Ivan
Do things my own way.
Easier said than done. You're prone to get scared when you're in unfamiliar territory. The rules aren't what you understand, and it's even harder when you know there is a set you need to find. So, what do you do? You make the rules up as you go, not caring about the consequences. That's the point, isn't it? See how far you're willing to go to get your deepest desire.
What is my deepest desire?
It can't be the version of me that knew his purpose and lived a life where he challenged everything with his mate. I had to think about what I wanted. It's a lesson that keeps coming up, and I always think I've mastered it. Then I realized I'd got nothing handled, and it slipped through my fingers. I can't win if I don't know why I'm going this far.
"What did it show you?" Leviathan asked when we were far from the shop, which disappeared when I walked out. It was as if it'd never been there, and no one knew its existence.
