My school life really is something else.
I am around a million people and I still feel alone.
Sometimes i question myself,
Am i.... am i accepted by this stupid society?
Or am I the one that's distancing himself from society?
I have a pretty good reason to do so though.
These thoughts consuming me make me feel like shit.
Fueling my insecurities every breath i take.
i fucking...
i fucking hate myself
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I used to have a lot of friends.
I kinda still have them, but..
I only want them in my life so i wouldn't be alone.
I don't feel accepted nor do i care.. i hate myself anyways.
Every single word and move i make is being judged.
The only reason why i enjoy being here is because at home, i don't feel safe at all.
It's hell.
I don't want it, I don't want it,I don't want it,I don't want it,I don't want it
"yoo kuragari" said Akuma (a friend of Kuragari's)
i don't want it, i don't want it,i don't want it,i don't want it,i don't want it, i don't want it, i don't want it,i don't want it,i don't want it,i don't want it...
kuragari maaan you hear me?? said Akuma again while trying to wake me up from my daydream by shaking me
i don't want it, i don't want it,i don't want it,i don't want it,i don't want it...i don't want it, i don't want it,i don't want it,i don't want it,i don't want it, i don't want it, i don't want it,i don't want it,i don't want it,i don't want it...
I DON'T WANT I-
"WHAT THE FUCK MAN? WHAT ARE YOU THINKING ABOUT SO DEEPLY" yelled Akuma
The other students looked in my direction.
That made me anxious.
"Oh sorry i guess i was daydreaming" i said while giggling in embarrassment
"Oooh alright dude that's okay, it always happens to me" said Akuma while finishing it with a gasp
"'CAUSE I OFTEN DAYDREAM ABOUT YOUR HOT STEP-MOM TOO HAHAHHAHAHAH" he continued
"hahha... haha... hahahahaha" I laughed ironically
"Why so serious?" asked Akuma with a straight face
...
He is right,
I really am taking this pretty seriously
But what the fuck should a social perfectionist like me do
"Anyway man, you've changed you know that?" "Fucking demonic ass"
"You used to be cool" said Akuma while leaving to his seat
I stayed silent.
I don't even have the courage to stand up for myself that's why i get bullied by my own friends
Also why the heck am i being called demonic??
I dress in black so what
It literally explains my life and i like it and i feel comfortable in it-
Oh my god..
See that's what i'm talking about.
I always get judged
I hate this shit...
school bell starts ringing, introducing the start of the class
"awhh FUC-"