Two packages of ramen should be enough! But what if he eats two at once? I should get 5! 5 should be enough.
One for me,the rest for him!
Akira I'm home-
Where are you?
Maybe he's in the bathroom.
Akira,are you in there?
No answer,why did I even wait for one it's not like he couldn't leave I left a key after all,he had all the reasons to leave after waking up. I don't even have any reasons to keep him with me,I did not mark him and I'm not even dating him,I don't know him since forever. I should just move on and start to find an omega that will suit me, it's no business to just wait for things to fall from the sky or to wait for someone you admire to fall for you in an instant.
I should go back to what I was doing before leaving.
Should I call him?
Why I'm asking myself if I should call someone that doesn't even care about what I want at all,after all he's just a cute omega I met at a chalet vacation with some other friends, it's not that big of a deal,even so,I fell like I have a higher connection to him,I fell like I've been knowing him for a long time,did something that made me forget memories happen? I asked but no one gave me an answer but from today on,I need answers and if I won't get them I think I'll die. That's quite suspicious of me to die over an Omega, I'm an Alpha after all,the Omega should be the one craving and dying for the Alphas love not the opposite. But one thing is clear he's the one I like I was always thinking I was attracted to girls but today it seems like it's actually the opposite. I was always used to Omega's crushing on me without any effects coming from the fact that they might be male or female,all of the things were awkward for me back then,but now things are less than awkward. I was always used to have one night stands with other Omega's but a part of me was screaming to let the omega I was associating with for pleasure to just go away from me after every single touch. All of my one night stands were only for pleasure and only for that,I didn't even get to think if I really wish for those things,my body was craving pleasure during rut and regular hormonal changes.
The one I really wanted to pair with didn't even get to me on that time,I didn't even know them or if I'll ever get to know them,I was just pathetically wishing to just fly away like a bird in the sky and never return. As humans,we're weird,we seek love and affection but almost never know how to give it back. I might of had a moment where I felt weak and unsure of myself, everytime Akira's picture popped up on the friend group chat or randomly in my head i felt a little bit uneasy and confused,confused as to who I'm.
I kneel to search for something in the large room I gave Akira so that he could sleep peacefully, especially so that he won't feel like he's in a narrow place as I felt many years after I was released from the hospital,they never told me the reason that could explain why I was there and what actually happened to me,my parents always told me that I was in a car accident with them which was and still is weird because my mom doesn't drive and my dad couldn't because of an incurable illness. All my life I got home mostly by some relatives car,the bus and other things that can take you home.
A message? From who? Akira!
Akira: Kazuko,we need to talk.
Kazuko: Sure,what is it?
No answer. Why I'm still waiting? Is obvious that he will never talk seriously to me,he will just laugh as he did when talking to others.
Maybe I'm waiting because...
I like him.