I just got out of the hospital yesterday, now I'm sick again. Oh my goodness, Muna is so weak.
Today I did not come to Dana's office, after coming home from meeting Akasy, I turned around and went home. My head hurts, I can confirm that my body temperature is not normal.
I need to rest, I feel like I will fall again after being married to Dana. Arriving at my brother house, the surroundings looked very quiet. You can't see Sis Ciki's nose, maybe she's going home to her parents.
I rushed up to the second floor, to my room. I have to sleep, this head looks like a lot of people, as if the contents are at war. Finally I fell asleep but half conscious, I was able to filter out the noise from the first floor.
"Ki, Muna is back?"
"I don't know, I just got home too. Didn't he go to the office earlier, didn't he meet his own wife?"
"If she working, I don't come here."
"Maybe it's okay, isn't there a child in the room. Even though I said goodbye to work this morning."
Yes, it's a conversation that goes to the eardrums. The voices of my sister-in-law and husband, again - again husband.
My mouth is too self-conscious. My bedroom door knob turned, who else if not Dana came to see me, ouch, just pretending to be unconscious.
" Honey.." The call was very soft, low but I could hear, "Sleep?"
I saw his wife's eyes were closed, so go to sleep, Dana. Not really. He walked over to me and sat beside me. I took a deep breath as his hand touched my head, confirming things. It's true that I'm not feeling well, but Dana doesn't have to pay attention either.
"Uh! Dana. It hurts you know." I turned Dana's hand away from my forehead.
"Are you sick again?"
I shook my head, "no."
"Then why sleep?"
"Want a dream, so sleepy." I looked at him fiercely, "What are you doing here anyways, it's not break time yet, right?"
"Worried, Na. Mas's wife is not working, where were you?" He asked.
"Campus, meet the lecturer." I tighten the blanket that covers the body. Dana's fingers moved to the front of my nose, feeling the breath coming out.
"Warm, you have this fever." He said again, looking at me.
"Yeah, I have a headache. I feel like throwing up, the ceiling is spinning too. But that's normal, right? It'll get better later, that's why I want to sleep."
"Who said normal? Come on, get treatment." Ask him to panic," or me just call the doctor to come."
I just nodded, my body is quite weak. My legs can't support it, I just feel like walking. It's still quite reasonable, not too bad. Looks like Dana immediately called the doctor, I don't know whose doctor he was calling. Not long ago, only gave the address after asking him to come to the house, then Dana was busy calling the others. Looks like Sis Vayuna, asked her meeting schedule to be postponed, just because of me?
"The doctor is on his way to the house, be patient." He smoothed my hair that covered my eyes, "Tell me, yes, Na. If it hurts like this, don't keep it quiet."
"Yes, Sir." I mumbled helplessly, I saw Dana's sincere face, it made me suffer even more.
Even though the decision to marry is a decision that I made myself, basic, my very own children, Muna Syabila.
STATE WEDDING
The doctor is beautiful, the woman wears a hijab, the white headscarf she wears makes her face even more shady. His eyeballs are also tanned, his speech is very and very soft, his behavior really amazes me.
Throughout my health check, his smile never left the corner of his lips. How can Dana have an acquaintance with a special doctor like this?
"Anugrah, your wife should get a lot of rest, okay?" He said to Dana, "Don't let your wife get stressed, make sure you don't eat late, there are ulcer symptoms too. This is a prescription drug, you can redeem it at the nearest pharmacy."
" Now?"
"Yes, if you want. It's fine later, but it has to be today." She flashed a faint smile at Dana.
How come she knows Dana and Anugrah, why is it different?
" What's your name?" This time the doctor's shady face turned to me.
"Muna, Doc." I answered, now I'm really curious, who is this doctor?
"Well, Muna. Remember, health is very expensive. God's favors cannot be bought with money, later when the medicine has been redeemed by Anugrah, you have to take medicine regularly, so that you get well quickly. Don't stress too much, because you have a husband, you have a shoulder to lean on. Just tell me your problem, Anugrah is a man who can provide the best solution." Say it at length. I nodded again, grinning.
"Okay Doc," my eyes turned to Dana, he was still standing straight behind the doctor, my eyes shifted, looking at the name stuck in a doctor's proud coat.
Syafa Geumala Adha.
A beautiful name, just like the person and her current demeanor.
"That's understandable, isn't it, Muna? Then, I have to say goodbye. I have some work to do, because I got a call from Anugrah."
"Yes, Doc. Thank you very much for your time and willingness to treat me." I said no less sweet.
Surprisingly, since earlier, Dana prefers to be a listener rather than replying, at least telling me about my other complaints. Nausea, for example, or what foods should I avoid. Just small talk, no.
