Tsk! Don't tell me late na naman ang isang iyon! Argh! Lagi na lang.
I still remember the first time we met. Late ako no'n sa first day ng klase at ganon din siya. Habang natakbo ako nadapa ako sa harap niya.
Ngayon ibahin natin dapat medyo romantic. Babanggain ko na lang siya. Tapos tutulungan niya akong tumayo then mahahawakan ko kamay niya...
Stop! Remember the mission! Right! Dapat maging sila ni Nuri!
Napatigil ako sa pag-iisip nang makita ko siyang naglalakad papasok ng gate na. Nagtago ako sa gilid ng building na madadaanan niya pagpasok.
Okay! Inhale... Exhale....
In three... Two... One... And bigla akong tumakbo but nagtaka ako dahil wala akong nabangga.
Tiningnan ko kung nasaan siya. Well, nasa gilid ko lang naman siya habang nakatingin sa akin na para akong stalker na ewan.
Ohh...kaaay. so masyadong napaaga ang pagtakbo ko.
"AH… Hehehe. Akala ko madadapa ako. Peace." Sabi ko
Hindi niya ako pinansin at dumeretso sa paglalakad na. Pero hinila ko siya sa braso.
"Wag ka namang suplado. I'm Amaris Monteagudo. It's -"
Napatigil ako nang bigla siyang ngumiti ng matamis. Haysss. Ang guwapo talaga pero nabasag ang pantasya ko sa susunod niyang sinabi.
"I don't care." At hinablot niya ang braso niya bago naglakad paalis.
Naningkit ang mata ko sa sobrang inis. Argh! Ang suplado talaga.
"Aray!" Malakas na sabi ko kaya napatigil siya.
"What? Miss, pede ba-"
"Ang sakit ng paa ko."
"Hindi tayo nagkabanggaan."
"Pero mas masakit nung hindi ko nalaman pangalan mo. Tsk!" Sabi ko sabay kindat.
Tinitigan niya ako with his oh so cold stare.
"This is stupid and a waste of time." Sabi niya at tuluyan ng umalis.
Napangiti naman ako. He's there. My wish came true.
"See you around. My name's Amaris! Don't forget!" Sigaw ko
Pinigilan kong umiyak ang sarili ko. I've made up my mind. I'll give that guy the happiness he deserves. Even if it costs the future I have with him...
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WHAT.IS.THIS!
DO I REALLY NEED TO STUDY?!
Argh! I'm exhausted. First day of school may exam?! Not to mention my most hatest subject. Yes! Most hatest talaga. It's History!
No offense pero I really hate memorization of name and dates!
Tapos kanina pa...
*Earlier*
"Hey! It's me! Amaris!" Sabi ko ng makita ko siya. Well, alam ko namang same class kami but umarte na lang tayong nagulat.
"Miss pede ba? Stop pestering me. You're annoying!"
"I just want to know your name."
"You don't have to." Sabi niya
"Kukulitin kita kapag hindi mo sinabi!" Sabi ko
"It's none of your business, isn't it?"
Natigilan ako sa sinabi niya. Right. I nearly forgot. I don't need to be close to him. Supporting them in the shadow is enough.
I don't need to get involve further or it'll be more painful.
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Tumayo ako at pumuntang CR. Habang naglalakad nag-isip ako. Okay....
How did I meet Nuri again? She belongs to the other class. She's his' childhood friend and the one who was supposed to be with him but I acted selfishly that's why they ended up apart.
Tama! Naglalakad ako sa hallway no'n ng biglang-
*BAAM*
Aray! Tama ganito ang nangyari noon. Naglalakad ako sa hallway nang bigla akong tamaan ng bola ng volleyball sa mukha.
Bakit naman ang maganda ko pang mukha?!
"Sorry, Miss!" Sabi nung tumatakbong babae papunta sa akin.
