I woke up and said "...¨. May was over on a visiting chair and my shoulder was killing me. Along with my head, palms, and mental status right now. May came over and asked how I was. I looked into her eyes and said "Are you joking with me, ARE YOU ACTUALLY KIDDING ME, DO I LOOK LIKE I'M OK, MY FATHER STABBED ME WITH A SCALPEL AND I'M INJURED PRACTICALLY EVERYWHERE, DO I LOOK OK TO YOU!.¨ May looked at me with shock and I regretted snapping at her. But I can't help it when she asks a question like that. I look away from her and calm down. May mumbled something but I didn't care I didn't feel like talking to anyone. May came to the side of the bed I was looking at and kneeled down on the floor. She said, "I know you're not ok, but there is no need to yell at me, I know you're only human but...". I cut across her and yelled "WELL THEN MAYBE I DON'T WANT TO BE HUMAN, OK I TRIED TO BE BUT I JUST CAN'T BARE IT. DO YOU KNOW WHAT'S WORSE IS THAT MY DAD IS ALIVE I'D RATHER HE BE DEAD THAN HOW HE IS RIGHT NOW." I breathe deeply. My breathing starts to get quicker and then slows down. "I'm sorry but so much has been happening and you come over to me and say how are you, I mean seriously take a look at me." I chuckle and look away. Why does that feel familiar? I know my d-- Dr. Rose did that ugh. I can not turn out like him. May still looks shocked but manages to say "Stop yelling please… I just got you out of the psychiatric ward, DO NOT PUT YOURSELF BACK IN". "OH I'M SORRY SHOULD I BE GRATEFUL, YOU WERE THE ONE THAT PUT ME THERE IN THE FIRST PLACE MAY."