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Chapter 85 - 83. Cuddles And Sex

"Stop fidgeting so much, I'm trying to concentrate."

"How do you expect me to remain calm when you keep doing that?"

"You're the one that keeps coming to my bed in the middle of the night. How can I just sit idly by whenever I see that scar on your neck?"

"Whose fault is it thst it hasn't healed yet? And if I were not to come to your room, you dare not come to mine."

"You talk too much. Now shut up and let me concentrate. If I keep talking to you I won't be able to complete this." Niel blew gently onto Elric's scar and felt a bit of shudder from him. There was no denying it. Elric did have a sensitive body and easily got excited therefore, Niel chose to design ignorance over the obvious.

He began to kiss the mark gently, then lick it with his tongue and loved the taste of it. A mixture of salt with Elric's scent which undeniably made him excited too but he'd chosen to focus on the issue at hand.

"How long must we remain in this position? I want to see your face."

"Just a bit more..."

"If we were to spend the night together, you wouldn't have to keep doing this...hmm... That feels good."

"Stop thinking perverted thoughts."

"I can't take it anymore..." Elric spoke as he turned towards Niel to face him, trapping Niel with both his hands and feet.

Sighing, Niel asked. "What do you call this position..."

"Koala possession..."

To Elric's surprise, Niel burst out laughing, which prompted Elric to raise his head from being buried onto his fateds shoulder.

"It's the first time I've seen you this happy. Glad that you're in a good mood. I was beginning to get tired of your sour look.

"Do you ever take anything seriously?" Niel asked while still laughing.

"Mostly never, except when it comes to sex and the case we are currently working on."

The mention of the ongoing case stole away the excitement from Niels face as he remembered what Mora had said about Mijin and for a moment, Niel was concerned of her welfare. Despite their breakup, he'd wished her happiness and the fact that he was close to her family made it impossible for him not to act concerned.

"Hey, I prefer the smile on your face instead." Elric brought Niel back from his distracted thoughts with a tap on his forehead. "What are you thinking about? I've constantly reminded you to focus only on me."

"Mora, to think she went through all that... and Mijin...any updates so far?"

"I promised to be discreet with this issue however seeing how distraught you are with matters concerning your former lover...and mine, I suppose I can grant you some little update."

Pulling Niel closer to him, Elric buried his head on his chest and sniffed.

"You promised to nourish me. That's your responsibility." He spoke with his head in the same place and somehow, his breath on Niels bare chest made Niel's body begin to heat up.

Letting out scent, he felt Elric exhale again and flinched at the feeling, thankful to have Elric not observe his burning cheeks thst he was convinced had changed color. Wrapping his hands around Elric in a motion to prevent him from suddenly looking up, he felt Elric respond as his body relax comfortably, completely satisfied from Niels embrace.

"We took her to hospital. Her and Moras brother are under custody over what has happened. Turns out, everything Mora spoke of was the truth. Mijin has been marked but it was quite messy. She was bit everywhere by Miras brother. Her imprint did happen but didn't have any effect on him since moras brother was already imprinted on by his former wife. Him marking Mijin though did initiate her imprint which was a bit distorted and Mora was confirmed to have been imprinted on by her. It's a mess. The situation is irreversible but I guess it will soon wear out. Both Mijin and moras brother were drugged too to the point of them loosing their minds. From infections to ingesting...I'm not sure which is which.

The police have issued a warrant of arrest to Moras parents but their case will take longer since each of the allegations aimed at them is connected to the other. I'm afraid their case will be drugged longer than we had anticipated.

Honestly, I can't believe I'm admitting this but everything Mora said about her family was the truth and to think she further went on to place the evidence in our hands, I still can't help but wonder what her motive is."

"Are you suspicious of her?"

"To the point of getting insomnia. That's why I keep sneaking into your room in search of your scent. We have no reason to be apart..."

"Your mother insisted this will make you concentrate and I agree. If you are to make a mistake, think of the repercussions. If Mora's fsther countersues your mother for defaming her..."

"The firm will collapse. I I'm very much aware of what's at stake. However, I feel like I'm being played. As much as everyone including my mother has bought Mora's story, I still remain bothered. There's no possible way she is doing this out of goodwill. She did later confess taking revenge on her father over years of torturing her and the brother but Mora appears to be fine. The brother is the one that happens to have faced the worse. It will take years for him to become clean let alone deal with the trauma. Mora seems fine apart from the usual panic attacks."

" I think you're scrutinizing this issue far too deep over nothing. Or might you be taking it too personally?"

