With days passing on to months getting added, I was still confused with just one question, "Was it love or just an attraction..?!".
Because for a girl who has just finished half of her 5th standard, it was a very complicated question, maybe more than chemical equations. Yes, By the way, Love is also a kind of equation.
When we add a little care to a lot of feelings and this is heated on flame of dreams, One can create love.
It's one the recipes to create love.
So was any of those things were between us or not?
I don't know about his condition but from my side, I was just loving the moments when I was with him. His smile, His eyes, everything was so soothing.
For me, Love is not where one is falling for someone's beauty or just searching for fame. For me, it's a matter of concern. When one is much happier for Falling in ocean of one's eyes than surfing in the river ov beauty, When someone is happy to stare the beauty of a calm green lake, than enjoying the drops of water when you throw stone in it. When one's happiness is more important than our happiness. When seeing someone with whom they are happy is a way of getting happy ourselves. When someone demands there feel, than their presence. When someone is capable of explaining love better than lust. When someone's smile is the world for you. When you try to understand what the person is and when you put out an extra effort to make them comfortable around you.
When you hesitate to tell them truth on their face but always praising them behind them and when you don't hesitate to save them from the person who dont deserve them. When you get possesive by seeing them with someone wrong or when they need care.
When forever seems to be reality, Then you are in love.
When you start blushing by just hearing name, You are in love.
When your happiness lie in their smile, You are in love.
When there is confusion between him and everyone else. You are in love.
When their Eyes seems like a ocean waiting for a sailor, You are in love
When you can proudly say that I love him, You are in love
When you can feel them in their absence. Congratulations, You are in love....
So at age of not taking responsibility, actually not being responsible, These were the thoughts that I had.
Maybe embarrassing for some or maybe pleasing for some. But all these thoughts came to be reality after meeting Shivansh.
He was someone for whom I won't die, because I wanted to live my life with him and for him.
Always remember, "Love never let you die for someone, It makes you live for them....."