A couple of days went by and the same routine as always, may would wake up look for me in my cage and smile while petting me , then she would leave the room for hours . I had no idea where she was going or how long she would be gone ,but every day she had a sad look on her face when she was back , very rarely had I seen her actually smile or laugh . She fed me every day sens she's had me , kept my cage clean and my water bowl filled , and made sure to give me pets or hold me every once in a while even tho I didn't like her holding me . Suddenly she stopped feeding me every day ,and only fed me maybe every couple of days ,and she stopped cleaning my cage all together. I began to wonder what was happening ,was she going to get rid of me? Did she not want me anymore just like my dad ? But I just couldn't rap my head around what was happening she still petted me or held me everyonce in a while ,and kept my water full , but the feeding just got less . Maybe may was mad at me for something, maybe I really upset her by acting like I didn't like her ? I'm not sure but she always still smiled at me when she woke up ,and would apologize for being a bad mom to me . She always had this sad look in her eyes more then usual and her body language was very odd , almost like she just didn't care anymore about anything. Some nights may would be crying while scratching her arm with a number of different things , if it hurt her and made her cry why was she doing it? I just don't understand it ,what would make her repeatedly hurt herself like this ?, was it me was it that mean old man from before ?, surely it wasn't my gammy she's to sweet to make this happen ... or so I thought. One day may came in the room on the phone crying and yelling at whome I guess is gammy , because she kept saying mom ,and later that night she was scratching herself again .. so maybe it was gammys doing along with other things . May was sick but not like cold sick but like had sezur type sicknesses ,and her mom wouldn't believe her or be there when she was crying out for her . She just ignored her and said "oh whatever your fine " alot of the time , then may started seeing a guru or was that just the guys name ? I'm not sure but they did all kinds of testing on may ,and couldn't find anything . Her mom kept saying she was doing it on purpose to embarrass her ,and make her look like a fool , wich made no sens to me how and why would someone purposely make themselves like that just to keep going to hospitals and getting poke with things they hate ,just to embarrass someone els? Her mom just wasn't listening she and the doctors think she making it up or something ,and want her to go see another Dr. I don't get why people have so many doctors, if their all doctors, but oh well I just hope that she will start smiling and laughing again . I hate to admit it but she's grown on me , even if she doesn't clean my cage or feed me everyday I still like maybe even love her , because I can tell that's all she needs right now is love not hate or abandonment. She's had me for almost three years now and I'm still hanging in there , I survive from eating my sheded skin and the food when she does finally feed me , it's not the greatest but I won't give up on her ,as long as she doesn't fully give up on me . That's all I have to talk to yall about so far , I'll be back when my adventures continue.