I have never had love.

I was born as the eldest son of Jacob Glenmyre, the Lord of Glenmyre who governs the eastern part of the Southern Crane Empire.

My mother, the lady of the Glenmyre clan, died while birthing me.

It was just a political marriage, no tears were shed on my fathers part and I don't suppose I can miss a woman I never really knew.

So, as soon as mother passed, he married Angela Hill, the daughter of the Baroness Hill, as his second wife.

And less than half a year after I was born, my younger brother, Lewis, was born between my father and his second wife.

In other words, they were having an affair while my mother was still breathing.

Unlike my mother, he liked her very much.

Two years later, Lewis's younger sister, Anna, was born, and her father, mother-in-law, younger brother, and younger sister were a family portrait worthy family.

Now, I live alone. A mansion, though. I reside there with my servants.

I only meet my father once a year when my grandfather asks him to meet with me.

However, I don't suppose he likes me very much either. At the most I just receive a passing glance from him.

When I see either of them, I usually just freeze.

My father's wife, my step mother, despises me and curses me every time we meet.

Unlike me, my younger brother and sister were given their love by their parents and grew up happily, arrogantly, and proudly.

「Brother, I broke the jar that father cherished. Please apologize instead.」

This was also a daily occurrence.

Why would I be such an easy push over, you may ask.

「Yeah.. No problem, Lewis.」

While picking up the shattered pieces of the jar, I smile.

I did this to maintain my position in the Glenmyre family, but why else?

I wanted to be part of my family.

By me taking his position, my younger brother may come to love me.

I knew I was crazy, but what other hope did I have?

What was the fruit of my actions, though?

One month imprisonment in a poorly lit barn.

I always made every effort to improve myself.

However, unlike Lewis and Anna, I wasn't taught any stuff schoolwise, swordsmanship, or etiquette.

So I learned by myself sneaking into the library to read a book, or hiding and watching Lewis and Anna learning from a tutor and practicing the art ofswordsmanship.

I wasted a lot of time, and I had plenty of time to improve myself.

Then, I was still practicing in my fourteenth year.

The odd thing was, I was to go against a knight during this time.

But, they all know I haven't learned swordsmanship, so why?

Apparently, my stepmother wants me to be hurt.

But... maybe my dad would admit I am his child if I defeated the knight.

As a result of thinking with such naivety, I challenged the game with all of my might.

「Well, I'm here!」

A knight falls down on the ground and admits to losing.

I was looking down at him with hopeful eyes.

Haha... Now my father is looking at me too!

Thinking so, I turned my gaze toward my father.

...He looked at me and nodded with satisfaction!

I was delighted.

I trembled with joy.

Ah... this makes me a member of the family.

After that, I was recognized for my talent for swordsmanship and was immediately entrusted to a middle-aged man, an instructor.

And the training stuck.

Whether it's vomiting blood or screaming, I've been trained without any effort .. I've become an assassin.

After that, I killed all the enemies of the Glenmyre's.

That is regardless of age, gender or status.

But every time I was happy.

Because when I was murdering, I realized that I was a member of my family.

As a result of such assassinations, my father who took control of the Southern Crane Empire ...executed this servant as the culprit in a series of aristocratic murders.

That was my first time

It was my life.

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After finishing my first life, I woke up on the bed the morning before the match with the knight.

I was confused.I didn't understand the situation, but I finally realized that I was back in the past with my face and appearance that left my childhood in the mirror.

So, in light of my first mistake in life, I was deliberately defeated by the knight.

Of course, the assassination technique I learned in my first life was alive and well, and I could kill this knight whenever I wanted to.

But... if I did that, I wouldn't be recognized as a family forever.

So, I let the barrage continue.

Perhaps she was satisfied with it, my stepmother stood up with a smile.

From then on, I decided to learn more than swordsmanship.

So, after that, I continued to study by myself, at least most of the books in the Glenmyre family, including history, business administration, law, and even royal studies.

I was given the task of assisting my younger brother.

To that end, I first approached my younger brother and decided to gain credibility by doing the tasks that were given at the Imperial Academy he attended.

As a result.

「Haha! Thanks to my brother, the assignment was the highest rated!」

「Well... that's good.」

Yeah... Apparently my brother recognized me as my brother.

As a proof of that, after that he started to rely on me for everything at the academy, including assignments.

Of course, I took the exams as a substitute.

Even in such a place, the disguise technique for assassination that I learned in my first life was useful.

As I continued to do that, my brother even left me to go to the academy.

I was happy that I gained the trust of my younger brother, but above all, as my younger brother, I enjoyed my life

I could study as much as I wanted, and I could call myself his friend ...

But... it's all my brother's life ...

Even though I had doubts about such a life, I continued to live as a substitute for my younger brother.

And... finally graduating from the academy, when my brother and I turned eighteen.

I was poisoned by my brother Lewis.

The second life was over.

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Third time. Died when I was nineteen years old. My stepmother set fire to my mansion.

Fourth time. At the age of seventeen, my sister's selfishness made me a playmate for a demonic beast that my father bought illegally. I was bit and died.

Fifth time. I was assassinated at the age of 16 when I was mistaken for my younger brother.

Sixth time.

「 Leon, you will be executed at noon tomorrow on charges of overthrowing the nation.」

I was sentenced to death by my father.

「But.. Nevertheless, I devoted my life to Lewis ... and thus to the Lorddom of Glenmyre. I'm honored. 」

「...............」

I can be an assassin and kill people for my father.

For my younger brother, I can raise his reputation as a replacement for him

For my mother-in-law, for my sister, for my grandfather, for my house, for my country.

My role was to die as a substitute for my stupid little brother who did stupid things.

「Ha, haha ​​...」

「Leon?」

No... laughter rise forth from my throat, threatening to overwhelm me.

When the man I saw was my father in front of me, I expected him to come to save me.

My dad.. At last, I expected myself to be recognized as family.

Oh... what did I want?

Such a thing…

「 Ahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha」

「... Did you finally lose it?」

Did I lose it?

Oh, that's right.

I believe I have.

I don't need a family anymore.

「What !?」

I thrust the hidden blade into my chest.

「Haha… ha... next .. absolutely ...」

To the man who was my father staring silently at me, I mouthed my last words.

Next time absolutely.

Lewis... Stepmother... Anna… The Lord of Glenmyre...

And for the sixth time, I died.