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Chapter 40 - Chapter 40: I was so quick to judge.

(Zane POV)

The sunset created the most beautiful cotton candy and it's definitely one of the best looking ones I have ever seen. The purple and pink cloud really looks complementary to the light blue color of the sky. The snow covered mountain juxtaposed with the cherry blossom coated one made the overall view even more mesmerizing. It is truly a work of art. It is perfection in every way and it's a shame that only a few people can legitimately appreciate beauty in its purest form.

I took my phone out to capture the stunning scenery in a picture. It's definitely a huge mistake to not take a photo of it.

"It's beautiful, isn't it?" Orville said as we are both admiring the view from a cliff.

"It's beauty at its best. You should take a photo of it. It's so rare to find something as beautiful as this anymore."

"Completely agree." He said before taking out his phone and clicking the camera button continuously.

It didn't take long before Orville and I decided to lie down on the grass, being surrounded by daffodils all over and we just stared at the sky above endlessly, not being fazed by the time pass.

As much as Orville and I are enjoying the sky, I don't want to forget the real reason why I am here and that is to talk some things out with Orville.

"You mentioned earlier that Eloise is missing?" I asked.

"Yeah." Orville said.

"How is Joanna taking it? How are your kids taking it if you don't mind me asking?"

"Harry, Wayne and Sofia were extremely distraught when they found out, but we all made the decision to not really tell Joanna what happened so we just came up with the story that Eloise went on a little trip and she will come back anytime soon like what Dora does all the time."

"I'm sorry to hear that." I said as I looked to Orville's side.

"It's alright."

"You'll find her, I know it." I said.

"Thanks."

"So how have you been ever since we parted?" I asked.

"We didn't part. You left me, remember?" He said.

Ooh! That's a shady jab, don't you think?

"Well, to be fair, you lied to me and you took advantage of my naivety, am I not right?" I defended.

"You have a point. I lied to you but if there's one thing I did not do and I will never do, that is to take advantage of you, Zane."

"How do I know you're not lying?" I asked.

"First of all, I am going to admit that I have slept with many women before but the real reason why I did that is because I cannot find comfort with Eloise anymore. I find it hard to touch her or even look at her ever since I have discovered that she was cheating on me. I felt like the shittiest person in the world and it made me feel so bad about myself. Once again, I felt like I was not good enough like what some people used to say to me so I tried to find comfort in somebody else. That's when I started having sex with numerous women. It did help for a while but the excitement quickly wears off because every encounter that I had with them is meaningless. There's no one who truly made me feel wanted…except for you."

The moment he confessed that, butterflies started emerging and I am starting to feel some goosebumps.

"I'll own up to it if you want me to. In a way, I was glad that I was able to retaliate against Eloise because I made her feel the pain that I felt but you're the one who made me realize that it's wrong and I should never have done that."

"Really?" I asked.

"Ever since we bonded and I got to know, even just the small part of you, I was already satisfied. It was real for me. After so many of our moments together: our laughter, our make love sessions, our date nights, that's when I realized that I never wanted to be apart from you anymore. That's the reason why I lied. That's the reason why I said that I was going to divorce Eloise even though I wasn't going to at that time. I lied just to be with you longer. I was trying to find a way to tell you but it was too late. You found out earlier than I anticipated."

"I see." I said as I finally heard the whole story from him. I looked away in regret. I looked away, ashamed that I was so quick to judge.

"I tried to chase you. I tried to call you but I figured that you might not want to see me again. You might have lost your trust in me and it broke my heart but then I told myself, life goes on. Just because Zane left you, that doesn't mean that your life stops now. Life still goes on and it will always go on. I made amends with my wife for everything I did and she did too for everything she did. We remained as parents, we remained as friends but we did not remain as lovers and that is something we grew to accept. We made a deal that we are not going to break our relationship for the sake of our three kids while they are still young but then the time came wherein they fully understood the whole story already. Eventually, they grew to accept too that Eloise and I are not meant for each other."

"Orville, I am so proud of you for bettering yourself. You deserve an apology from me as well. I am sorry that I judged you too quickly."

"I don't blame you, Zane. Of course, it must have been hard for you to trust me since we were just newfound lovers back then."

"Will you forgive me, Orville?" I said, unable to contain my guilt. I am pretty sure I am welling up with tears at this point.

As his response, Orville scooted closer next to me and planted a soft kiss on my lips. Tears started flowing as I just witnessed him accept my apology with open arms and open heart, something that you rarely see in a person. Not only does Orville have a powerful charisma and sex appeal, he also has the biggest heart of gold.