The tearful movie was ended. Every time my eyes are teary, my brother looks at me and kisses me on my lips. We kissed many times and I admit that I was addicted to his gentle kiss. I was addicted to his soft lips and the gentle caress of his hands behind my back. I am
hypnotized with his warm breath touching my skin after we kissed while saying the magic word "I Love you so much" along with his sweet smile and hugs.
We went out of the cinema while he was holding my right hand and he invited me to eat lunch.
"Where do you want to eat?" he asked me.
"It's up to you. You know that I don't have any idea about anything because it is my first time visiting this place," I said while smiling.
He put his right arm on my shoulder while mine was on his waist. We got in his car and he took me to an expensive restaurant.
"Why are we here? It seems like the foods here are very expensive. Let's just move to the cheapest restaurant," I said and was about to turn around but he stopped me.
"There is no case for me if the foods here are expensive. I want you to experience all of these. You are very special to me that's why you also deserve this. I love you more than anything. You are the reason why I am working hard so why would I regret spending money for you? " he said seriously.
My heart leaps with joy at what I heard from my brother. He pulled out a chair for me and made me sit down and then he also sat in front of me. One of the waiters of this restaurant approached us.
"Good morning ma'am and sir. What is your order?" the waiter asked.
I looked at the menu but I knew nothing about the foods they had. I looked at my brother to ask for his help. He smiled at me as if he understood my "you will be the one to order" look from me. He answered the waiter and said our orders, then the waiter left. My older brother took my hand and kissed it.
"I will be missing this," he said as he looked at my hands. "Even this one," he caressed my lips and everything from you at the same time," he said sadly. "If I could just change everything I would just be with you forever," he says with loneliness.
"Why do you need to leave me?" my voice was a little raspy.
"I need to be far from you because if I don't do that, I might ruin your future. I don't want that to happen so even if it's hard, I'll do it," he said while looking at my hand that he was holding. He can not look at me but
I saw a bead of tears fall from his eyes and drop on top of my hand. He immediately wiped it and he stood up.
"I'm going to the CR, I'll be right back," he said without looking at me.
I just nodded. I knew he was just avoiding me seeing him crying. I decided to follow him. When he entered the boys' CR I also draw near the cr. I heard an accented sob. I peeked but there was no one so I went in to confirm where the sob was coming from. It was inside the cubicle and if I am not mistaken he was brother Ronald. He was crying but he was holding back and he wanted to hide it from me. I couldn't stop myself from hurting so I just turned around while I can still control myself to knock on the cubicle and comfort him. I went back to our table and when I got there our orders were already served. I feel guilty. It seems like I am mistaken about granting my brother's request to be his one-day girlfriend. I realized that I'm only torturing him more. Why do I feel sad when he is sad but I am happy when he is happy. I am hurt when he is hurting. I want to hug him and calm him. I want to give him strength and hope. What does it make me feel? Why does my heart squeeze every time I think of him crying because of me.
I called a waiter and asked if I could order a cake even if it wasn't on the menu. But he said they would just deliver it right away for me so I said the flavor of the cake I want, the size, and even my message that they will put for my brother. I gave him one thousand and told him to keep the change as long as he would serve the cake when we were about to finish eating. He just nodded and thank me. I checked the time on my watch. Brother Ronald already stayed in the comfort room so long maybe a haft of the hour. I decided to call him. I found him washing his face. He lifted his face to the mirror and he saw me standing at the door. He turned to me and smiled.
"Sorry, are you hungry?" he said as he wiped his wet face with a clean handkerchief.
Are you alright? I asked worriedly. "Yes, I'm fine," he replied while smiling.
"Why do you take so long to pee?" I asked.
"I just talked to someone on the phone," he said and hold my hand, and led me back to our table.
"Let me lead the prayer," I said.
He just nodded. We close our eyes while holding my hand.
Dear God, today I bring my loved one before you on his birthday and pray for your blessings and guidance over his life. Thank you for leading him and guiding him in life. Help him to know how loved and cherished he is. Bless and protect him in the year ahead. May he know your peace and strength when he wakes and your comfort and rest when he lay down to sleep. May his future be filled with hope. Thank you for this food. Please bless this food, and all that it means. May this food nourish us. In Jesus' name, I pray. Amen.
I opened my eyes and smiled at him. "Happy birthday. Be happy. Today is your 31st birthday so you shouldn't cry. I Love you," I said while smiling at him.
He stood up and hug me tightly. I couldn't help but cry because I could feel his tears drops on my shoulder. "Why are you crying? I just told you not to cry. Your sadness is contagious. Let's just eat. I am now hungry," I said while hugging him too.
