Warning; This chapter contains suicidal thoughts if you are triggered by something like that please skip reading. I don't want anyone to feel bad while reading. I tried so much not to write this but I had to. I am sorry if you feel uncomfortable reading this.
Harlow's pov;
"LAYLA IS GONE. She slept right beside me last night. I woke up to find her gone."
"Harlow calm down, take a deep breath."
" Mrs. Jones I-I-I can't find her. What should I tell Phoebe that I can't protect a 4-year-old."
"Calm down Harlow we will find her. I will send a search party right away. First get freshen up and eat something."
With that she cut the call. Last night she was beside me. I told her that her mom has some office work. We had dinner together and she slept in my room. I woke up early to make breakfast. She was not there when I woke up. I searched the whole house I couldn't find her. The door was also locked. Its like she disappeared. I stood up and went to have a shower .
I had a shower and got dressed. I can't stop thinking about Layla. If Phoebe comes back then what should I tell her. The thought of something happening to Layla made tears spill out of my eyes. I failed to protect her. I sat in the living room and started crying for all the things that happened to me. Im such a bad luck. People who stays close to me ends up hurt. First Gemma next Ivy then Phoebe now Layla. IVY. I looked at the date. Today was Layla's birthday. After remembering that today was supposed to be the day me and Ivy would be partying like fools I cried a lot. I wish she was here. I miss ivy a lot.
Ivy was my neighbor. She was very friendly and open minded unlike me. we were very close. She used to drag me to parties. I love her so much. I am much of an introvert . ivy was the person I opened up to after Gemma. I am so close to Ivy. I tell her everything that happens and she tells me everything. We don't have secrets. But things became bad when she started dating Elon. Elon was ivy's first love. She was head over heels for him. Ivy was so in love with Elon. but Elon didn't love her enough. Ivy stopped being her old self. She became closed. She even stopped talking to me. I thought she needed time to heal. But things became worst after their breakup. Elon immediately started dating another girl. But ivy couldn't find the strength to move on. She wrote all her feelings in her dairy. She became lean and she stopped eating. She became very weak. I really wanted to knock some sense into her.
That day I came to my apartment after preparing to lecture Ivy about her recklessness. I was the one who found her dead. I found it really hard after her death. She was my rock. I was given Ivy's apartment after she passed away. I never had the courage to visit her apartment in these 3 years. I have always wanted to read her dairy but I never had the courage to do so. Today the pain I am feeling is unbearable. Layla and Phoebe's disappearance made this day much worse. I wiped my tears and took keys of Ivy's apartment and made my way inside her apartment.
Everything was the same. Even after 3 years the memories are fresh. I made my way up to her bedroom and opened her cupboard. I found her dairy. I couldn't stay there for long. I brought her dairy into my house and locked her apartment. Then I opened her dairy and started going through it.
" Dear diary,
Today Elon wanted to meet me. He was busy lately. We hadn't seen each other in a week. Elon has been a bit weird lately. He was off. I think it was work pressure. He asked me to come to his house today. I have never seen his house. I'm so excited to meet him after a long week. I will talk to you later."
That was a month before her suicide. Then I turned the next page. Mostly there are pages explaining how much Elon loved her. There are pictures of Elon and Ivy. She was smiling in every picture. She looked so happy. If Elon was a good person Ivy would have been happy and alive now. If she told me I would have done something to help her.
I regret opening her diary. She wrote about me a lot. She trusted me but I am a pathetic person who couldn't see how her best friend is suffering. I am such a loser. Every single person who is close to me ends up getting hurt. It's better to end my life now than hurt other people. I closed the diary and made my way to the terrace. I don't want to do this. But I am scared someone might end up dead. Its better that someone is me than another person. It's not like I have people who care about me. my parents doesn't even care a little bit. I don't have any other person left now that Phoebe is gone. I am a lonely pathetic person. I stood up on the wall ready to jump and end my miseries.
" I am sorry Gemma, Ivy, Phoebe, and Layla if Iet you down. I promise I tried my best. But it is like the world was against me. I am sorry."
I was crying hard. I don't want to do this but I have to. Then I got ready to jump. The air was brushing against my face asking me to stop whatever I was going to do. Then I did it I jumped.
The breeze felt like it is slapping my skin. But I did it there is no taking back now. Just when I was about to hit the ground some force swept me away from the land. Then I heard some one whisper in my ear.
"Not so soon sweetheart " and then everything went black.