly" I helped him out. "He fingered me, like he slid his finger into me and tore my hymen" I said, shaking and recalling the pains I felt that day. I really didn't wanna talk about this but I had to defend myself.
"Did you bleed?" I shook my head in the negative.
"Okay what else?" he asked, wanting to know the full story.
"Nothing really, he just tried to penetrate but I was too tight so he gave up" I summarised as much as I could, telling him what I had told Zoe, my bestie.
"Hmm how many times did he do this"
"Just once" I lied.
" It should have closed up, I dunno if you get what I mean"
"This thing happened since August, right?" I shook my head in the positive.
"Actually….the thing is…." I tried to compose part of the truth stammering. "I touched myself"
"I mean I used to touch myself" I said looking at him for any sign of reactions, wondering if he will view me as a bad girl. "I don't remember the last time I did that," I added after he didn't say anything for a short while.
"You've been masturbating?" He finally asked after processing what I told him. I nodded again.
"That explains why," he said, nodding.
"It's not that bad, come here" he said, reaching out to me as I hurried into his embrace burying my face into his shoulders partly to hide my shame and partly because I felt accepted.I could feel butterflies dance in my stomach.
"Did you love him" he asks whike rubbing my back,referring to Kelly.
"No, how can I love someone who robbed me of my innocence" I lied again.
"It's okay, it must have been really painful for you," he said, still rubbing my back.
"Yeah it was," I said, still in his embrace. "Tell me a secret too, now you mine"
"Okay" he said, raising his head up in a thinking mode. "I find it difficult to get hard, in fact I haven't gotten erect before"
"And you expect me to believe that" I stared at him in amusement and shock. "Wait if you haven't gotten erect before how then do you have sex?" I asked bewildered.
"That's because I haven't"
"Fuck, you kidding me right?" I sat up and looked straight into his eyes searching for an atom of truth. "And you are how old again?"
"20, why do you find it so hard to believe?" he asked amused.
"Nothing it's just that it's very hard to see a guy who hasn't done it before at 20" this time he laughed so hard.
"But you've been dating right?" I got into my curious mode.
"Yeah, I've dated let's say 20 girls so far" he did a sign of counting his fingers.
"Oh my God" I stared at him in shock, it only got him more amused.
"So you're saying none of them could get you erect?" He nodded.
"Well, there's only one way to find out," I said, giving him my mischievous looks.
"Hey, what are you plan…" I slipped my fingers into his shorts and cupped his manhood, cutting him short of his sentence. I looked up to see a blank expression on his face. His manhood felt so soft. I moved my palms in a cup-like motion up and down the length of his manhood repeatedly, sometimes stopping to pay attention to the tips twirling my fingers around it. He threw his head back with pleasure as soft moans escaped his throat. I felt a little amount of liquid touch my fingers as his manhood started increasing in size.
"You're getting erect" I whispered to him in joy.
"Not that I don't get erect, just that when I'm about to penetrate a girl it comes down" he said amidst moans.
"Let's find out then" I said , removing my already wet hands from his shorts as he gently pushed me down the bed.
"What about the door?" I asked him.
"Don't worry I'm not expecting anyone" I relaxed but still not convinced. He removed my panties and pulled my legs apart laying in between my thighs. Well, I just hoped what he said was true because I wasn't actually ready to get intimate with him. But what if he is lying? I thought to myself. Just then I felt his thick,warm flesh collide with the walls of my vagina as he tried to penetrate me. Each thrust he made I edged up the bed scared that he might actually penetrate. I could feel him struggling to penetrate but then it kept slipping out.
"It's okay" I said to him as gently pushed him off me and sat up.
I put on my panties and stared at
He was looking so emotional and frustrated. Now it was my turn to return the embrace. I pulled him into a warm hug. He buried his face into my shoulders. I could hear sobs.
"Are you crying" I asked him shocked
He immediately lifted up his face and shifted away from me.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it that way" I said feeling sincerely sorry and trying to cajole him back into my arms.
Luckily for me he turned back and buried his face again in my shoulders like a baby. It felt so good holding him, rubbing his back and assuring him that everything will be fine.
"Can I ask you something?" I asked him softly.
"Yeah" he muttered.
"So is this what usually happens each time you try to have your way with a girl?"
"No,this should be the third time I stopped trying after the first two times"
"Wow" I said more loudly than I had intended to.
"What?" He asked.
"Nothing" I said. I was already feeling emotionally attached to him. I hope that's not love I thought to myself.
"I love you" he said looking up and staring straight into my eyes. For some seconds I just stared at him wondering how we had almost the same thoughts. My ringtone pulled me out of my thoughts as I checked to find the caller was mum. she had told me to be back before 3pm. Checking the time this was 2:30pm.
"Shit!!" I exclaimed.
"What's that?" He asked.
"I have to get going, come escort me" I said, pecking him on the lips as I stood up to pack my stuff and arrange my clothes and hair.
He stood up and arranged his own clothes. As we were about stepping out he held me back and pulled me into a warm hug kissing my forehead. I stayed back a little longer in his arms before finally breaking free and heading out with him. When we finally parted I couldn't help recalling all the events of today.
Do I have feelings for him?
I couldn't stop asking myself that question.