"Stupid, right? I was only asking for attention from Manfred. But my way was very childish. And when it came to this situation, my papa and mama got divorced. I didn't want to live with either of them. Neither of them wanted me. For what reason? Did I hang in there? Manfred was on his way out of town at the time. I was so confused, so messed up …."
Tina and Lestari were silent and didn't say anything. They felt the pain that radiated from all of Yuana's stories.
"It occurred to me that Yuana had been hurt too deeply. All the pain she felt was enough. Yuana had to die there. So that she wouldn't suffer even more. I chose to leave, starting all over again. By becoming a new person too."
"And then we met. You chose to be a Florantian," Tina continued.
Yuana nodded.
"Why don't you call your brother?" said Lestari.
"Yoel. Well ... I don't know, I never thought of contacting my brother. I know she is still managing his life. He also experienced unpleasant things when we were together," answered Yuana. "You ask that, I miss him so much, Tari."
"It's all clear now." Tari looked at Yuana. "So, are you Yuana?"
Yuana stood up. She entered the room and took out her ID card. She showed it to Tina and Lestari. Also, her school certificate which she took with her when she left home.
"Geez ... so the girl Manfred mentioned on-screen was you, right?" Lestari's eyes sparkled as she looked at Yuana.
"Yes ...." Yuana smiled.
"Gosh, that lucky girl is you, Flora. Loved by a man as good and handsome as Manfred," said Lestari still in disbelief.
"You know, I already feel there is something with you when you always cry when dealing with Manfred. It's strange to like the vocalist of the band to that extent," Tina said.
"What do I call you now? Yuana? Huh, why is it weird, huh ... haa ...." Lestari laughed.
"It's okay to call Flora too," said Yuana. Her smile reappeared.
"Why don't you contact him? Now he has moved to Jakarta. You are really close," said Lestari. It would be possible that Yuana and Manfred were together again. They loved each other.
Yuana sighed. "I feel bad for him. I'm not ready yet."
"How long will it take? I think Manfred felt guilty too that you left like that. Listen, those songs are all about you. What are you waiting for, Flora? Your love is so deep. Why torture yourself when the man you love also expects you. " Tina tapped Yuana's shoulder.
"That's right. There are a lot of girls queuing up, you want to be with Manfred. If Manfred is a playboy, ouch, from the beginning, you must have changed girlfriends like other artists," said Lestari with a serious look.
"He will keep looking for you. Don't you want you two to be happy together?" Tina looked at Yuana.
"Yes, alright. Maybe it's time for me to return to my life. Ready or not, I can't keep running, can I?" Finally, Yuana decided.
Running and hiding were not the way out. Wherever she went, it wouldn't solve her problem. She was been living well so far. However, the real problem had not been solved yet. Yuana actually made many people worried because of her.
"Manfred, I really love you. That's what I realized after we were far away. I really miss you," whispered Yuana's heart.
*****
That Saturday morning. Yuana chose off from work. Changing schedules with a friend, he was tired from overtime as well a few days ago.
Lestari and Tina were in the back doing their laundry. Yuana chose to clean the house. While tidying up the front room, Yuana looked at the newspaper pages. Because of the incident with Niar and Ivan, Yuana liked to look for vacancies, who knew if there was a better job.
She looked at the top corner of the page she had opened. There was news about Mardhika.
-At 10 am Mardhika will leave for Palu to do a few days' tour there, according to Yunus. They departed from Halim Perdanakusuma Airport.-
Yuana read the information there.
"Today, right?" Yuana confirmed the date of the information. "Manfred, I have to meet you."
Yuana looked at the clock on the wall. Ten minutes past eight. Quickly Yuana put down the duster and broom. She looked behind the house.
"Tina, Tari, I have to go somewhere ..." she said.
"Where are you going?" asked Tina.
"I'll tell you later!" Yuana said.
Yuana immediately went to the bathroom, cleaned herself, changed clothes, and immediately left. Time flew, and she must not be late arriving at the airport. By Yuana's online taxi to the airport.
Along the way, she was very restless. Her heart was scattered wildly. She glanced briefly at the watch in her hand.
"Sir, can you go a little faster, sir?" Yuana asked.
"Yes, ready. Where are you going, young lady?" asked Mr. Driver.
"I want to meet a friend. Afraid of not chasing him, he wants to go in about an hour," answered Yuana.
"Okay, ready." The driver casually started doing his job. His style was relaxed but reliable as well as the way he drove.
The taxi stopped. Yuana quickly got off and ran to find the direction of the gate to the flight Manfred was going to. She asked people and also the employees of the airport.
She looked into the room through the glass wall. She saw Manfred with his bandmates. Then how could Yuana meet him? She couldn't go in there. The clerk stopped at the check-in door.
"Sir, please, sir ... just a moment. I have to come in," asked Yuana. Her breathing was not really regular, her face was pitifully staring at the officer in front of her.
"You can't, Lady. Only those who have tickets can enter," said the officer firmly.
"Sir, just two minutes …." Yuana's face became even sadder. She clasped her hands together as if praying.
"You can't. Please go. We're just doing our job," said the officer, remaining firm.
Yuana looked inside. Manfred and his bandmates were on their way to the plane. Yuana did not want to give up. She thought for a few seconds, then suddenly Yuana burst out with all her strength screaming.
"Manfred!!! Manfred!!" Yuana shouted loudly.
The people around started to look at her. The surprised officer quickly caught up with Yuana who was already inside. Yuana kept running screaming.
"Manfred!! Manfred!!!" Her eyes were only fixed on the figure she missed so much. She had to be able to meet Manfred, that was all in her head.
"Lady, let's go. Don't make trouble here!" said the officer who was finally able to catch up with Yuana. He gripped Yuana's hand firmly.
"Sir, please, sir ...." Yuana was almost crying. She refused to be taken out. Her arm ached as well but struggled to hold it in place.
More and more people are paying attention. Manfred and company finally turned to where the crowd was looking. A girl was trying to get away from the officers.
"Well, one of your big fans ... See, you've been calling," said a man to Manfred.
Manfred watched the girl. He widened his eyes. Manfred was sure he knew the young woman.
"Fred, she is ...." Andre pointed at Yuana.