Running faster then I had ever ran before, twigs and branches scratched and scrapped at my jeans tearing wholes in them but I didn't care I just had to get away. Had to get away from the pain that threatened to consume me, the weight of the fracture heavy like someone had dropped a car on me. My breathing was labored by the time I came to a clearing with flat grass, I fell to the floor trying not to cry but my erratic breathing wasn't helping me much, if anything it made it worse as I felt the small pools of tears cluster at the edge of my eyes. I was rejected, me of all people...all I wanted was a mate to love me, for me...but I guess that's what I get, I should have just gone straight up to him instead of run, but would have made a difference?
Laying on the floor, I curled up into a ball, my whole body hurt like my muscles were ripping apart, and my skin burned as if someone had lit me on fire. I withered on the floor wanting the pain to stop, wanting it all to end hoping that this rejection would kill me.
Why? Why didn't I just come open with it? Why did it have to be him as my mate?
There was snapping and rustling then suddenly a growl from behind me, I turned my body around while still in the fetal position. I could see from my position on the floor a set of glowing bright gold eyes as they shifted and moved a massive black emerged from the tree line. There was a low growl coming from its direction, but its form was blurry as I cried out again in pain.
Finally I would die, and all this pain would be over, this wolf would kill me and all my suffering would be over. I closed my eyes as I felt it as the wolf got closer it's growling stopped, just inches from my face, I closed my eyes with silent tears, and silent prays. "Please let this be it." I whispered
But it never came, instead something cold nudged my face, opening my eyes it licked my face. The fear left me as I felt comfort from this wolf, but I couldn't move, everything hurt so much, my body felt like someone was repeatedly stabbing me with thousands of little needles, over and over again. Closing my eyes once more, my head swam with dizziness as my breathing labored while I clutched my chest. It felt as if someone were kneeling on me adding more and more pressure with each time breath I took. Oh God, I was suffocating.
Tears streaked down my face while I continued to gasp for air, while the wolf moved near by. I clawed at my throat, my chest, and my sweat soaked cloths. My world had just crumbled before my eyes within seconds and here I thought this wolf would kill me but it didn't. Suddenly I felt a pair of arms wrap themselves around my body lifting me up into a solid form. I kicked and screamed the pain of their skin connected with mine felt like a white hot brand.
"Shhhh, it's ok. Stop moving or I'll drop you." The voice was so familiar, and the scent coming from him calmed me. Opening my eyes and lifting my throbbing head I had to see who it was.
Martin
He looked different, stern and worried, his hair fell on his forehead sticking to his skin from sweat. Lifting me with ease he held me to his bare chest, I could only guess he was the wolf.
He carried me in silence as I tried not to thrash in his arms but the pain was overwhelming and made me sick. I was gasping for air, yet burning from the outside in and yet he still held me in his arms, the swaying motion of his movements calmed my erratic breathing just a bit but the tears still streamed down my face. He would frequently look down to check up on me then back up to the path he was taking. It took what seemed like 10 minutes for me to stop crying, the fire consuming my body slowly subsiding, I had stopped struggling and was now snug to his chest sniffling, while he carried me rubbing my back soothingly.
His voice was low and soft when he finally spoke. "I won't ask what happened because I have an idea..." he had stopped walking and looked down at me. "But if it has to deal with him....you deserve so much better." He looked at me with such serious in his eyes but I couldn't meet his. "Rowan doesn't deserve you." he whispered.
A whimper escaped my lips and my chest tightened at the mention of him, Martin tightened his hold on me and the contact, warmth, and his strength made the pain slowly disappear.
"I won't talk about it anymore but I have something to tell you...but not now...sleep we are almost home."
I couldn't speak, my throat felt dry so all I could do was nodded and lay my head against his chest while I closed my eyes and allowed his warmth to comfort me.
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Have you ever woken up some where, and you don't remember how you got there? That panic, heart race and breath loss you get as you try to recall everything that happened in a split second to allow you to come to the conclusion of how you woke up where you did? My head rested on a silk covered pillow, my body was covered by a plush blanket, the room was neutral, a creamy tan the furniture was made of warm wood and the air was cool, a breeze came in from the open double doors that I could only image led to a balcony.
Suddenly events from the night before flooded my mind. Rowan and I in the gym, running in the woods, falling, my body burning, the pain and Martin. At the thought of his name butterflies irrupted in my stomach. Oh god what happened?
Inhaling deeply I noticed his scent was everywhere. How had I not noticed it before? The smell of peaches, ripe on a summer's day, filled the room, it was sweeter and more intense then before. Propping my self on my elbows I slowly looked around the room, he was no where to be seen but the thickness of his scent meant he was somewhere close or had just left. Breathing deeply I tried to figure out where he was, when suddenly a door to the left in the room wiggled and he came out in nothing but his shorts. His back was to me as he hummed a light tune.
