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Chapter 2 - Over the edge

McKenna

It was 9:00 PM, my shift had just ended at the hospital where I worked. I was tired and in need of a serious shower, Quincy was already at home I had just gotten off the phone with him after making sure he had dinner I left for him, he was 16 years old and old enough to look after himself for a few hours so I was not worried about him even though he could be childish at times he was my little big brother who would sometimes act older than his age. I guess life made him grow up too fast and that was something no matter how much I tried to protect him from, I could never do. He is very athletic and smart and I know that he will do great things one day so that is why I had to give him the best; making sure he needed nothing.

I got in my car that needed an upgrade but as long as it got me where I needed to go I would not complain, my muscles were screaming to be put to rest but I still had four more hours before I would reach the hut I called home the only good thing my mother left us.

I heard a song playing softly in the background pulling me out of my thoughts, as I reached a stop light I turned up my radio and sang along with the melody as it played the tunes that made my body hum to every beat,

"Baby, the sound of you

Better than a harmony

I want you off my mind

And on me

Holding me closer than we've ever been before

This ain't a dream"

This made me think of my ex and how much he would make me feel good after a long day of work even when he was having a bad day, he would stop at nothing to ensure that he showered me with kisses leaving behind hot trails of promises. I quickly jumped out of my thoughts when I heard a beeping behind me.

"Move it..estupido"

I shouted curses at myself for getting distracted by my own body, it had been a month since we broke up and after crying in the bathroom that very same day at my work, I never allowed myself to divulge in the memories; deep down I knew I was not over him and would never be and maybe some parts of me is relieved that I pushed him away so that he wouldn't be burden down by me, he was a great guy and he deserved someone who was not broken down by hard life I was too far gone to ever let anyone love me just to be hurt by me. Looking back now I wish I had given my body to him it wasn't like I was saving myself for marriage or any specific reason I just knew that if I did give him myself then I would never be able to push him away.

I finally made it home, as I opened the front door to my home I realized that only the light from the neighbor's backlight was shining through the windows which told me that Quincy was already asleep. I quietly made my way to my bedroom and immediately stripped out of my work clothes throwing them in the hamper with my underwear and headed to the shower, I did my nightly routine and got out feeling more relaxed and at ease, I was not feeling the need for food so I laid in my bed removing my hair tie and letting it flow freely on my pillows, that was going to cost me a detangle session tomorrow but I didn't care at the moment.

I was going through my phone when I saw my phone ringing form an unknown number,

"The heck?"

"Hello " I picked up the call after the third ring not sure who to expect.

"I'm outside, please let me in"

I instantly recognize who was on the call.

"Why are here this late it's 12:00 AM in the morning! Are you crazy did you forget we broke up"

I asked raising my voice but not too loud to alarm my brother.

"Please let me in I just want to see you before I leave, I leave in a few hours my dad needs me to come home".  He said speaking with urgency.

I made a loud sigh, I was unsure as to the reason for this visit after a long while I slipped into my night dress and made my way to the door to have a quick talk and send him on his way. I slowly unlocked the door and opened it wide without a word of acknowledgment, I guess he was expecting my reaction because he didn't  say anything about my attitude that was now on my face and in my actions.

We sat staring at each other not knowing what or how to start the conversation as tho we were strangers.

"So mind telling me why you hear so late, you could have messaged me," I said crossing my arms and legs over the other.

" I needed to see you and I know I hurt you when I left and I just wanted to clear things up and get some closure with us before I leave."

I let out a soft chuckle and humed in my now shaky butterfly stomach.

" I missed you, he proceeded to speak.

I gripped my arm so hard I was sure I was going to be scarred. I missed him too but I would not admit this to him as much as I so badly wanted to.

He didn't wait for my response I guess he knew me well enough to tell when im suppressing something because he moved so quickly I didn't see when he reached over and hoisted me up into his arms as if on instinct I wrap my legs around him while pressing my arms against his shoulder. I was disappointed in the way my body traitorously acted on its own without notice, I suddenly realized that I was not wearing any underwear and at that moment I was too far gone to stop myself when I instinctively reached for the back of his head and pull him closer to my face and kissed him ever so slightly, I almost didn't realize if it wasn't for the jolt of electronic waves that moved from him to me as he deepened the kiss.

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