Beau
Having children is one thing that no one will ever understand unless they experience it. My kids are basically adults, but when I see them in trouble, I will do anything to protect them.
Colin has always been the one that I worry about. He has always been in a shell and I did my best to bring him out of it, but I always knew he wouldn't be like his brother and I loved him for it. Right now, I need to figure out what is wrong with him.
I need to do the protecting, but he doesn't really want me to do it. He likes to think that he has it all figured out on his own, but he is far from that.
He is not as mature as Colm, and that is fine.
I dreaded the day when he would find his mate because that would just mean I would have to accept that he is grown and I am not ready for that.
Looking at him right now, the fear in his eyes, the confusion, I just want to keep him close in my arms and never let him go.
"Come out,'' I order his wolf because I need to get this straight.
I don't appreciate the things he just told me. There are wolves that are stubborn, but Colin's wolf has never been that kind. On the other hand, Colm is as free-spirited as his wolf. Colin has always been shy and always blended in with the crowd.
I love him and all the things he thinks are flaws.
He is perfect in my eyes.
His eyes brighten, and I feel the presence of his wolf. There is something off about it. I can't pinpoint it but I know there is something wrong, even though I don't understand it.
Once he fully comes out, I take a deep breath because I have to handle this properly.
"What is going on?" I ask him calmly.
"Nothing is going on, Alpha. Your son is being very immature."
The fact that he has the audacity to bring down the biggest part of himself just proves that more is happening than I can even comprehend. No matter what happens, a wolf is always supposed to be on one side.
The side of his vessel, the side of his second half, and even if he has those kinds of thoughts, he should never voice them out.
"And what do you mean by that. Colin is who he has always been. Nothing has changed." I remind him. He has lived with him for so long, he knows who he is.
This all doesn't make sense.
Nip this in the bud.
My wolf tells me impatiently
"You think he is wrong for not feeling things for his mate? You are so sure that this is not a mistake?'' I ask him.
"There are no mistakes. He decided to have fun and fucked the wrong person.''
I don't know what he is talking about. I don't even want to think about my son fucking someone. That is not a thought that should be running through my mind.
"And you are sure that this other person is not his mate?''
"That man is not our mate. He will never be. I will make sure of it."
There is a lot of I's in his sentences.
"You don't make the decisions for the two of you. Don't think you can start now."
A laugh escapes from his lips. I shiver at how angry he feels right now. The energy I am getting from him is so negative and that is not the way it should be.
'I am the only one that can make the decisions. He will end me if I let him."
"What do you mean by this?''
"You know what happens to a wolf that rejects a mate?"
I know the consequences of rejecting a mate, but I also know that this is something that my son has wanted for so long, so there has to be a logical explanation for why he is doing this.
My wolf is already getting impatient. "You have no right not being on his side,'' I glare at him.
"I have every right to push him in the right direction."
"What if the right direction you think is a mistake?" I ask him. I know there are no mistakes when it comes to this, but there could be something wrong. I don't want to believe that Colin is just being greedy. I don't want to believe that he is not just ready for this.
There is more to this, even though I don't know what it is yet.
He smiles slowly, almost like he is about to tell me something. "He is fucking his mate's brother. Do you see why I have to take matters into my own hands? Do you see why he has to listen to me? "
I stiffen at his words, the shock evident in my reaction. I am the Alpha. I cannot show weakness in front of him. I have to keep my stance, but I need to have a conversation with my son.
"I have done nothing wrong. I gave him the chance to have his fun, but it needs to end, and if he doesn't listen, I will take over completely.''
The threat is evident.
This kind of threat shouldn't even happen.
It has never happened before, and that is what scares me the most about this situation. This is my son. My fucking son, I will not stand and watch him lose himself to his wolf.
I will not let that happen.
"As you alpha, I command you to take a step back. Do not do anything that will end up hurting him. This is a warning to you.''
My tone is firm.
I am being the most serious I have ever been in regards to my kids and I mean every fucking word.
I don't know what is going on but I will not let anything hurt him.
He is the fucking priority.