Just know I was thankful for having you in my life. I'm on the line of wanting to end myself. I am struggling going to places alone because of fear. Going alone is scary because the thoughts begin to flood my mind. I feel like I'm not enough for you not enough for mom not enough help for any family members. I'm not sure if I'm making it home today. But I really don't know if I can see much more through my teary eyes. Thank you for all the company. I hope I make it and will come home. Though these urges are feeling above normal. I'm sorry I don't have much to give you and I'm not worth a lot.