Meredith's POV
I will pull through this. I will walk out of this phase of my life. I will recover it all once again. This pain will not last.
This will be the last time I will allow myself to feel hurt and fall bottom rock, the last time I will let someone hurt me.
I will be happy again. I will smile again, I will recover from this, a step at a time. The pain will go away.
No matter how much I tell myself it is going to be okay and that I was going to be fine the more it feels like the air is being sucked out of me. My breath has become uneven. I thought I was strong. I thought I was ready. I thought I had prepared myself for this obviously I wasn't prepared enough.
It hurts, it hurts a lot. Just this one time, just this one time, and everything came crumbling down. I was suffocating. I can't do it I really thought I could but I really can't. I need to get out of here.
