Before dawn I arrived home. From the Chinese grave where Marzuki dropped me off, I took on line rider to take me to my house. Sometimes there is a feeling of dread hanging over. However, what can I do? This is my life now. If I obey my fear, I will achieve nothing. Then my mother and Keynara will not have their needs fulfill.
When I was about to step onto the veranda, I was surprised to see Roni lying on a sofa. What is he wants now? Shameless bastard. I immediately shook the man's body to get up and immediately left.
"Wake up. Wake up ... what are you doing here?"
Roni rubbed his eyes. He got up lazily.
"Til. You just got home at this hour. What are you working now?" he asked casually. He tried hard to look cute.
"I keep a stand at the food court. What are you doing in here anyway? Go away," I said sarcastically.
I purposely set up an alibi for anyone who asked so no one would suspect my nightly routine.
"I miss Key, Til."
"Just now? Where have you been for all this time? Just go! I am exhausted. I want to go to sleep."
I stepped closer to the door. Roni held my hand. I immediately rebuked.
"Let me go! Just go! We don't need you!"
"Don't be like that, I'm still her father. I'm sorry to what happened. It was Wati who teased me. When it comes to love, I still love you," Roni said with a sad face.
"Enough! I less care anymore. Don't blacksheep anyone. Infidelity is committed by two people. If one flirts and the other refuses, it can't happen. Basically, you just get frustrated."
The man took my hand and kissed it. "Please, I beg you? Living alone is like a hell for me. Every night I feel cold to death. I need you to warm my body."
I took my hand. It disgusted to be treated like that. I'd rather prostitute myself than be held by Roni. I don't understand why Roni didn't remarry. He had a strong desire to have sex from a long time ago. I think after the separation he immediately will looked for other woman because he could not stand living alone.
"Why don't you find other woman? Or maybe because no one wants to marry with a man who is only strong in bed, but worst for looking money? I've been trapped by your seduction once. Now I'm a different woman. It turns out that Key and I are happier after being separated from you. You see now my clothes are good, I wear expensive makeup, my perfume is also classy, and see that my skin is smoother than when I was a girl. It doesn't wrinkle like when I was your wife. I used to think that we are poor so act like one," I said, followed by a cynical smile.
I feel very satisfied after saying that words. Like part of the grudge inside of me was released. The insult I just uttered must have hurt his pride as a man. That is if he still has self-respect. I never had the heart to talk about his profession. Well anyway, he had already hurt my heart. I think it's appropriate to throw all the insults back at him.
"Just get lost. I want to go to sleep." I quickly opened the door with the spare key I brought with me.
Roni was silent in his place. Then, "Tomorrow I'll be here again."
I didn't answer, went straight in then closed the door again.
"Just got home?" asked my mother who walked from the bathroom. She must have finished her wudlu to get ready for the shalah Fajr.
"Yes, Mom." I drinking the water that has been prepared on the living room table.
"Roni was here earlier. Cough-cough ... wanted to meet Key, he said."
"Mom, you allowed him?" I asked before sipping the water.
"Yes. But just for a moment, after that I told Key to go to sleep. After that I peeked at him from the window and I saw him he was sleeping on the veranda. I just let him be. I can't let him in since he is not your husband anymore. Cough-cough. Cough-cough." Mother's cough is getting worse.
"Did you take your medicine?"
"It's end, love. I want to tell you, but I kind a shy. Cough-cough. Now everything is in you In the other hand you have to stay up late, like now at this hour you just got home."
What my mom said it is the truth. My money can be good, I must responsible for all. Beside the cost of food and other daily needs, I have to bear the cost of medical treatment for my mother, who is sick diabetes and tuberculosis. Not to forgot that I have to taking care of myself to stay attractive. The cost to the beauty salon is also not cheap.
Our lives are now can be say better than before, but still not economically secure.
"I'm going to sleep, Mom. I'll buy the medicine at the pharmacy this afternoon."
Mother nodded while coughing.
In the room while hugging Key, my mind is still soundly wandering. If I marry with Mr. Hendrik, the lives of my mother and Key will be guaranteed. But, what about Norma Wilhelmina? What if she acts like an antagonist in a soap opera who likes to make drama?
If I followed Norma's wishes I had to keep a secret. Which one is safer to be on Mr. Hendrik's side or on Norma's side? If in Norma's side I get twice the advantage without needing to have enemies.
Before I could close my eyes, I heard a glass breaking. I rushed out. It turned out that my mom was lying on the floor unconscious.