Arriving at the house, Aunt Shelena was not in the house because she was busy taking care of business and also the legacy of Reina's parents. Sebastian also invites Reina to go to the garden behind the house which has a fish pond. "Let's sit by the pool. This is a therapeutic fish pond. We can take off our shoes and socks and sit by the pond for fish therapy."
Reina was confused because she had never had therapy in a fish pond at all. "Are our feet going to be eaten by the fish?"
"You are very funny! There's no way this fish can eat our feet. It's just therapy. It might be ticklish at first."
Reina followed what Sebastian said. Sebastian had never spoken at length like this during Reina's stay at Aunt Shelena's. Reina felt bad too because Sebastian had a fight with Lee this morning. While sitting next to Sebastian, Reina was silent for a while enjoying the cold pool water when her feet went in, followed by the fish that started crowding at Reina's and Sebastian's feet. Reina bit her lower lip to keep from being tickled by the small to medium size fish swarming at her feet.
"Reina...."
"Yes? What's the matter, Sebastian?"
"Don't do this to me again, okay?"
"You mean?"
"Don't go to school alone, stay away from me, and be close to Lee."
"Why it can not? Don't I have the right to do that? It doesn't hurt you."
"I am jealous." Sebastian firmly expressed his heart that made the man fight with Lee this morning at school. Though the fight could be a problem because Sebastian had never fought before at school.
"Jealous?!" Reina widened her eyes in disbelief at the words that had just been said by the cousin sitting beside Reina.
"Yes, I am indeed jealous! So, I beg you not to do what I forbid earlier. I can't control myself and want to get mad at Lee who always approaches you in class."
"But… Lee is just my classmate and nothing more than that. Then, why are you controlling me so much? Aren't we just cousins?" Reina dared to ask that question because all this time in Reina's mind was also raging with all the unclear feelings.
"I don't want you to get hurt." The last words Sebastian spoke before the man's face with the sharp nose drew closer to Reina's face and their lips finally met and intertwined.
The first kiss is always addictive. Once tried, it feels like repeating every chance. Just as Sebastian was feeling right now. No matter where Shelena was, Sebastian kissed Reina's lips expectantly. Marking that Reina belongs to Sebastian even though the feeling looks wrong because they are cousins, even though they have never met before. Sebastian is not sure that Reina is a real cousin because Shelena never talks about Reina at all.
Reina didn't reject Sebastian's kiss at all. For some reason it feels like both of them really want to kiss, a sign that they have the same taste but are reluctant to express it clearly. After a few minutes, Reina broke away from Sebastian's embrace.
"This is wrong. Sorry I can not. Aunt Shelena will definitely be mad at me."
Reina immediately got out of the fish therapy pond and ran into the house without caring that her shoes and socks were still on the edge of the pond. Sebastian just kept quiet and didn't chase Reina. There is sadness and joy at the same time. Sebastian was sad to know they were cousins and it would be bad if Shelena found out. Sebastian was also happy because he could give Reina a close feeling sign to know what the man was feeling and move away from Lee.
"I love you, Regina. Do I have to say this in front of you? I don't think it's the right time yet." Sebastian was talking to himself as he watched Reina leave.
Reina was confused by the increasingly uncertain feeling. Anything Reina wanted to cry but couldn't and was afraid that something bad would happen if Aunt Shelena found out about what Sebastian and Reina were doing. Kissing became something that seemed very embarrassing and forbidden for a good girl like Reina. But this is the third time Sebastian has kissed Reina. It can't be like this all the time. Reina is afraid Aunt Shelena will be furious and throw Reina out of the house so she can't see Sebastian again.
Reina entered the room and immediately locked the door. The girl lay on the bed which was not soft, then looked up at the ceiling and held her chest to check for an erratic heartbeat. "Jealous? Why are you jealous of me? You stupid. You are my cousin. Why did you kiss me three times already? Irritating! You make me confused and uncertain, Sebastian!"
Reina actually also likes Sebastian but in this condition they seem to have no chance for a future together. How could cousins be in love with each other? That doesn't make sense. Reina tried to forget and looked at her cellphone. It turns out that Lee sent some messages and looks worried because Reina is home with Sebastian. Lee misunderstood, thinking Sebastian treated Reina badly.
Reina also replied to Lee's message and explained that everything was fine. Reina also hoped that Lee wouldn't fight with Sebastian again. Reina felt sad seeing them fighting like that. Especially if the teacher found out, it would be a big problem for Sebastian and Lee. Reina didn't want a fight to tarnish their good name.
"Reina?" Lee called after the message got a reply from Reina.
"Yes, Lee. Why call? I've already replied to your message."
"I was worried about you, Reina."
"I'm fine, Lee. Sebastian was nice to me. No problem."
"I missed you, Reina."
Reina fell silent hearing Lee say that. Why is Reina's life in such a confusing way? To be liked by two great men at the same time must be happy for another girl, but confusing for Reina. Reina chose to end the conversation on the cellphone with the reason Aunt Shelena called. Lee didn't mind that either.
"Why is life so confusing? Sebastian was jealous of me being approached by Lee. Meanwhile, Lee misses me even though he just separated from school some time ago. Why is it confusing like this?!"
Reina ruffled her long hair. Feeling confused about the current feelings whether for Sebastian or Lee? Reina didn't know what to say at all. On the one hand, happy with Sebastian from the first kiss. On the one hand, Reina is also attracted to Lee, who has been attentive since the first time they met. Would it be greedy if Reina lived with the two men? Isn't there love between them? Surely everything will be fine if there is no special relationship between the three. Reina couldn't choose because Sebastian and Lee weren't an option.