Ahhhh. ... Mukha talaga siyang anghel. Kaya lang dahil sa lakas nang impacy ng bola medyo nahihilo ako.
Argh! Nagdadalawa na tingin ko. Napahawak ako sa ulo ko.
"Sorry po talaga. Ayos ka lang? Dadalhin kita sa clinic."
"A-Ah h-hindi na." Sabi ko
May isa pang lalaking lumapit sa akin. A guy who owns an innocent eyes.
"Sorry. Ako 'yung timira ng bola." Apologetic na sabi niya
"Come. Dadalhin kita sa clinic." He said at akmang bubuhatin ako pero pinigilan ko.
"Hindi na talaga. Ayos lang talaga ako." Sabi ko
"Aki! Kakausapin ka ni coach!" Sigaw nung isang lalaki sa court kaya napilitan siyang umalis.
"Sorry talaga, Miss! Babawi ako next time, promise!" Pahabol pa niya
I sighed.
Hindi ako pedeng pumunta sa clinic. Kailangan kong umalis dito bago pa ako himatayin.
Pinilit kong tumayo.
"Ayos ka lang ba talaga?" Nag-aalalang tanong niya
"O-oo naman. Wala toh" sabi ko habang pinipilit na ituwid ang paningin ko.
Tiis lang Amaris. Tiis lang.
Dahil pag hinimatay ako dito makikita niya kami at bubuhatin niya ako papuntang clinic. Magsosolo kami don at makakapag-usap ng kaunti.
Doon nagsimulang maging close kami at hindi yon pede.
He's only for Nuri.
"Nuri!! Nasaan na 'yung bola!" Sigaw nung isang lalaki sa court
"I'm Nuri Ella Ortega. Kung may kailangan ka hanapin mo lang ako, ah. I'm in class E." Sabi niya at umalis na.
Argh! Ang sakit talaga. Nahihilo ako. Pinilit kong tumayo at nagawa ko naman. Naglakad ako para magpuntang CR kaya lang may naramdaman akong mainit na likido sa ilong ko. Hinawakan ko iyon at nakitang dugo iyon.
Tsk! Malala pala tama sa akin. Umikot na ang pakiramdam ko no'n at nawalan na ako ng malay...
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Ang sakit ng ulo ko. Pinilit kong imulat ang mga mata ko.
Then I saw his worried face.
"Thank goodness you're awake!" He said
Sinubukan kong bumangon.
"You need to lay down. May light concussion ka daw sabi ng nurse. It seems like you took straight spike from Aki." Sabi niya at inihiga ulit ako.
"Y-yeah. Teka anong ginagawa mo rito?" Sabi ko
"I saw you collapsed kaya dinala kita dito sa clinic." Sabi niya
"Mhhhh... So worried ka sa akin. Aysus! Ang sweet naman."
"I just don't have a choice."
"Kahit ano pa mang dahilan dinala mo pa rin ako. Thanks." Sabi ko
Tinitigan lang niya ako then he smirked.
"Dapat lang na magpasalamat ka. Ang bigat mo kaya."
"Excuse me?! Hindi mo dapat iyan sinasabi sa isang babae!" Sabi ko at pinanlakihan siya ng mata.
Tumawa lang siya at sinabing...
"Ang pangit mo!"
"Ha?! Ako?! Pangit?! Baka naman nabulag ka na!" Inis na sabi ko at saka siya inirapan.
"Hoshino."
"Huh?"
It's not that I didn't hear him. I'm just surprised and overwhelm.
"My name. You wanted to know, right? Hoshino Allejandrez." He said while averting his gaze on me.
I just stared at him.
And when he looked at me again he seemed surprised.
"Bakit ka umiiyak?" Gulat na tanong niya
Napahawak naman ako sa pisngi ko. I didn't realize that I was crying.
"Why did you tell your name?" I said
"Huh? Hindi ba kinukulit mo ako na sabihinsa iyo. Argh! This is a pain!" Sabi niya at inabutan niya ako ng panyo.
