My mom gives me the looks she gets when she wants to say something but is trying to stay. cordial so an argument won't break out. it never works as I seem to always push buttons... its a gift I must say.
Shea yes I'm asking you a question, and I would like to know why you chose to go so far away?
The only answer I have for her is " because it's my decision". My mom and dad look at each other and then back at me. My mom then asks " what does that even mean?".
I take a deep breath because I know that this will be a long conversation in a long line of first conversations until I leave because that's just the way my parents are. After looking into both their eyes one at a time I tell them.
I've never been able to make my own decisions for the last 18 years I've been at the mercy of you two and your traveling plans. I've met more strangers who " babysat" me, until I could take care of myself, then I care to remember let alone count. I had no say as to what I could or could not do, or what I did or did not want. I have a total of 2 friends who have stuck by me even with how weird I always have to be. I could never invite anyone over for fear that either someone would say something to another adult, or they would say something to other kids at school. I was never allowed to advanced because what I would have had to do would have interfered with you guys plans. I finally had a decision that was given to me in 11th grade, I took time, did research, and came to a decision. it's the first and only decision I've ever gotten to make .....and it was my decision.
I ended it there neither my mom or dad needed to know my other reason for choosing Arizona was all the beautiful women who wore most of nothing most of the year due to the weather. The only person who knew was my best friend Tish. I've never mentioned it to Jace, who is my male bestfriend, because he always makes stupid jokes with his other friends. Even though I know he rides for me, neither I nor Tish really know how he will react to the news.
plus about 2 weeks ago he asked me out which was super weird, so instead of out right saying no I just played it off like he was playing to much again and laughed it off. He said after that he was joking and laughed with me, but things have been super awkward ever since so... nope me and Tish are taking the news with us. Ah I think I forgot to mentioned that she is also going to be in Arizona for college. Yeah surprised me too.