Lowell
It hurts going to bed without having succeeded in getting Colin back to me. We are supposed to meet up with Ralph first thing in the morning. This is something that I can't wait long enough for.
It has actually taken a lot from me to not go look for him, but I don't want to mess things up and I promised Beau. I have to do this right so that things go the way I actually want them to.
After a shower, I go back to my room feeling more exhausted than I have ever been in my whole life. I have dealt with a lot of things. Growing up, my father was very strict with us. He wanted to make a man of me and I guess he did that. I grew up with the notion that being weak comes from being kind. My father wasn't the best role model, but he was the only one I had. He was there for me until he wasn't.
