20th January 2020.
11years.
Why does it hurt so much? Why do I only feel the pain now that I'm done with it.
Why does it hunt me now after many years.
Why do I have to dream about his touch and how he used to smile at me when he did something naughty to me. Did I like what he did? No way! I forbid that in the name of my creator.
Ok I promise not to think or even fancy about it ever again and this time around I promise my creator I'll not sleep even if I had to.
That was the conversation that took place in my mind a dozen of days ago.
How I wish someone could have told me to stop telling lies to myself cause now I look stupid. And what I feel right now is worse than guilt. I feel like a devil.
I remember the song I used to sing when ever those dreams kept knocking on my door.
# I'm sorry satan's siren but I have to ignore your knocks.
You are an evil person and I know you come with wrongs.
I don't wanna be like you cause I know you're not so good.
So I'll close my eyes and say goodbye to all those dreams.... #.
And like a joke to which I heard me laugh I found myself giving in to his offers again and again and again!
And as of those promises I made to my creator I only remembered when I took hold of his gift for which holds all about him to humanity.
Everytime I woke up to the realization that I had given in to him I felt more of a devil than he was.
And this was just the tenth day I always wondered what would happen if I continued like this.
*I wonder how it would be:
A building without sand
A bank with no money
A bike without a paddle.
Heaven with no God
A country without a president.
Earth with no humans
last but not the least
Humans that never lie.*
You wanna know a secret about me....
it's.... it's.... ehhhmmm
nothing.
hêhēhë(✷‿✷)(≧▽≦)( ´◡‿ゝ◡`)( ◜‿◝ )♡꒰⑅ᵕ༚ᵕ꒱˖♡
NOT FUNNY!!
that's what my sister said and I'd like to see the same words in the comment section thanks for your time.
mtwaaah.
Next chapter will be coming soon.