"It is a tear of joy. You make me happy. Thank you for making my life complete. I love you too," he said while still hugging me.
He let go of his hug and kissed my forehead.
"You are my greatest love and you are my happiness," he said seriously.
I can feel the sincerity of his heart. Our feelings for each other are genuine. No mixed impersonation. He took a plate and put some rice and dish then handed it to me.
"You want me to feed you?" he asked with a smile on his lips.
"No, I can do it. Eat well," I replied.
He took his plate and just sat beside me causing our thighs to stick together. He stared at me steadily while eating. "You are like a child in the way you eat," he said while looking at my lips.
"Why?" I asked with curiosity.
He wiped the edge of my lip with his thumb.
"You're so beautiful," he said with a sweet smile.
"Thank you," I said.
"You like this? he asked as he bites something I don't know. Taste it," he said at the same time the food he had bitten reached my mouth without even waiting for my answer.
I just ate it because it looked delicious.
"What can you say?" he asked. "Delicious, what's the name of that food?" I asked.
"Chicken fillet. Do you want more?" he asked.
I just nodded. He took one and feed me. I just took a bite and he ate the rest. My brother and I ate well. When we were about to finish, the waiter brought the cake I had requested.
Brother Ronald was surprised because of the cake that the waiter laid on the table.
"Happy birthday sir, enjoy your day with ma'am," the waiter said.
Brother Ronald stopped eating and stared at the cake on the table. He read what was written.
"Happy birthday"
From: Your Greatest Love.
He looked at me with joy in his eyes.
"I'm going crazy for what you're doing," he says.
"Don't you like it?" I replied.
"I like it so much. This is the first time that I had a cake for my birthday," he says.
"I know, that's why I ordered a cake to make sure you don't forget this day," I said looking at him with gladness.
"Whether I have a cake or not, I still can't forget this day. You're the one I like the most to have on my birthday. It's okay with me even if I don't have a cake as long as you are with me. You're enough for me," he said sincerely.
I lit the little candle and I sang.
"Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday, happy birthday, happy birthday to you."
"Make a wish and then blow out the candle," I said while smiling at him.
He just closed his eyes for a moment and then blew out the candle.
"What is your wish?" I asked.
"It is a secret. It won't come true when you tell others about your wish," he says.
"Ok, I hope your wish comes true," I replied.
"That is impossible, but nothing is impossible
with God. I believe He will make the impossible to be possible," he said. He took the bread knife and divided the cake. He put it on the saucer and got one spoon for us. He feeds me first before himself.
"Do you want soft drinks?" he asked.
"No, I just want water," I replied. So he poured water into the glass and handed it to me. I didn't drink it all so I just laid the glass with the haft of water on the table but brother Ronald took it and drank it. I gazed at him but he just smile at me.
"It's already 1 o'clock, where do you want to go," he asked me.
"It's up to you, I know that wherever we go I'm still safe because I am with you," I said.
"We are going to the mall to buy your cellphone and other things," he said as he hold my hand.
I thought I am not allowed to use my cellphone? Why would you buy it for me? I asked while frowning.
"I told you that starting tomorrow you are free to do what you want. I will fulfill what I said a while ago. Just don't neglect your studies," he said seriously.
He wrapped our leftover cake and also paid for what we ate. We walked away from the restaurant. My older brother opened the door of his car for me but before I entered he hugged me from behind. He kissed my nape and placed his chin on my shoulder.
"I love making this way?" he said with a sweet voice. I clasped my hands in his arms around me and leaned my head on his chest.
"I will be missing you," I whispered to him while my eyes are closed.
"I will be missing you too," he replied full of sadness.
"I wish this day will never end but it can't be. I wish that we have different parents or at least mom and dad just adopted me so we can still be together at the right time. I can't afford to be away from you," he said with a raspy voice.
He hugged me tightly. He kissed the tip of my ear down to my neck.
"Get inside," he says but he picked me up and sat me down on the front seat of his car. He leaned over me and closed the door.
"Why are you sitting beside me? Who will drive? I confusedly asked.
"I will move there later," he said while smiling at me.
He touched my cheeks and stared into my eyes.
"I love you so much," he said while staring at me intently.
"You know that I love you too that is why you don't need to leave me," I said while staring at him.
"I need to get away from you. I am your eldest brother so I should know right from wrong. I shouldn't drag you into transgression," he explained.
"It is because of our forbidden love?" I asked.
"Let's not talk about this. Let us just make this day wonderful and unforgettable," he said. He holds my chin and looks into my eyes full of love and emotion. My heartbeats became abnormal. Why I am feeling like this? He is still my brother but I think I love him as my boyfriend.
"No, it can not be. We are just pretending."