All I Did Was Make A Wish

I was on the large sofa dad placed in the living room thinking about how boring my life was. I got an admission just to end up fucking it up when I was in my final year. Sad right?

All I wanted was a course that intrigued me, I wanted to be a doctor but what did I get? I got a bloody and mental-straining course called, give it up for Biochemistry! Yes, Bloody Biochemistry!

A course I knew nothing about! I was just hearing it for the first time. I didn't do well in school afterall I had no passion for such a course. My year for graduation turned into a year of deportation from school. Hot damn! That sounds so cool!

Currently tired of my dad reminding me of what a failure I am, I decided to just watch some Korean Series on Netflix just to block his fucking annoying voice that invades my mind even when he isn't home.

My mum had given up from the moment I had told them I wanted to quit when it was still early for me, then I was in my second year and the money spent hadn't gotten to 300k so, I told them how hard I found the course to be and not surprised, they still forced me into studying said course for two more years. So why complain now? It's your fault!

Anyways, I saw an interesting kdrama series 'The King Eternal Morach' The series was dope and I was able to block all my worries for a few hours till I heard my name being called for the fourth time.

{I ignored your calling for a reason, you have other children home why not call them!?} I thought internally

"Ma!" I responded

"I want to send you on an errand, Help me get a recharge card from Mummy twins outside."

Checking the time on my phone I noticed it was 3:00 pm and I would be resuming work by 5:00 pm. Once I realized how late I was going to be, I rushed out to get what she wanted not wanting to get to work late again this week. Dumping what I was sent to buy on her bed, I ran to the kitchen preparing my dinner for work.

{Shit! I haven't had my bath!}

Once I was ready it was just 4:00 pm but I didn't want to be home right now so I did the only reasonable thing that came to mind, I escaped to work running like I was being chased by the devil himself. Throwing a single word out as I sped off.

"Shalom!"

I was currently learning Auxiliary Nursing and it was refreshing. I had no worries about if I could make it in this like of work cause I knew I could. I have been learning for half a year now and it's been amazing so far, I love and cherish every moment and everything about taking care of people. It gives me a sense of belonging.

I feel that way because I have Sickle-Cell-Anemia. When I fall sick sometimes it goes on another level, every pain differing from the last. It wasn't fun. Then when I knew nothing and I was in pain I used to wish for death but when I got to see some people bearing pains far worse than that, I thank whoever that's watching me.

I wanted to become a doctor or nurse just to relieve the pain from people. I always want them to feel at ease so they can stand, play, jump and just enjoy life to the fullest that was the joy I feel when I treat my patients.

I didn't want to go to the hospital, so I went to my other private apartment just to relax a little. In my uniform, I sat at my front porch just gazing into the arising before suddenly remembering what day it was.

Christmas day! A day we don't celebrate at home, it's no wonder I couldn't remember what day it was. Viewing my WhatsApp status all I could see were some of my outside country friends posting pictures and videos of them kissing their beloved.

{Ugh! Such annoyance}

And just to rub it in my face more, with me forgetting about the couple that lived right opposite my house across the street came out in their festive wear. Honestly, those outfits are Dope! Not gonna lie. So I did the only thing an abnormal person like me would do, I stared.

My gaze stayed unmoving at the couple across my street. jealousy, envy, want, the longing was what My gaze probably portrayed. I wanted that but I couldn't voice it out it could only be whispered in my head unheard of.

The couple leaned in for a sweet kiss under the mistletoe in their front porch still I didn't move watching their every move learning from experience or so I thought. With a sigh, I went back in banging the door in the process annoyed by what I couldn't experience. Unknowingly breaking up the kissing couple.

{Why me!?}

"who would bloody love me!? I'm I not worthy of Love!?"I whispered to myself trying hard to forget the scene.

Putting on my TV just to chill and avoid those unwanted thoughts, I placed it on the Disney channel just to pass the time. Sophia-The-First came on and with a disinterested look lost it thought It kept playing in the background.

Sophia wishing on a Wishing well at the same time I was wishing for Love.

{I wish I could find love, Love and be Loved}

Unknowing to her, her wish was about to come true but in a more twisted way.