I can't help being cautions. I won't downplay Mora's previous actions before. She did keep a lot of mischievous thing her and Mijin did.

You're overthinking

"I Think not. In fact, I'm being cautious. Everything presented for us on the table by Mora is just too good to be true. She could be playing a double agent, cohosting with one of my mother's enemies."

With the way your mind is running stop for with apprehensive thoughts, it's no wonder you are insomniac

Still looking for a new place?

Elric's sudden question took Niel offguard for he hadn't expected the sudden change of subject. He pondered over how to answer until his silence had been too loud that he decided to remain quiet.

I'll take that as a yes then

Elric, I can't just sit idly by and wait for you and your mother to provide for me. I have to make a living for myself.

The fact that you still think of yourself as an independent individual tells me more too. Maybe that is why I never since you yearning for me...not even once

Once more, Niel felt tongue tied for everything his fated spoke of was true. However, he didn't blame himself. A sense of responsibility over Elric had already been bestowed on him the mom t Elric imprinted on him however, that was not the case with Elric. To him, that imprint signified a confession of how he wished to be loved.

Do you find it unfair that you already like me?" Niel asked point blank.

"Not at all, rather, I can relate to the many hearts I broke from numerous unrequited love confessions I have received. So this is how it feels. To not be liked...or loved."

"Welcome to having feelings."

"Eventually, you will like me. Though I doubt I'll be that patient with you." Elric chuckled.

"You are one lucky guy, you know that? Not everyone meets their fated but you did despite your tendencies.

One of my lovers found it deserving of me. Labeling it our punishment for it has trapped me with someone who feels nothing for me but a sense of responsibility. I'd rather you hated me. It would be easier to accept that but to be rejected...with all these feelings... What I'm I supposed to do with them if I can't even pour them to someone else?"

"Did you sense us being fated from the beginning? Is that why you kept bothering me?"

Elric chuckled at Niels question but didn't answer it. His only response was snuggle closer to his fated and took in his scent and exhaled.

Niel flinched at the feeling for his breath felt warm across his bare chest and the temptation of wanting to fulfill his constant yearning heated his body yet again.

" I like you." Elric whispered. "I dislike that I can't do anything about how I feel."

"Welcome to the real world Elric. I'm sure you are aware that feelings will come with a lot of expectations from another and numerous disappointments. You will hurt a lot from here on."

" If that will cause me pain that you've adamantly denied me then I welcome it wholeheartedly."

"I'm not going to purposely inflict you pain just to satisfy your weird and twisted fetishes."

"Then what are you talking about?"

Niel sighed. It felt like he was explaining things to a child. An adult child who'd had everything brought to him on a silver platter, and now he had to unlearn every thug he's known his entire life from scratch.

"There is reason our scents matched, or our spiritual essence connected to each other. I do not believe I was fated to you to deal with the current you, rather, the you in the past that is trapped and lost."

"Don't go psychoanalysing me again..."

"What I'm I to do when life keeps throwing people like you across my path?"

Niels response made Elric chuckle. "Okay Zaddy. I'm listening."

"Will you ever stop calling me that?"

"Would you rather I call you what? Babe?"

"That's What Mijin used to call me."

Elric's grip on Niel tightened at the mention of Mijin's name and that gave Niel confirmation that indeed his fated had begun feeling jealous of Mijin.

"He probably doesn't even know he's jealous and if I were to brigh it to his attention, he'd only bother me with questions and the need to explain...seriously, hasn't he ever been jealous of anyone in his entire life?" Niel thought.

"You became quiet again. Have you perhaps lost your train of thought..."

"Elric..." Niel interrupted. "Have you ever considered that I may have become your fated to not cause you harm or pain but rather to take it away instead?"

"What do you mean?"

"There comes the questions." Niel sighed.

"I want to take it upon myself to introduce you to the other side. You've been trapped for a long time, hiding your true self from others. If you'll allow me, I'd like to take you out of it and as your fated, I believe I'm the best person to do that."

"Will there be a lot of sex involved?"

"Probably painless if that is okay with you."

"Then I doubt I'd enjoy it."

"How can you conclude that when you've never tried."

"I have, and I find it extremely boring. I'd fall asked during sex. Who does that to begin with?"

"you haven't yet tried it with your fated."

"Do I get to call you Zaddy while doing it?"

"Are you trying to make a deal with me? You do realize you're the one who stands to gain from all this in the end."

"What I'm I gaining when you're doing this out of a sense of responsibility?"