I froze on the sport. so many things run through my head right now but I couldn't come up with the perfect response. what was Ivan supposed to say? that I'm sorry? that he wasn't meant to find out? how had he even found out in the first place? because this is not news that I had wanted anyone to know about. and Ricky and I had not even had that serious conversation about how we would make sure this secret forever remained between us. and now he was a person who had figured it out. what more could I do? so I chose to keep quiet. to stay at him as though I understood nothing that he said. because there wasn't any other way that I could defend myself. right now silence was my best weapon. right now remaining quiet and acting like I don't understand is what's going to help me.