His skin was tight and muscular, I hadn't noticed it before but he was built and toned. Most Alphas are and Martin sure had the body of an Alpha not as muscular Rowan but damn near close. Why was I thinking of Martin like this...he was my Alpha and Rowan is my mate, was my mate...I waited for the pain to surge through my body once again but nothing happened, there was no pain only a hallow feeling. I once read about how broken bonds made the separate parties either crazy mad or wither with pain every time they think of their ex mate. But nothing came when I thought about Rowan, instead Martin turned around in a defensive position looking around the room as if he were ready for someone or something to barge in. Watching him made that butterfly feeling rolled in my stomach, he was sexy, his chest held no marks, chiseled and perfectly toned. His hair was tousled, his eyes were sharp and brighter then before.
Hey wow! Hello Dallas, this is your soon to be Alpha....what's going on with me? I closed my eyes and shook my head blinking a few times at my own thoughts and reaction to him.
His eyes fell on me and softened a bit the fuzzy feeling turned to tingles, and I tried to cover myself from his gaze with the blanket, turning my face away I felt the blood rush to my cheeks.
His soft voice was music to my ears, "Hey." Strange it had never been like that before.
"Hi." I whispered, I felt him move closer to the bed he was now at the foot of it. The edge sunk a little, as I watched from the corned of my eye, as he crawled over to me and laid down next to me. Feeling a warm sensation on my back, I turned my head to look at him, he was propped up on his elbow laying on his side as I was sitting upright. What is this feeling? What is going on? I must have had a confused look on my face because he was the first to break the silence.
"What's wrong?" His face turned to concern, as his brows pulled together. His once bright blue eyes turning a dark deep blue.
"I just....I feel fine....though everything I've read says I shouldn't....I mean...I even feel other things..." I hesitated and looked away from him. A small chuckled was heard, and I turned to look at him again still confused, feeling heat rush to my cheeks.
"It be because...well...I." he lifted his hand to my cheek then traced in down my neck to my shoulder, my body involuntarily shifted giving him easier access to my neck as he moved the collar of the shirt I was wear to the side. A small moan escaped my lips at his touch the tender spot on my shoulder where my mate was supposed to bite me felt tender and sore. " I did this, that's why you feel the way you do...it's our bound."
It was like someone dropped a bucket of ice on me, the world stopped and my heart fell out of my ass but then my head began to work again...did he say bound? Quickly scrambling out of bed I fell to the floor tangled in the blankets, and cursed as I crawling over to the door from where he first came in, hoping it was the bathroom. Once inside I stood up and looked myself over in the mirror.
My face looked normal, my greyish eyes were the same, my nose, my mouth, my neck then I pulled the loose shirt collar I wore down to expose my shoulder. There it was, a bite mark fit for a mate, except the bond was one sided. I stood looking at myself in the mirror wondering when this had happened. I hadn't noticed Martin come in and stand behind me, he calmly placed his arm around my waist. He stood a whole head and half taller then me. His face fell a little while I watched him.
"I had to...you were slipping...I couldn't loose you." His other had trailed up my arm to my shoulder where he touched the mark making me shiver and hiss in pain at the same time. "I'm sorry if you don't want me that way but Dallas.." he turned me in his arms as I listened still completely in shock. "I've wanted you ever since you came to this pack. I get we are not an actual mated pair other wise this wouldn't be one sided but it feels like I need you in my life. When I'm with you I become confused and fumble but in a good way." My heart leapt in my chest at his words but deep down I knew this was wrong. "Be mine, let me make you happy, please."
Looking at him I held my breath, his eyes danced a bright blue, even if Martin wasn't my mate he was such a sweet guy. He has been nothing but kind to me since we moved here. "What about...what if you find your mate?" Touching the mark me gave me sent tingles through out my body at the same time pain and soreness. I wouldn't, couldn't go threw a rejection again if he found his true mate.
"When that happens we will deal with it, but for now let me make you happy. I'm not saying complete the bond now, just give it time ok. Let me make you happy and smile, if you want to be mine forever then let's try it then."
He was giving me the option of forever, but for right now just making me smile. My head swam with confusion, first Rowan...now this. Was there any harm in this? Slowly I nodded my head in return and he smiled. Leaning down he placed a light kiss on my cheek, which had me blushing.
"Good now come on we have school in an hour." An hour? I looked around for a clock and saw on the bed side table it was 7 in the morning. Groaning I turned around and frowned at him. He chuckled lightly, as he pulled me out of the bathroom into his room once again. "Come on 20 minutes." He lightly patted my butt, I groaned again as I watched him walk away....
Great school...the one place I didn't want to be after what had just happened yesterday...