"Here!" Sabi niya
Wala sa loob na kinuha ko ang panyo. At tinitigan ko iyon.
"Thank you." I sincerely said.
That time I realized that the past is not easy to change and I'm glad. I'm so glad.
I hope that the past is so hard to change that I won't be able to.
I selfishly wished that, under the setting sun while the wind blows gently to my skin.
He's so close that I wanted to touch him won't.
Now... I wonder. What are these tears for...?
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I met Hoshino when I first went to that school. I was a gloomy girl with two braids on and eyeglasses. A perfect example of a geek. I don't really know how to socialize and I love being alone. That day, I was late for school and was running with all my might but then I tripped and fell.
"Argh! Ang malas ko naman ngayon!" I complained.
Suddenly, a warm, gentle hand was in front of me when I fell into the ground. When I look up at him a smiling princely face was there.
"Are you alright, Miss? Parang napalakas pagkakatilapid mo ahh" nag-aalalang sabi niya
That was a handsome smiling face. Inabot ko ang kamay niya.
"Okay lang ako." Sabi ko at pinagpag ang palda ko. "Sorry ahh, naabbala pa kita. Hindi kasi ako nakatingin sa dinaraanan ko." Sabi ko
"Wala iyon. Sige una na ako. Bye." Sabi niya at umalis na
I love reading books specially fairytale, and that day I thought 'oh, I want to be his princess.'
I never thought na makikita ko pa uli siya. After all, he seems to be out of my league but he was there inside the same classroom I will occupy. I thought it was destiny. Maybe he's the one. Those silly thought flooded my young mind. Through the whole time my eyes were glued only on him. I really love his face but somehow it's not right. I feel like his smiles were fake.
I was walking in the hallway fantasizing of him, when a ball suddenly hit my face. Nahilo ako. I can't even think straight,
"Miss… Miss… are you okay? Miss… Miss…?" I heard faint voices but I can't afford to stay awake.
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Nagising ako sa clinic. Sinubukan kong tumayo pero pinigilan ako ng isang kamay. Napalingon ako sa may-ari ng kamay.
"It's you…" sabi ko
"Glad you remember. I'm Hoshino Allejandrez kapatid ako ng nakatama sa'yo ng bola. Sabi ng nurse may slight concussion ka so you better not move too much. Nakita kitang inaalalayan ni Nuri kaya binuhat na kita papuntang clinic. May practice pa sila pero sabi nila babawi sila sa iyo." He said while smiling
I was staring at his face without realizing it.
"May… may problema ba sa mukha ko, Miss? Kanina ka pa kasi titig ng titig eh."
I blushed. This is so embarrassing kaya napayuko ako. I heard him chuckle.
"You're too cute." Sabi niya habang nakangiti.
That's it. This is the smile that I wanted to see. Without realizing it I touched his cheeks.
"You're too handsome to fake smiles. This one suits you better. I like this real you." Di ko napigilang sabihin
Nagulat na lang ako ng hawakan niya ang kamay ko. Smile was no longer evident in his face.
"You don't know anything." He seriously said. "Don't get carried away." sabi niya atsaka tumayo na.
Hinawakan ko ang braso niya at pinigilan siya. I was also surprised when I did that. Hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko.
"I-I'm Amaris Monteagudo." Sinabi ko na lang
"S-sorry for saying unnecessary things." Nakayukong sabi ko
He didn't say anything. After a while, I was surprised when he suddenly patted my head kaya napatunghay ako sa kaniya.
There it is again… his fake smile.
"It's fine…" at binawi niya ang braso niya. "May gagawin pa ako kaya uuna na ako. Magpahinga ka muna. Mamaya babalik na ang nurse." Sabi niya at tuluyan ng umalis.
For some reason my heart is beating so fast when I remember that true smile. I somehow know how red is my face without seeing it. I want to see that smile again…
Ahhh… I really want to be his princess…