I got the opportunity to leave their house, I ask a friend of mine to pick me up at their house entrance. I need to be strong and tough to protect myself, it's already noon we discuss that they're gonna pick me up and have some time to think.
Thankfully it's Saturday and it's their time to go to church altogether, I went to my room and prepare everything that only belongs to me. I keep it under my bed so no one can see it, I need to be extra careful so it won't happen again what happened before.
After packing my things I bring out all the clothes that need to be ironed, to kill time until they leave, and after a while they went to church and I did what I need to do. I call my friend to pick me up and take all my things and leave, I talk to all my friend in that area to do not talk about me leaving their house.
Thank God I already leave the house I've been exhausted for how many months, and now I can breathe good and live freely. I wish and I hope to be happy this time, I buried myself so much because of him. I don't know what to do if I'm still there, I always feel that butterfly in that stomach but in different ways.
I need to start a new life, I need to cherish myself for once but I need to say thank you to my friend for bringing me into his house. After 2 days someone told me that they'd been looking for me everywhere until they found me. They want me to go back with them but seeing the girl he chooses is with his mom makes me feel uncomfortable.
I talked to my friend that we need to pretend that we Were a couple and we want to live together, but my employer disagrees they want me to go back with them first and let my friend ask for my hand. Because my mother is not there so they stand like my parent, while my friend is talking to his father that man is looking and staring at me.
I felt like he knew something that we were pretending, he is smart and fast to read the situation. But what can he do he choose a woman who's working in a nightclub, the pain I felt is not easy because of that words that suppose to be sweet is like a thorn in my heart? I'm still waiting for the time that I can move on but every day and night is like a nightmare for me, the feeling that you don't know what it feels like to love and to be loved by someone you love.
Every time I'm alone what happened in the past is always syncing in my head I always blame that night that was not supposed to happen, After that, I started not to care about myself as if the whole world is turning its back on me, and that was the reason why I doubt myself every time my relationship failed.
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