" Thankyou , Syaf. May God repay your kindness today."
I almost coughed hearing Dana's words, he finally opened his mouth when Syafa's doctor got up from the chair.
"Amen, it's okay, this is my job as a doctor. May God always bless your marriage with blessings. Oh yes, I forgot. Barakallahulakum wa baraka alaikum for your marriage."
Dana nodded, then looked at me. I immediately turned my gaze away from him, as if something was not right. Is that the woman that Dana loved, the only woman who ever filled his heart but chose to marry another man?
If it's true, it's only right that he closes his heart for too long, failing to move on. With the quality of Syafa's doctor, which man wouldn't be heartbroken if he had to end a relationship. After taking Syafa's doctor home, Dana came back to see me.
"Let's buy chicken porridge, let's have lunch together at home." Invite him enthusiastically. "Yes, just order it." I just finished answering, Sis Ciki was already standing in the doorway.
" Muna sick again?" Her voice sounded very worried, " I just saw that a doctor came out of your room."
"Yes, Ki. But don't worry, she already has a husband, let me take care of him."
My eyes bulged hearing the answer that Dana gave.
Sis Ciki chuckled. "Yeah right, you're the main reason Una has a fever? Take it easy. And, don't push my sister-in-law too much. She's still young, her immune system isn't as strong as you who are getting older, hold on a little bit of your lust."
" Ow, what the hell is this, Sis." I grumbled, understanding the meaning of what she said, "I'm not sick because Dana, let alone what you said. I'm tired of thinking about your proposal, ouch."
She laughed," take care you wife, Dan."
" Don't worry." Dana asked.
The atmosphere became silent, he was awkward and I became clumsy too.
"Think of it as the wind and Ciki's words." I laughed a little, my head was nodding." How come, isn't that right?"
"Yes, that's right, but it's impossible for you to ask forcibly." My eyes widen, it's the best, I don't mention sensitive things.
"Doctor Syafa earlier, your ex-lover, huh?"
"No, why are you suddenly asking her?" Dana was quite surprised to hear my question.
"From the way you call it, it's already different, that's really special."
He sighed, casting a glance out the window.
"You can be as sensitive as that." He smiled faintly, "Syafa is not my ex-lover, but his ex-wife."
UHUK.
"Are you a widower, Sir?" I swear, I was really shocked, my goodness, is this guy really a widower?
Oh, how come I usually marry a man who was married to another woman, okay, that's too much.
But I was really shocked, looking at Dana's face with a look of disbelief.
"A week of marriage, no more than that we divorced."
I cleared my throat, suddenly there was a feeling I couldn't accept in my chest.
"You should be honest, if you've ever been married." I said annoyed, a little angry at him.
" She the one who asked not to think our marriage exists, and i intends to tell you too. But our marriage was just so sudden, even though me wants to try to get your feelings first and then be honest."
"Legal in religion and state?"
His head nodded again. "Yes, both are valid, Na."
I let out a very rough breath, annoyed to hear Dana's current narrative. "Why divorce? Have you got anything good from him?"
"What's good, Na, why do you always look down on me so lowly? A week of marriage nothing intimate happened, just sleep apart. Syafa doesn't want to be touched."
"Married again with your parents?"
"No, we've been close since college. We were together for five years and then we got married, and a week later he asked for divorce. By being forced, me did what Syafa wanted, because she said it was the best choice." Dana told the story in a sad tone.
I suddenly became jealous and also very sorry, when I was his second wife would treat the same thing. Dana doesn't know anything, there's nothing wrong with me either.
"How is the best? Haven't you two been close for five years?"
"You don't understand, you've tried various ways, to maintain a marriage at the age of a young corn. But the answer you keep hearing is that God doesn't bring your heart closer to her. Even though at that time, it was clear, i loved her very much."
"Yes, from the look in Syafa's eyes, there's still love for you." I answered knowingly.
"Not now, Na. We've been separated for a very long time, it's been almost four years, he only has three children."
"Do you have your son?"
" No, i said earlier, at our last marriage, she didn't want to be touched." My head nodded.
"Maybe she's not the right person to be a mother to your children."
"Yes, because my wife is you. Then you will be the mother for my children."
I swallowed my saliva, there was great hope implied in Dana's words.
How is this, it seems I have to ask God for guidance on my current choice. I love Akasy, even we have a commitment to get married. The position is that I've been married to another man, I should have finished everything before I solidified my heart in building a marriage.
But I also can't forget that Dana is on the verge of a difficult choice, if I choose to remain silent. Because of rumors of our scandal that has been designed by several parties to bring down the good name of the company. I heard myself using two healthy ears. Dana will surely fall and go bankrupt.
TBC.