I felt Zeo' s warm, jucy pair of lips over mine. For a second, my mind turned blank at the sudden outbreak of actions, but then, dimly, the feelings surged in and drowned me in their depths. His lips tasted something of a sweet pineapple and his breaths smelled of fresh spring. I could feel my face burning while my heart was on fire.
He slowly moved his lips and I felt obliged to respond to them, so I did. I can't explain how I felt at that heated moment. My mind was suddenly clouded with these feelings of lust while I heard nothing but Zeo's warm breaths and my own racing heart. My eyes were closed so I couldn't see Zeo but I didn't need to. I could....just feel him. This exultant feeling I was experiencing was enough to make me believe that it was Zeo. Every heartbeat, every breath and every feeling I had, all screamed of him and him alone. I couldn't see anything and I couldn't hear anything and yet I felt everything. I knew at that moment that I could never get over him, never in this life.
Suddenly, Zeo broke the kiss. I abruptly opened my eyes as a slight frown masked my face. I was already gasping for air yet I wasn't ready to let this feeling go either. But when I saw Zeo's expression.....He seemed regretful. There was guilt in that face.
"I-I am..Sorry.." He stumbled in his words.
"I didn't mean...to..." He added with a voice that seemed to tear him apart.
"I just...." He added again.
I put my index finger on his lips.
"Shhh.." I shushed him.
I knew why he did that. I just didn't want to believe it. He wanted to calm me and make me believe that he didn't mind me kissing him that day but I...I just couldn't bear that thought. I wanted to believe the lie that he kissed me and had the same feeling I had just now. Even if it is a lie, I could be happy just by that, at least for the moments it lasts. From the first day I realised these feelings, I knew I didn't have any hope. After all, we both existed in two different worlds. He is an Elf and I am just....a normal human. We can never become one.
I will, someday or the other, return back to Earth and will probably die like those millions and billions of people who are like grains in the sands of deserts, lifted and drifted by the winds of fate while he, he will live on for hundreds or thousands of years. Even if we get together by any chance. We will still have to part our ways. No matter what I choose, the ending is still the same for us. So, what's the point of cherishing these rising feelings if it will only bring pain and suffering??
Even so, a heart never once listens to logic and reason. It wants what it wants. Even if it brings agony and pain, a heart still seeks that special someone and no matter where you hide or how hard you try, you can't run away from your own heart.
I felt it now. What my heart wanted was the person in front of me. I was doomed to fall for him and then meet that never-ending pain of parting. There IS no hope for me.
"Elliot...??" Zeo called me in a low tone. I looked up. My blue met his black.
"You.....alright??" He asked. I put on a fake smile.
"Yes. I am fine." I lied. In reality, I felt like I was cracking like a glass piece from inside.
"Then...then why are you crying ??" He asked in worry and regret.
I was crying? I touched my cheeks. Yes I was crying without even realising it. How stupid of me!! I hastily rubbed the tears off.
"Oh ! It's nothing." I lied again, trying to widen my fake smile.
"Elliot I-"
"Zeo !" I heard a voice call from the alleys of the empty hall, interrupting Zeo. It was Lia. I instinctively distanced myself from Zeo.
"Yes??" Zeo responded with a bit of annoyance. Lia appeared from one of the halls and smiled at us.
"Zeo, mother, had asked you and your guest to join us for breakfast. Come to the Mansion's main hall if you please." She told him. I noticed that she had lessened the formality in her language. She wasn't using 'Young Lord' with Zeo anymore. This closeness undeniably made me feel insecure.
"I will." Zeo said flatly, probably trying to end the conversation.
"Okay then. We will wait for you." She said and left, her footsteps slowly fading in the silence. I turned back to Zeo.
"Elliot, I can explain all this just hear me out-" Zeo started but I didn't let him finish.
"I told you it's okay. You don't have to explain anything. Just go and join the breakfast. I am already full." I told him and turned my back to leave but Zeo held my wrist.
"Elliot please..." He begged.
"I know, I shouldn't have done that but...I was just overtaken and then-" He said but was interrupted again by a rather familiar and husky voice.
"Ho ho ! You guys are still here?" The voice said and both Zeo and I turned to the sound immediately. It was Adrian walking down the halls.
"Aren't our meetings quite often?" He announced, smirking in my direction.
I felt Zeo's grip tighten around my arm. I looked at his face which held something between disgust and dislike.
"May I know why you are here, your highness?" He inquired but there was something beneath his formal tone, something darker.
"Nothing much. I was just walking by." Adrian answered without averting his eyes from me.
Zeo suddenly stood in front of me, as if covering me up or something.
"Then I think you should walk on. We have some business here." He said. I could feel his voice a little furious. Adrian raised an eyebrow.
"I believe you should go on for breakfast. You must be hungry by now. The Clan Lady doesn't like to wait." He told him. Zeo hesitated and then suddenly turned to me.
"Elliot, please come with me to the dining hall. I promise I won't bother you again." Zeo requested with a little cute puppy face. I just couldn't deny him so I sighed and nodded.
He held my arms again and dragged me away. I saw Adrian walking beside us.
"Why are you following us now?" Zeo asked Adrian and this time let out some of his rage.
"I am not following you. I am just going to the same place as you, to the dinning hall."
Zeo hissed. I felt the air around us turn tense and heavy. There was some tension between the two which I couldn't figure out well.