Before I reach ten years old and my adult mind was a bit muddled, I still have this instinctive drive to not waste any on useless childish life.
I have enough of my fair share of that in my previous life.
Purely by instinct driven from whatever my adult mindset remains, my yet to reach ten years old child body was thrown in the whirl of studying.
I frequent our house library, reading books on sorcery. I have an unusually smart *overactive imagination* mind so I learn to manipulate my sea of consciousness. Whatever I read is stored in 'memory' box or memory space. I am not those types of blessed individuals who have that 'photographic' memory. But I am clever enough to create my own alter way to make up for what I lacked, in this world…
I am smart and can learn quickly in studying but I have a short memory span which means I have to 'revised' again and again of what I've thought I already learned during my academic years. It was a pain in the ass, it always makes me frustrated. There were times when I will punch my text book, throw them in frustration and even shed bitter tears while studying.
I have always wished that I could delve into my sea of consciousness and create a separate place to store memory I thought should be remembered for a long time.
In this world, my dreams are finally achieved. I could not be happier.
Since I have frequent the library from the time I was four years old, what I have to know and what I have to learn, I learned. My half child half mature mind may not fully grasp on whatever I store away in the memory box, but my now fully mature mind can understand them well.
Oh and, to make things clear, when I say mature mind, it does not mean I am a mature person. I feel that I am far from that, even up to when I am 21 years old, I still am childish.
People love to say 'act your age' but my answer to that was 'I have never been in this age before so I don't know how to act my age'.
People can learn, yes, but I just want to live in my own gullible way. I don't eat their food. I don't wear their clothes. I don't receive money from them. I don't disturb their life. I only live in my own little small but wholesome yet broken world and I am perfectly fine with it.
People just love being nosy…
I will not say my mindset is right. There are many different opinions and different perspectives that is why, each to their own.
So, getting on to another topic, I have three goals in this world.
Number one, be powerful.
Number two, master sorcery to the zenith.
How exciting! Thinking of such makes me smile gleefully and in great anticipation.
Number three, be prepared for the upcoming war.
That is a side reason to be honest, it was a stupid reason but I have to be powerful enough to maintain my life and my family in this world.
Let the geek brings whatever he has to bring, in the mean time, I will study sorcery, become powerful as well as creating a lifeline for me and my family as my side quest.
By the way, I kept mentioning geek instead of main character because the high school boy is a devoted gamer. Have I mentioned before? The geek used a gun, Remmington type, yes, a fantasy add remmington gun. He was not only proficient in gun but apparently also very good at short combat type, he used a knife, Tanto or sometimes change it to machete.
He chooses a very modern geeky type.
Should I say as expected of geek?
Choosing one of the coolest yet never seen before weapon…
The geek also constantly searches for a way to return to earth because… duh… 'No internet, no games'. For a hardcore gamer, that is akin to hell punishment.
The thought of that make me snicker.
Hmmm… I don't have anything against geek, really.
A reader like me can dwell in any world as long as there is book. I may no longer have access to web novels but at least books have accompanied me.
"Young miss, dinner is ready"
I look up to my personal maid Lina who informed me of such. I look behind Lina and saw that the servants have brought dinner.
A group of rainbow hair servants…
This world does have those crazy hair colors.
Right now, I was in the library sitting on the chair and jotting down notes I think is important.
I put away my notebook and close the book I was currently reading.
"You can arrange them"
I said, indicating to Lina that they can put the tray on the table.
When at home, the Ducal is not that strict on eating etiquette, except for when the family is all present then will we have dinner at the dining table.
My mother, the Duchess is a busy person with endless paperwork so she and father normally dine on the study hall.
To make up for the parent and child bonding time, my parent and I will go out for picnic or other bonding activities once every month.
Lina, this competent maid of mine has personally cut the steak beforehand so that I won't have to. The chicken soup is super delicious, the salad is also good. I like avocado.
"Miss is the dinner to your liking?"
It was Mina, my other personal maid.
She was smiling while wiping away the oil that stains my lips, I tilt my head to make it easier for her to wipe.
"Yes, thanks the chef for me"
There is no harm in complimenting a work that is worth complimenting.
"Chef Nox will be happy to hear that"
Mina said with a smile.
I nod in reply and continue enjoying my dish.
While eating my dish, I thought about the things I have read so far. I have almost finished reading the incantation book of the middle section of the library.
Not that I learn them all, it means I store them away in my memory space.
Our library is divided into three sections.
Beginner section, middle section and higher section, with each section, the tier of the books contain in it is higher respectively.
I have finished reading the beginner section incantation book by the time I reached eight years old. I will eventually finish reading the middle section incantation book by next week.
With my adult mind becoming clearer, I could efficiently make use of my ether as well as my memory.
So far, I have only continuously absorbs theoretical knowledge and hardly put them in practical usage. I want to have a concrete knowledge before anything else.
Knowledge is wonderful.
When it was time for me to go to sleep, I obediently close my eyes but I do not rest.
My physical body is at rest but my mental side is active. I have to assimilate the memory I stored up in my memory box so that it will become my own, a memory and knowledge truly belonging to me.
All the things I've read today are merely stored away in a mental space and are not memorized.
My body and mind are always put at work.
Creating a mental space is not the only thing that I achieve.
I have divided my sea of consciousness into memory space or memory box, will of consciousness and the main brain, conscious thought.
I cannot alter my sea of consciousness more than that. I will have to look up to why I cannot alter more than that.
Memory space as was known is where I store memories of what I've learned and see. Will of consciousness is the one body one mind, meaning, it is the consciousness that controls the body. I haven't fully mastered that yet but I've get the hang of it. To have a mind and body moving in sync is a difficult thing. The moment I thought is the moment my body moves, at the exact co-ordinate.
I try to own my body even down to the reflex system.
Lastly, conscious thought; this is my own subconscious thinking. I try to have full control of my sub-conscious thought. Sub-conscious is spontaneous and emerges whenever, wherever. I have practiced to master my own thought, not my thought taking over me but me taking over my thought.
I want to re-write a type of personality and mindset I want, my sub-conscious thought must follow along whatever mindset I re-write.
I guess I am somewhat of a controlling person. Thankfully, that controlling tendency was only subjected to my-self. I have never thought of controlling any other life forms except me.
I have only manages to create my memory space before I turn ten years old.
After I did turn ten years old, with the flow of ether, I divide my sea of consciousness into three forms.
Hurray to ether for giving me an opportunity to do such.
I have always wanted to divide my consciousness into such three forms in my previous life.
I sigh…
I have a lot to make up for what I always wished for in my previous life. I will fulfill them one by one, consider it as me making up for my past regretful wishes and dreams.
Sometimes, I feel kind of bloated. I have so many things in mind that I want to achieve and it frustrated me to great heaven because I am bad at managing myself and my time. I don't know what to do first and how to go step by step.
Calm down… You can do it!
I have to motivate myself as such.