11:03 pm
Dark night
I am walking onĀ jungle on holding on cigarette on hand
and another hand with one bottle bear
And full of bear, cigarette,bear
Vat drugs in bag
well i had to nothing to worry.no family no relatives ,only enjoyed every movement of my life
Today enjoyed day .
No fear ,
No worry
No family
Now I am free from any relationship.
Nor I have family
but there is one someone who i cared most
A girls whom I loved more than years
Now I what I got
I have only
Full of regret
You
Don't think that i am street begger
not begger am lover
i left everything for one girl'
parents,
Friends
Wife , children love
I had everyone but now
Now i had 4 children
Three sons
One daughter
One wife whom I never loved
My wife Julie
Julie my wife
through i hate my wife
This reason my children never
Respected liked father
Tits for that's
haha
yes or no
think yourself and tell me
i am going for another shots
I never do anything liked father
he was great
he love everyone
Same on me .
My father forced me to.married
Julie .
he know that I loved someone else another. Girls
More than years
They thinkĀ I would forget a whom i loved so they tricked on me to marry Julie
SoĀ they played games
And trick on that I confused married.a girls whom I never loved
After 32 years
Father mother gone
They expired
other wise i killed them
haha i am joking
Father that My fucking brainĀ
Wake-up
Just fuck everyone
Now every day every hour from childhood upto now I loved her same liked childhood my heart beat rate increase when I imagine her
Every minute
Every second
I just felt
Her
That girls whom i loved
After a years my wife know everything but still she say nothing
She just for satisfied to me I only used her
Julie
And Julie gave birth to babies
I don't care my own blood so
I never treat my wife liked this and atleast my children dont have a time to give them time
It's my biggest fault
I don't careĀ anyone on that times
When she gave birth to my babies
I was on taking drugs imagine my beloved loved
Who mad liked this
I had done
So.many mistake.
Now I am liked wild animals
No destination
Just go with flowed where my foot takes .
Where the destination
Took to me
I am liked wild animals
One places to places to another
I think that you are curious to know more about me
Just wait I would tell everything
Just seconds
I was born Delhi
Where we lived in rent house my father
Worked there .
Near rent house there the another house there
There sheĀ lived my be loved
She lived with father mother one sister and herself
. everything going good
We together went school
Play together ,dances together
Fight together, doing homework together.
i love her ā¤ļø together
.
I loved her
I can't live without her
Please some tell herĀ I love her so much.
One day I will come there
After everything good I think butĀ my father work not going good
So he thinks to moved on NepalĀ father went to Nepal for his own house to settle her
In Nepal may I am remember that day when we separate . fucking day .
Just wait and claim
Everything will openĀ my
My secret too
HereĀ
I am enjoying
Taking tabletĀ
And chilling
One more shots my beloved
On my hand
That she say she loved I also loved her
I know that it's only imagination
In reality may be she married
Or she died
Or may she alive she remembersĀ or not
These thoughts killed me inside
Agin one more drinks
Why bear is so tasty pepsi
huh
Agin i remember that day the principal mam scold meĀ I haven't done homework , making noises on class
I am.naughty boy in class
And after she scold me
There
She made me lord Krishna there and she made Radha too just guess you can guess it
You right
My loved one
That day I remember
So.many times I went to india Delhi to search her but how cannotĀ I find her my old rent house
Suppose if you are in my condition what you
Do
Just tell.me
I just want to see her
,
.if she married or she happy in her life I am not going to mentioned my name I just moved here and cry in slient but she is trouble I would help her. Any how
But 4 ,5 times I went India
By tricking my father to learn computer course,for job , working etc
,Study, travelling or.else.
Also I save money from daily pocket life .
It's not easy I do everything
May be the god don't want to
I think.that you all become bored
Today for this much
.
One thing just loved your family .
Atleast give times to your children
Just what your heart wants and
On aboutĀ toĀ doings fulfilled your don't leave family okay got it
I am bad ass who crazy in loved and now his family throwed liked garbage
I am going to searchĀ
another footpath to sleep now I know I do so many mistake stillĀ I love her
You know who i am talking about
......
still continuing
.