Meredith's POV
When you first find out you're expecting a baby and that you are going to be a mother, you are either ready for it or you are shocked and confused. That's exactly what happened to me. I was in a state of shock. It's a strange feeling.
It was hard at first, I was just starting to plan out my life, and now a baby was in the picture. By the time I discovered the truth and accepted it I was already so in love with the tiny being growing inside of me that I couldn't dream of giving her up no sooner I had gotten used to the idea of becoming a mother and recovering from losing Matthew. I was utterly alone in this, in the first three to four months I was able to hide it well.
Looking at the fact that it's my first baby it didn't trouble me much.
