Today is the day of my appointment as Queen of Centaurus. Since last night I couldn't sleep at all. Even though I ordered Herold the Commander-in-Chief to be on guard around, I don't know if he had time to sleep or not. I only think about my safety, And since I woke up this morning. Since then there have been several requests for people to come see me.
From King Drakon, Queen Mother Liliaceae, My Mother Madeleine. But the Commander has told me since last night that I can't see anyone until the ceremony of my appointment as Queen is over, I don't know why the Commander is so worried that I will be affected. Am I really an easily influenced woman? maybe, Just look at How Drakon takes over my mind all the time.
I'm done wearing a luxurious gown from the kingdom of Centaurus, a pink dress, has a rose motif in every curve of the fabric around my waist. I smiled sweetly, when I looked at my face behind the golden metal reflection.
I looked at myself one more time, I think I'm really pretty today. But.. I'm pretty nervous about everything that's going to happen.
"Get out, I'm done.
At least silence will make my mind better, After I hear the door close. That's when I took a deep breath.
Hah.. It's just a rapture ceremony, but my heart is beating irregularly.
I got up from the bench I was sitting on earlier, opened the window and let the morning breeze in. I took a deep breath and enjoyed the air, closed my eyes for a moment then opened them again.
And when I opened my eyes, that's when I almost screamed out loud. Because the Drakon was in front of my eyes and staring at me intently, but not until my voice came out. Drakon first grabbed my mouth and hugged my waist tightly.
My body was almost limp out the window, I looked into his eyes and asked. What is he doing here? But he didn't answer, instead he entered through the window and closed it slowly.
I thought he was going to let me go, but instead he took me to the bathroom and closed the bathroom door while locking it. I was getting confused, looking at his eyes that were already moving here and there. What does he really want?
After he confirmed that there was no one in this place, that's when he let go of his hand on my mouth. I can breathe a sigh of relief and inhale a lot of air.
"What is it?" I asked, after making sure my mind was moving properly.
"You're coming to the rapture ceremony? Don't you want to entrust everything to me? If you believe me, don't come and stay here." Drakon's words confused me, why should I stay here? I mean, he just told me to be in the bathroom? Then see the bath water whose sound is a little noisy? I certainly don't want to.
"I can't, Your Majesty the King, I must accept the responsibility that has been given by Grandpa. This palace and kingdom will be mine, I must be able to obey all the rules and carry out my obligations. What should I believe in you? I already have a commander. Who will help me? I don't think there's anything wrong with accepting the Commander-in-Chief's assistance." I explained everything to Drakon, But it seems like Drakon doesn't seem happy with the answer I said.
"Understood Rosa, being a Queen in a big kingdom isn't just about crowns and thrones. It's about life and death. Why do you think so many Kings or Queens died horribly? Why did your Grandfather get killed? If your Commander-in-Chief said he would protect you, why did he before can't protect your Grandpa? why? Do you have an answer?" Drakon stopped what he was saying and waited for me to speak, but I didn't know what to say. I couldn't help but stare at his eyes, looking for answers behind them.
I see worried faces, I see fear and I see sadness behind Drakon's handsome face, but I don't know why.
Is Drakon really thinking about me? I mean, worried about me?
"I don't know, I just want to believe it. But you're also right. If the Commander promised to protect me. Why couldn't he protect my grandfather before? So what now? I already promised the Commander-in-Chief." I bit my nails nervously, looking into Drakon's eyes no longer calmed me down. I'm afraid to die, I'm afraid to die like grandpa, being slowly killed by those closest to me. What if it happens to me too? I'm too young to feel all this suffering.
I just want to live happily and do all the activities as I should, I also want to play with my friends. I want to be able to visit festivals and have fun chatting.
I don't want to sit on a throne and see a lot of people hate him, especially Mother. I really want to see my mother love me, I don't want to see her hate anymore. If I ascend the throne, then I'm sure my mother will not want to see me at all. Then why do I live? if I don't find happiness?
"Then ask for a postponement. For your appointment ceremony, you can ask the council to postpone it." Drakon said again.
"But you can't, the kingdom has to be stable again. Someone has to fill the throne and lead the kingdom to do its job, someone has to be King or Queen. If the throne is not filled, then there will be a lot of commotion and the kingdom will be shaken." I said.
"Then, give this Kingdom to your mother for a while. If you give it to your mother, then I will become King and can lead your kingdom, I will take full responsibility and you can rest easy after that. Just for a while, until you are ready to become a Queen. I'm sure you can come up with an excuse and get approved by the Council Elders. And you will get a hug from your mother, you know? Your mother really wants to be Queen and get her good name back, if you give her this. Your mother will surely love you, make you her daughter completely." I heard the words hug mother, immediately smiled and felt happy.
Will mom really hug me? if I give this Throne temporarily?
"I will, if you promise to love me and hug me." I said to Drakon, and that's when Drakon immediately nodded and smiled happily.
I feel happy imagining my mother's love, but there is one side where I feel strange and refuse this request.