*Mc PoV*
There's that one time I got to have a dream. The dream where I can't do anything beside watching my body moving out of my will. It's similar to how I see myself as a character where I can't see my own face however I know if that's me and I knew what I'm supposed to do in that dream.
The me in the dream was a goofy man and very kind to any children he could see. He's not a lolicon because there are also times when he chases women's skirts that are more mature, but still the same thing makes them avoid me, but then again, I never hate them even once even though they stay away from me, I'm actually grateful for it.
I keep watching in the dark just like a stalker to search and eliminate any one that's trying to hurt them. There's some who got a humanoid figure and sometime they're not a human at all, but by the end of their life, they always curse me for messing up with their plan be it a human or not.
Be it the one I was trying to protect, or the one I had killed. Both have their own curse when they meet me. But the me in the dream, didn't really care about it.
The dream change.
Just like any dream, the scene change into completely another place that I've never seen in my life yet I knew where it is, weird.
There's a girl with horns on her head and dark long black hair along with her short and stacked frame, and on the other side is a youth with small red dragon along with a girl in blue. Based from my knowledge in this dream, they'll soon spar in the middle of the road to prove who is stronger.
Roar and clasp of bystanders who cheered for them can be heard by me, the youth with his sword parried the girl attack which combined from two lance that she lunged at him. Once, twice, thrice, they keep exchanging blow until I can feel the time to move from this scene.
And in the middle of that, the girl in blue look toward me and met my eyes for a millisecond.
The dream change.
'Onii-chan!'
The dream change, and this time...there's a steel got stabbed into my abdomen.
'It hurts...'
It's a dream, yet the pain inflicted from this wound can be felt by me. I tried to pull the steel out of my body, however it got worse.
'tHiS iS nOT yoUR PlAcE hUMaN!'
From my back comes a dis-figurative sound which pierced my ears and drain my blood into it's body. I looked back to saw who is the one that have done this.
Only to met another one of those being, it got one head with three hand covered it's eyes and mouth, the head itself is not round in shape. From those hands, comes out a steel that looks so fluid that it even moved against the principle of steel.
Its body that can be said to be slender mostly fills the frame that hides the appearance of its legs. It is humanoid, but not at the same time.
'It hurts..pain..why..'
Not like the dream from before, I can't gain the information as fast as before. However, I knew about this filth that stabbed one of its hand on me.
'..no...Onii-chan!'
There's also another voice that comes from this girl, she's standing in front of me while holding my jacket with her small frame shivering as she tried to save me.
'wROoahhaGGH??? tHeRe'S sTTill OnE lEFT???'
At the same time this filth pulled the steel from my body, it also moves to this girl which made her to be its next prey. It moved to her creepily with those tiny legs and waved its hand that unveiled it's hideous face.
'...who are you...young girl?'
I reached my hand to grab its leg only to got my hand chopped off as it lunged more steel into my body, I tried to buy her some time even though I don't know her but...she didn't escape. She use something that creates an explosion to escape with me.
Only to got her body stabbed with the same steel before she pushed me away.
The dreams end.
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*Mc PoV*
"Ughh...I came back...again? Wha...why I'm here?"
I woke up from my slumber and tried to recognize this familiar environment where only feathers filled this empty space, while supporting my weight with both hands I saw a feather that glows nearby before it flows somewhere in this void.
'I...sleep? In this place?'
Whenever I already sealed my memories inside the feathers,I'd rather walk to another destination and take a rest inside that "world" instead sleeping in this place. The reason for that is because some memories leak that'll snuck into my dream which make me uncomfortable.
"..."
'Now that I think about it...I just dreamed didn't I...what dreams was it?'
Left without any clues, I tried to remember anything that I could remember, but it gave me nothing. Only to met with the same occurrence where I can't even remember something that have happens a few seconds ago.
'Can't...I can't remember it.'
"Ughh."
'Then what about...hmm? Promise? What promise and to who?'
My head throbbed as I held it using my hands, it keep going stronger than before, as if there's something that I need to remember. In the middle of that, as if it responding to my feels, there's one feather gave a glows that lightened my pain.
It was the feather that previously flowed from my hand into the Void. The brighter the light gave off, I gripped the feather in my hand to confirm the effect.
'Curiosity will kill me...but right now...I need to know the truth.'
I poured my energy into the feather, causing it to emit a light brighter than before that could even envelop me within this Void. From there, I can also get the data that has been stored in it and also...
"..."
Another failure I've done.
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*Mc PoV*
Monochrome world where nothing but white and black filled that world.
Teyvat when I was in front of a glowing shire.
Idea of a world based from manga or doujinshi.
The white grass that filled the land as I step on it.
Mondtadt that has been destroyed and decayed into a ghostly land.
First meeting with her while she cried.
Her weight when she use my shoulder beside me.
The music I played which gave me PTSD.
Her figure when she holds my jacket as if it's the first gift she received for her birthday.
That time when I brush her hair as she yelp to change the hairstyle to how her liking.
Running through Mondstadt with her adventurous scream on my shoulder.
Disappearance of everyone except her alone in that world.
"Klee..."
