This chapter is from Qi Yan's POV:
I wonder what I should be feeling right now. Happiness or sadness? I should be happy because Hui Qing is finally awake. Yet I should also be feeling sad as she doesn't remember me.
Why? I have asked myself this question throughout the whole time that Hui Qing was in a coma. This whole period was nothing but traumatic. Yet the first person that Hui Qimg asked for when she woke up was... Song Ze Lin.
Song Ze Lin... his name is nothing but a curse towards me and Hui Qing's relationship. When I asked Ye Bai Yi to check Song Ze Yu's background, Song Ze Lin's name was there. It was even rumoured that Song Ze Lin had a relationship with Hui Qing.
I thought it wasn't true but now... I'm not sure what to believe.
Perhaps I felt relieved when I realised that Song Ze Lin was dead. That means he won't be an obstacle in our relationship. However, I feel really pathetic feeling this way. How am I being jealous of a dead man and Hui Qing's relationship?
I wasn't even sure how I went through these months. Hui Qing had been in a coma for almost half a year. If it wasn't for He Lan, I don't think I would have appeared decent in Hui Qing's perspective.
My heart really hurt when I realised that Hui Qing didn't remember me. It hurt especially when everyone looked at me with a pitfall look. I hated those looks. It was the same look that everyone gave me when my mother was dead. It was the worst look that brought back unneeded memories.
When she fainted again I was really agitated. I was scared that she wouldn't wake up again. Thankfully she did.
I think in conclusion my feelings were in a total mess. I believed everyone was. On one hand, you would be happy yet on the other hand you must've been feeling sad.
Why? Why is it that everything Hui Qing remembers has to do with Song Ze Lin? She remembered everything that happened in these 3 years that were to do with him. She remembered nothing to do with me. I think that was the moment my heart hurt the most.
She sent everyone back home yet I was the only one who stayed. During this whole time, I was thinking. Thinking about a lot of things. Stuff like how should I get Hui Qing to remember me and many more.
However, she herself gave me the idea. To tell her what happened during our relationship. I guess she must have searched up the fact that we really were a couple.
When I told her the story of our love life her face didn't have any weird expressions. It was as if she was only listening to a story and not about the past. It really pained me to see her like this.
Why couldn't she just remember? Why?
She had asked me to leave after a short while and this was the first time I had returned home in a long time.
The first few months were the worst. I was a total mess. It was He Lan who brought me back from the mess.
During his whole period that Hui Qing was in a coma, I spent the morning in the pubs drinking and spent the night in He Lan's house. She would pick me up every evening and start scolding me really badly. I repeated this behaviour for a long time. Until I decided to put myself back onto my feet. I think without her I would have already become a drunk guy.
She really is my good friend.