Dear diary :
It's me again ever since being adopted my days have been filled with meaning and reason . I have nine more years till the apocalypse and I'm nine years old , I made sure that over the year my new family acknowledged my love for soft and fluffy things sadly snuggles died due to old age , well he was an adult when I picked him up , I'm grateful that he lasted so long with me tho , anyway I got a new pet he was just born a week before I got him , he's a wolf , a silver wolf which I named Yin Láng , he grew alot under my meticulous care he's as tall as my chest on all fours and atleast half a head taller when he's on his hind legs as I've estimated .
other than that I've noticed something peculiar about , Josh as I've come to call him over the year , he's very , very indulgent in my crazy demands , like when I asked for the wolf he was the one who convinced mom and dad , and so while he continues I find my self being more reliant on him , not to the point of not doing anything off my own , it's s more like how you depend on an older brother , I've also improved my cooking skills tremendously and I'm in the same year as Josh because of ' my oh so ingenious brain ' , hehehehe well that's all because of my own hard work as for cooking I guess I could give my teacher some credit .
until next time
love , Xiao Xuan
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time skip - eight years later
Aaaaahhhhhh , omg omg omg oh my goooooood no way !!!! he scream into his bear plush , while hitting the bed with controlled strength .
how ? when ? why ? no matter that , my first love is bound to fail , we're family even tho not blood related still family , I'm so confused how did a ideal big brother turn into a perfect lover so fast ....well if I think about it it wasn't that fast I think it started when I showed him my secret base a year ago .
flash back to a year ago -
"Josh ~ wanna see/do something fun " , he whispered into the elders ear . " mm , after I'm finished with this " replied Joshua in an indulgent and pampering tone . " hehe , you've gotta keep it a secret tho , promise ? " he said while holding up his pinky " while hooking his finger with the youngest he said "promise " I'll do anything for you as long as it makes you happy MY little rabbit . thought Joshua .
end of flash back -
Yeah I'm f*cked , haa .....and after a long session of telling himself how f*cked he was he finally couldn't handle it and so decided " whatever , who cares , humph I've never been one to hesitate I'll confess then after getting rejected my feelings will be gone just like those dramas on tv ." after constructing enough mental barriers that could last for a year , he made it his mission to confess , but it seems
luck wasn't on his side as they either got interrupted in the middle or he just couldn't find the right time
for example -
J-Josh I .....have something really important to tell y- beeeeep , guess that was my fault for deciding to confess on a roadside and after that the damned car just kept beeping....ugh , why's life so hard and so this all continued until a month before the apocalypse , and that's how we ended up in our corrent predicament with a person the height of 1.98 being pushed against the wall by some at the height of 1.65 , eyes squinted chin lifted under such a fierce gaze one couldn't help but ...hold their nose to prevent a nose bleed .
" JOSHUA HEART today I shall confess my love to you so listen up , and I don't like repeating myself , I...l- l- I love you elder brother Joshua . " hmph there I said it now I just get rejected and swoosh my feelings will disappair .
sooooo why am I being push onto said wall with a hand around my waist the other behind my head and getting the sense kissed outa me , no no no this isn't how it should be , but I gotta admit he is a good kisser even tho this is his first time don't ask me how I know that - shit not the point ...why am I te one being pushed down ugh wasn't I the one who be doing it , I did everything the app told me so whyyyyy?
" what are you thinking about " I hear Josh ask and in the middle of my confusion I reply without thinking " you " it took a while but after I registered what I'd said I could feel the heat slowly making it's way up my face until my whole face was as red as a tomato " as much as I'd like for you to continue I need you to focus right now , could you do that for me. hmm " and once again my mouth moved faster than my brain .
" I'd anything as long as you want me to " ...wow , just wow , I wish I could rip my own tongue out but it seems I wouldn't have a chance as my mouth was once again seal by a deep passionate kiss , ugh stole my breath LITERALLY I seriously can't breathe .
as if sensing my difficulty he broke the kiss and said " breath through your nose " and dived right back in but this time let his hands roam freely on my body , and who was i to refuse , I mean it felt so good I couldn't even stand properly " ah " Bai Xuan moaned between kisses not realizing how hot he sounds .
one month until the apocalypse and here I am getting the life kissed outa me and I'm loving every . second .of .it .
(A/N : I made another Minor change well , it should have been so from the start I just made a mistake and didn't realize until now but that's all for today , thanks for reading byeeeee .