Lowell
I don't want to think about what is happening because I know that Col is not happy with me right now. I can feel it in my bones, even though he is trying to be as supportive as he can.
I killed all those people.
Fifteen of them, and I should be ridden with guilt. I shouldn't be glad that they are all dead. I shouldn't feel the relief that I feel inside.
Killing is in my blood. It has been a way for me to survive. I shouldn't be glad that they are all dead, but I am.
I tried to do things the right way. I tried to be the bigger person--just as Col wanted for me, but they didn't listen and now they are gone.
My mind is a mess.
One that only being inside Colin can fix.
