Anastasia:
I desperately want to throw myself off the car right now. I never knew a day would come when I just want myself from Zack. The idea of having dinner with him and alone didn't sit well with me .
Suddenly the car halted but it's not what I had expected. When he said he wants to take me for dinner I thought he would take us to a fancy restaurant instead he brought me to an abandoned...meadow. Okay now I'm scared.
"Are you afraid?" What the hell ! When he got out of the car and opened my side of door.
Instead of answering him I just put my hand on his forwarded one. I got out of the car and with his free hand he closed the door with a soft thud. I unconsciously intertwined our fingers , I didn't need to look up to feel his gaze on me and the small smile on his face.
We kept walking for a short time in the meadows due to darkness I'm not able to see clear much but wherever we were heading is surrounded by trees , I could also hear faint burbles...is that a lake. As we went deeper I could see everything clear as daylight. The whole place was decorated with lights , there is a setup of dining under a oak tree and a beautiful lake.
"Come." He pulled a chair for me to sit.
"Whoa! that's a lot of food." At this point I'm practically drooling seeing all these foods. "Did you make all these?"
"I did with some help of Jesse." He served me some chicken Alfredo on my plate and did the same for him.
"Damn. You should cook for me more often." I said scarfing down the cheesecake. His eyes lit up in amusement and he chuckled shaking his head.
" Are you finished?"
" Hmm."
"Wanna take a walk by the lake."
"Sure."
We were walking for some time , enjoying the occasional rustling . Suddenly he stopped making me hit his shoulder. "You know why I took you out today. " I think I do but I don't want to.
"N-No."
He tucked a piece of auburn strand, loosened from my ponytail, behind my ear and whispered, "Liar."
He grabbed my chin firmly , looking straight into my eyes he said, " I want you baby, so badly. " I froze, I couldn't see anything past him, I couldn't hear anything other than his voice. The distant noice of crickets, burbling of the lake has somehow fade away. My heart is pounding so badly I fear he could hear it.
No, no no we can't, we shouldn't. It would be a disaster.
"Z-Zack do you e-even know what are you talking?" My voice came out a little hoarse as if I haven't spoken for days. " Have you thought of your parents? Your parents who also love me like their own . For God sake they call me their daughter . How do think they will react knowing their son has not so brotherly intentions towards the said daughter. " I feel like yelling at him and the same time pulling my hairs out.
"No, I haven't thought anyone else who's not you not that I care about anybody. Call me selfish baby that's what I am and I take what I want."
"What's makes you so sure that you will get it this time?"
"The fact that you haven't pushed me away even after knowing my feelings towards you. I'm not blind Ana I know you have got it figured and yet you willingly come with me knowing how's it going to lead."
"Y-You did this. You made sure I was aware of your intentions before you took the leap. What I don't understand why would you show me your vulnerable side. I know me being freaking out on this is least of your concern ." I inched towards him further not breaking the eye contact with me. " What are you trying to prove?".
He looped his arm around my waist and pulled me towards his hard chest. " Always a curious little birdy , aren't you Ana?"
"The reason why I wanted things the way they are is because I wanted you to see me as a man rather than a brother. I know I'm asking for too much but feelings changes with time and I'm sure someday your's will too when-"
His grip on my waist hardened and he lifted his right hand caressing my cheeks, jaw slowly dragging down to my slender neck then straight towards my chest. Even though I'm wearing a thick hoodie but the feel of his fingertips has convinced me otherwise. I know he could feel my mounds as he lifted his hand and pressed his knuckles on my nipples, gliding towards my stomach and finally settling at my waist.
"- you will accept mine".
"Wait , wait I think I am gonna lose my mind . It's too much Zack, you're asking too much for me to give. How can I be sure you're not playing around , I'm just a child next to you and adults like to tease around."
His once solemn expression hardened and he shook his head in disbelief . His hold on my waist even tightened more. " I could never ever in a million years can bring myself to think something so cruel to you. Baby, I will slam my skull with bullet before I hurt you. You are my precious and I will do everything to keep you protected."
" Give me something I can believe this is real ,I want to know this is for real. But nothing stays for real right? Make it go away. Please I beg you, don't tear me down." I'm on the verge of hyperventilation now. I could feel tears pricking the back of eyes now .
"Hey sweetheart look at me." He gently took my face in his large hands and made me look at his gorgeous face and took my hands and placed it on his chest. It was beating erratic, it was as if threatening to come out from its confines and jump in my hold , as if I can keep it safe. " Feel this , it's only for you. For the world I'm the heartless billionaire who won't hesitate to destroy people. But can you see it? The heart of me. You are the reason it exists , it beats, hell it is more of you than me. You have made my heart a better place, you have opened it's door baby, please don't let it close."
"But I am scared Zack. It's seems too good to be true. What if one day I get into too deep and you won't be there to pull me in your embrace, I will surely shatter Zack and I will hate you for it."
"Don't say that love, I will always be there for you. Every time I think of you, everything else just becomes a mere figment to me and it sent chills to my body to be completely consumed by you. It's scares me how much power you hold over me and how much it appease me. You are more myself than I am." This time he is practically hugging the life out of me. He lowered his head towards me and looked straight in my eyes and said, " And I won't let you get away, you like it or not you are mine as I'm yours."