"Ow...!" Rina shouted by pinching her arm. Eza looked at Rina and felt strange about the girl. Rina still can't believe that Eza is in her room.
"Don't shout like that, it's already night! Do you want us to be accused of immorality by the neighbors? So shut up, take your medicine quickly," Eza ordered in his usual tone.
Eza instead sat on the sofa in Rina's room and opened the curtain slightly while enjoying the heavy rain. Rina sits down and is about to drink.
When holding the glass Rina trembled greatly. Eza immediately got up from his seat and approached Rina.
Eza grabbed the glass then opened the medicine for Rina. "Don't even think about it. I'm doing this so you don't get sick. If you get sick, the wedding will automatically be postponed. So I want you to get well soon."
It really hurts Eza's forced attention. "I'd rather die than marry," said Rina curtly and threw the medicine.
Eza glared at him looking very annoyed. However, because there was his mother he did not dare to be angry.
"Now please get out of my room!" Rina said harshly but quietly, pointing to the door. Rina didn't dare to look at Eza's face at all.
"Get out! What do you think I want. If you want to get married, just get married. I'm the one who's sick. Not your future wife!" said Rina very annoyed.
Eza approached with both hands supporting her body on the edge of the bed, then leaned her face towards Rina. Rina lowered her body, and their gazes met at one point.
"Maybe I'm just being selfish."
"Obviously!" said Rina with annoyance while turning her face away. However, Rina was increasingly unable to avoid the turmoil in her heart. Feelings of pain all and cheeks heat up.
"I'm sorry," said Eza with a regretful tone.
"Late!" Rina said still not daring to look at Eza. 'Ah, at least so that we can marry together and the marriage is not delayed and her mother doesn't have a heart attack. Base!' Rina cursed in her heart.
The longing was more surprised when Eza sat on the edge of his bed.
"I don't know what's in your heart," said Eza, looking towards the door.
"I hate you. That's what's in my heart!" Rina exclaimed in a high and then low voice. Rina continued to hold her chest which was beating like she was going to war.
'I've always been aware, I'm just like the nun in 'idghom bilagunnah'. There but not considered. And my heart ... why you?' asked Rina in her heart.
"I'm sorry if I did all this out of necessity. You're a good girl Rina, you shouldn't get Dirga like that. You know, I'm alone." Eza hasn't finished speaking yet, his voice has become hoarse and his chest is growing and falling.
Rina saw the sadness of Eza, she continued to look at the man she had loved so far from behind. The distance between the two was only one meter. Rina was on the bed and Eza was on the edge of the bed while sitting with her back to Rina.
Eza was stunned by bending her head. "Many friends say that my love is blind. My love is crazy. Every bad thing from Diamond I can't see. I was betrayed by Diamond many times. I'm willing to defend it. For you, maybe I'm stupid too. But really, I understand I can't live without Diamond. ."
It's very painful to hear it all from Eza's mouth. Eza's confession almost made Rina cry.
"Est...huh... I was betrayed so many times. I was angry, I broke up. I thought I'd be fine. But I turned out to be a crazy person, after breaking up. No one thought about my feelings. I am also aware that Intan does not love me sincerely. But I am very sure, one day she will be able to accept me. I don't know what your opinion will be. You will call me stupid, crazy, blind because of love. Or love dies! It's up to you, "said Eza then raised his face to look at Rina.
"Na ... I was devastated and very hurt when I didn't hear from Intan. I was like a confused person. It felt like I lost half of my life. He ... strange." Eza is aware of her excessive love.
Rina who had been staring at Eza immediately looked away, to cover her feelings.
"I continue to forgive his mistakes. A fatal mistake he has made and often does. Most people will not forgive if they are hurt and betrayed. When cheating is in front of my eyes. My friends wonder why I am not angry. What do you think I am?" Eza asked Rina.
'How can I answer, I'm just like you. But clearly different, Intan's mistake was very fatal. Who knows. We are both aware and know that loving someone too much is very painful. But like me, this too can't escape. I love you blindly,' Rina thought while exhaling.
"I can't judge you. And, I also don't know it's love or lust. I can only pray. So that one day your love becomes pure love, love that can be in goodness towards His Rida. Amen." Rina raised her hand and then rubbed her face.
"I once thought. Who cares about my feelings. The only thing I'm blind because of is love. Every bad thing from Intan I can never hate. Huft ... I hope, after marriage, I can turn the bad into good. Thank you for Your prayers. And I hope Mother will also accept Intan. I love you very much, so I hope you will continue to accept Dirga as your future husband. Bring Dirga to goodness too. I'm sure you can. Because you are a good girl. Est... Heh. I'm sorry," Eza said, wiping her face because of the tears rolling down her cheeks, and stood up.
Then Eza took the medicine and opened it.
"This is a drink. Don't throw it away again. Since it's free, your face is also pale, drink quickly!" Eza handed me the medicine and a glass.
Rina swallowed hard, grabbed the glass with still shaking hands, then drank. He didn't even dare to look Eza in the eyes. Rina immediately put the glass back in the drawer.
"If you manage to recover. We'll play in the rain later." Eza said that quickly then walked out of Rina's room. Rina was silent, frowning.
"Did I hear wrong earlier? Did he ask me to play in the rain? Ah...." Rina lay down and tried to close her eyes.
'I see the hurt and sadness of excessive love. And I'm sad too. Does he also feel my feelings, which continue to blindly love him? Does his heart also pity me? I continue to care and can not be indifferent. Is this actually a feeling of love or what...? Why don't I understand.' Rina is worried and doesn't understand her indecision.
"It was as if he was sorry because he couldn't reciprocate my feelings. I'm sure it was because of that. Hua ... sleep Rina ... sleep. The dizziness is gone, now it comes to languishing," complained Rina then covered all parts of the body with a blanket.
Continued.