There's nothing come's out my mouth beside her name, I can't feel anything beside watching this memories that's being unveiled in this feather, which I hold tight in my palm.
"...ahaha..."
Letting out a pathetic laugh I can feel my eyes becomes hotter than before, and with that, another memories started flowing out into my mind.
Her laugh which gave me a reason of peace.
Her funny sound when I pinch her cheek which only made me do more.
Her eyes when I toss her up and her yelling when I catch her again.
How she close her eyes when I wipe her face from water under the bridge.
How she look happy yet sad at the same time when mentioning people from Mondstadt.
How we do swimming race in the river without knowing the time.
How happy she was when showing me her Dodoko and bunny bombs.
How we blast fishing even if there's no fish.
How she keep telling me about how strict yet beautiful Jean and how she used to admired her.
How she keep telling me how weird Diluc , yet how she understand him now.
How that one uncle she called Kaeya who always do mischief together.
And...more.
"Kukuhahaha..."
Many more.
"Khkkk...Ahahahaha!"
Many many more.
Until...how I can't save and letting her perish.
'...That thing...ah...that filth...'
I try to stay calm and think this through. However, piece by piece the fragmented memories of Klee kept flashing through my mind which made me feel a deep hatred.
The hatred toward myself because I can't save her.
The hatred toward this world which the source of her demise.
The hatred toward my weakness because I failed to save her.
The hatred because I can't give her an everlasting happiness and revive her world back.
The hatred because of how happy she was with those smile as she die.
The hatred toward my...creator who gave me this end.
"Khahahaha! AHAHAHAHA!"
In that instant...I couldn't think of anything beside how pathetic I was.
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*??? PoV*
No one answering his remorse.
"..HA.."
His laughter fill this void.
"HA..hahaHA."
"Ha..HAha...hAHAHhahahHAHAHAHAHahahahHAha."
"Haha..I see..only one feather and this is how I'm now. Imagine how broke can I be when I "read" all this feather..Haha."
His nonsense stop him from killing himself and gradually taking back his "reason". The reason to hide his scar and to keep moving from this place, as he scorned his own mind and body.
"Just how many times did I fail again? HaHAha...ohhhhh maybe I already did this before???? Crying because I know the truth haahaha."
Other similar conversations had already taken place in the past. Even worse than now or when Skadi happened. Yet he had come this far, never was and probably never will be another human being who had come this far.
"..."
To do what others people don't expect and to not expect anything in return. He has passed through those time again and again leaving him with nothing but loneliness in the front line beside his stupidity.
"WATCH!! WATCH ALL YOU WANT!! No matter how much I fall...I'll...I'll...I..."
That roar which sounded from the fragment of his heart, hidden deep beneath his emotion. Is the true him that have bared a mortal fang to them, however to think he can't find a perfect word for the end...fool.
Once again he chose to run away from his current self, in order to hide his strengths and weaknesses and also to be normal in all situations, burying the feeling of uselessness which was the source of the reason for his own journey, because he had endured it all the time in this way, this made him can't do something that is considered right.
Nothing but pain and suffering all alone in nothingness.
So from now on...The story will changes.
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*Mc PoV*
'What?? Ah...another mission huh..lemme check my phone..'
After letting the feather flowing from my hand I can see a gate opening. This means I can now go to another place but before that lemme check my phone to check my progress.
'Reset,so it's a failure *sigh* just why did I keep failing'
Troubled because all this missed log in. Rare furniture stay afar from my dorm, well not like there's any sign in or log in gift for me though.
'Hmm?? My eyes watering... dang I still cry in this age?!'
I noticed if there's tears in my eyes and confirming if there's no one who is watching, I clean it up with my sleeves.
'Jacket? Hmm?? ah there you are.'
It's rare for me to not use that, because this item is something that's very precious after all, at least for me. Thankfully I didn't left it in the past world before I returned to this place, hmm...There's some stench of steel? Is this my blood I wonder?
"Fheww...what can I do without you old pal."
I cleaned the blood with a tap of my hand and it made the jacket cleaned again, I also checked for my stuff in case there's something that got left behind because of my jacket. Then I found something uncommon inside of my bag.
"A badge? wha-did I win something?"
I feel somehow familiar with this badge, its a round badge composed from four-clover white mark with white feathers from it.
"Hmm..did I brought Genshin goods somewhere? and also...Did I met her with Deidara again? That'll be fun to have them in group."
Not only this badge use a white feather which definitely not mine, but there's also a white little bunny in pack with it.
"Isn't this Klee's? Hmm I want Hu Tao or Ganyu goods though...well maybe I'm too late to buy it.Put note to remember it...done."
I write inside my phone to at least made the future me to buy the right goods, and I noticed if the battery is low so I quickly put it in sleep mode.
(Strangely,her mementos already gain it's lost color. However, he'll never know about this.)
I walk to the "gate" and excited for the next journey, with a cute badge on my left chest and a bunny strap on my waist. I look like a soldier with a creepy yet cute charm not that there's someone to judge me though.
"Yoosh...SUSUMEE!!!"
I took a step towards the gate and a white light filled my sight leading me to my other mysterious journey.