I never once thought of myself as a special person.
I guess I'm an average person with no special strengths or flaws.
I've been going about my life as usual, simply coasting along.
I've done some bad things from time to time, and I've done some kind things too in my own way.
I'm not a good guy, and I'm not a bad guy either. If I were to evaluate myself, I would be that
kind of person.
Ever since I was born, I've been walking around as a human being who's neither good nor bad.
However, It wasn't until I went to high school that this became more apparent.
I just randomly started watching Archery and thought I'd give it a try to pass the time.
It's like giving in to the flow, just going about your life as normal.
I don't pay attention to the big things, and my daily life seems to repeat itself.
It may be a boring routine, but I did it because I thought it would be easier.
Perhaps because of this, I never made any friends in high school initially.
I wasn't lonely at all, but an unexpected turn of circumstances led to me making some new
friends.
Keisei, Kiyotaka, Haruka, Airi.
Despite the fact that there were only five of us, including myself, I felt strangely at ease in that
little group.
I had a feeling that the rest of our school life will be spent in a relaxed manner with the five of
us.
The environment around me may have changed, but I was still me. That was the only thing that
I knew would never change.
In spite of these expectations, one major change occurred.
'Loving Someone.'
I have always thought of girls as cute and beautiful, but I never fell in love with any of them.
I wonder when it started.
I started to look at Haruka's profile frequently.
And what made me sure was when during the unanimous special exam it was stated that
Haruka would be expelled.
There was a part of me that couldn't accept that we would be separated.
Emotion, not logic, was the top priority for me at that time.
I wanted to protect her, even if it meant abandoning Airi, a member of the group I cared about
as much as she cared about me.
I don't know if this feeling is acceptable.
I gave priority to what I wanted to protect by all means rather than what was right or wrong.
But I have no regrets.
"Will you join me in my revenge?"
The sound brought me back to reality. Her eyes looking at me are the same as always.
Those were strong, straightforward, and dangerously presenceful.
But she had a will of determination that was not clouded by a single speck of uncertainty.
I didn't answer aloud.
No, I couldn't.
The revenge/vengeance will surely cause our friends and our classmates a lot of trouble.
She must have seen through my emotions, because she smiles and walks away, turning her
back to me.
In the past, I would have probably just sent her off without a second thought.
The right thing to do is to forget it.
Yes, how much easier it would be to just back off.
I didn't know that falling in love with someone could be so tedious, difficult, and troublesome.
I'm… / Ore wa
No matter how many people are going to hate it in the future.
My emotions would not allow me to let her go alone.
On this day, after the Sports festival, I made an impossible decision.