I really thought it was better, but unfortunately it's not like that. My brain is in a sorry state, and the constant meltdowns get in the way of me.
In order not to let you down without an explanation, I am making this note.
I hope you'll excuse me, but I'll be away for a while.
When I feel better, I try to continue or do it again, it depends on my conditions.
Again, sorry about that and be well.