No! No! No!.. Did I say something wrong? Why? What if they don't like me? What if they're saying bad things about me? What will I do?. These.. These are the questions that's messing on my mind. I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression. People don't know how afraid I was everytime I go out or talk to someone. I can't sleep at night. I can't even close my eyes. I can't wait for the morning to come.
"Knock! Knock! Knock! Aleyah wake up your going to be late" that's my mom. "yes.. yes.. I'm awake". No one knows what's happening to me. I keep it to myself. I start my day with these big bags on my eyes. "Pretend.. Pretend your okay!" a slap on my cheek then smile. I take a bath and brush my teeth then eat my breakfast then go to work. That's the normal me i guess. People don't know the secret behind my sweet smile.