"I find it hard to pay attention, because I lose focus all the time, I always fidget, like right now, I have issues writing and concentrating, I have money management problems, due to the fact that I spend a lot on catchy items, I don't know how to keep friends, my relationship is absurd, I find it hard to keep my job, they call me confused, crazy and weird,I got kicked out a lot from the places I stay, I was always lonely, True, I go through all these things, same as you do, but that doesn't define me and you, that's not what makes us special, that's just the force that makes us different from the world, because I decided, I'm not giving up on trying to be a better person, I'm not giving up trying to achieve my dreams, I'm not giving up trying to fight issues like money, hygiene, my dealings with people and so many things that I struggle with, I don't let people negative words get to me, Think of people who did it, people like Elon Musk and so many other successful people who struggle with their challenges too, they did it, and so can you, I want us in the audience to brave up and say to ourselves, we can do it, I can be a better me, because I'm never going to give up". And the crowd rose up and gave a huge applause as i came down, "that was a nice speech Lois". Dr Charles said, " Thank you sir, you were a huge inspiration, and I want to truly appreciate for the support", I said, he replied and said, "Your always welcome, so what's next for you?" Well, I replied and said, "Being true to myself and aim for the highest, never let any challenges bring me down". Then I heard a voice coming from my back, " I'm proud of you Lois", turning around I saw Mr. Morey, "you made it?" I said as I gave him a tight hug, then I continued? "I thought you won't make it, but I'm glad you did, how was my speech, sir?" He replied, "I was never going to miss your speech for anything, well it was very beautiful Lois and I never want you to give up, I remember 3 years ago, how things were tough for you, but you made it because you never gave up on your dreams".
Six Years Back,
" Lois, you're still awake? " Mum said as she found me in the parlor in the middle of the night, surfing through the internet on my laptop, looking so depressed, "Yes I'm trying to fill out some grant application online for my business, when I'm done, I will go to sleep, thanks for the care mom, I love you", I said, "I love you too, try not to stay awake for too long OK," she said, as she walked back to her room, "OK" I replied.
When I got tired, I went back to my room, but I couldn't sleep, I started crying, I felt more like a failure because a week back I lost all the goods that I bought, at retail, and most of the cash was taken from a loan, and I was so caught up in anxiety, but around 5 am, I fell asleep.
"Sleepyhead, wake up joor," Teddy said, as I woke up to my kid sister, who was waking me up persistently, "oh oh leave me now make I sleep"(allow me to sleep), I said to her, "I'm having a bad headache, and I didn't sleep early last night, I literary slept by 5 am and I need my beauty sleep" I continued, "hmm were you babysitting anyone yesterday, or where you babysitting him online?" she asked jokingly, "none of the above now leave me alone, let me sleep" I replied.
Present-day,
"Additude is growing, I love the speech, it was beautiful, and I love what you're doing out here, helping people with ADHD and Autism, supporting them that's wonderful, I love your drive," Mr. Jude said, "thank you, sir, how is the family, and your son, how is he coping with his CBT session?" I asked, "he is improving, at least his grade in school is getting better, and his art is looking so beautiful, he is literary getting better, well if not for that your NGO campaign, we wouldn't have known what our son is going through, well thank you", he replied, " well you don't have to thank me, I'm only doing the best I can to help and create more awareness about ADHD and fight against it too, well I need to go, we will talk later Sir", I replied, "no problem" he replied, then I left for my car.
I drove to the office because I had a board meeting to attend, "Good afternoon Ma" They said standing up as I worked into the conference room, "Good Afternoon
everyone, please be seated" I replied as I sat on my chair, "Marketing team, what's new," I continued, "We had 3 new clients today, they are interested in our RPO services, and they want us to close all their open positions in 3weeks time, well excluding the 3rd company, they gave us more time, and they said, payment will be in 3months time from joining date," said the head of marketing, Mr. Tunde, "well OK, head of human resources, Mrs. Nicky please reach out to all our remote recruiters, share the JD on slack to the different departments, but Mr. Tunde, please next time, let the negotiations for the commission payout be at least two months, to avoid our recruiters running out of patience, Human resources department, how many recruiters do we have on board currently?", I asked, "well we have 90 active recruiters" Mrs. Nicky replied, "OK that's nice, well financial department I want an increase of salary on the recruiters who are performing better, give them 5% increase, OK?" I replied, "OK Ma" Mr. George replied, "Alright everyone, you can go back to work," I said as I dismissed the meeting, "Ma, you have a staff meeting with the other company," My assistant said as I move towards the door, "please postpone the meeting to tomorrow and clear the rest of my scheduled today, I need to be somewhere," I replied.
I left the office and I headed to the beach, I needed some quiet place to ease off the stressful week, I hate stress, even if I know I can hardly concentrate on one job, Arriving at the beach, I sat down on the floor and watch how the waters were flowing, I had that minute of peace that I had always wanted in the past.