"Song Ze Yu, I'm not sure what I feel towards you. I'm not sure if I'm only treating you as a substitute for Song Ze Lin. If that's the case then I don't think I should accept you. It's not fair to you. As much as you say, you don't mind me treating you as Ah Lin, I could never do that to you. You and Song Ze Lin are two different people. You are unique in your way. I'm quite lost and confused right now. I won't be able to give you an answer now. And besides, I even have an engagement with Qi Yan and it seems to be that I liked him a lot before I lost my memory," I explained as he nodded.
"Okay, I understand. Hui Qing promised me that we would still be friends no matter what," he asked. I smiled and took out my pink saying "Pinky promise," whilst hooking onto his pinky. This was an act we used to do as kids. It's giving nostalgia. "You should get some sleep," he mumbled as I nodded. I opened the door and saw him out before locking it.
"Hopefully nobody saw you otherwise some people will have weird thoughts. Especially since it's the middle of the night," I hoped as he nodded. But of course, fate loves to play with me. Someone saw us. And it was none other than my lovely dearest finance - Qi Yan, however I didn't know about this until later.
* Meanwhile when Song Ze Yu left
I sat on my floor with my back to the door. What exactly am I meant to do? Can someone tell me what I should do in this situation? I can't even tell if I like SOng Ze Yu for who he is or for his face. His face that resembles Ah Lin so much. What would Ah Lin say if he knew something was going on with me and his brother? I wish I never had to deal with this. To be honest it's better to deal with this now than later. At least this way Song Ze Yu can finally move on if I decide to reject him. But somehow I don't think he will be able to. He did tell me he hasn't been able to forget about me.
What am I supposed to do? I really don't know. Wait, why exactly am I suffering all of this alone? I should ask my trusted advisors right? I walked over to my bed and picked my phone up. The light shone and I saw it was 2.30 am. That's quite late I think Song Ze Lian and Wei Wei are already dead asleep. Which is quite annoying. I guess all of this has to wait until the morning.
Using my phone I sent them a quick message in our group chat saying:
Text me when you guys wake up, I have an emergency and tea to spill. SOS is needed. But not ASAP can wait till morning. Too tired right now.
*
After doing that, I placed my phone on charge and tried to get some sleep. I lay on my bed and pulled the covers over me. I thought it would take some time to get to sleep however I fell off to bed quite quickly. I guess I was very tired. I suppose I tost and turned quite a lot during the night cause half of my covers were crumpled.
*
Side note Qi Yan's POV:
Around 12 am when I left my room to get some water I noticed a man pacing up and down Hui Qing's room before entering it. I didn't think too much at the time because I thought Hui Qing let him in. And I thought that person was her brother. The figure looked like Huai Zhan from the back.
When I came up the stairs I saw that the person was Song Ze Yu and he was being pushed out of Hui Qing's room. I wanted to go and check what was happening. But, I didn't. that was a bad idea. Because Song Ze Yu managed to get inside her room. I thought something bad would happen to her which is why I tried to open her door but to no avail. i even tried shouting her name but I don't think she heard me.
With all the commotion, Fu Huai Ning came outside and muttered "These rooms are all soundproof. She won't be able to hear you from the inside. And relax. Nothing will happen between the two. Ah Yu is a gentleman. He just wants to have a long talk with Hui Qing. Nothing will happen. Just go back to your room,".
Firstly, I did not like the way he talked to me. The tone he spoke to me in, just made me feel really uncomfortable. Secondly, I feel like he knew exactly what was going on inside but he wouldn't tell me. Hopefully, nothing happens between the two. Hui Qing still won't talk to me. Somehow I need to make her talk to me. As for how I really don't know.
I went back to my room but I was watching Hui Qing's door for any movement. About an hour later Song Ze Yu finally left her room. Both of them looked quite peaceful as if a long knot had finally been relaxed. What exactly happened?
i spent the whole night thinking about what the two said which meant that I had no sleep. I woke up with huge eye bags underneath my eyes. However, I made it my goal to speak to hui Qing. I must get everything sorted out.
No matter if she lost her memories, she still loved me. I will chase her back and help her remember all of the things she felt for me.
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