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Hi I'm Callie, I'm 17 years old, I live with my mom, my step dad, my step brother and my dog Luke. I live in a small town in the countryside called Boydton Virginia. I basically live with a lot of homophobes besides my dog. I'm lesbian and polyamorous or...at least I thought I was lesbian. I have severe depression that was low for a while.

My step brother likes to use me as his "toy" if you get what I mean. He's the type to do it when stressed or after school or whenever he gets in trouble basically.

Anyways keep reading to find out everything crazy that happens.

~this story is basically her diary~

-warning this book/diary containes: cussing, rape, incest, abuse, homophobia, suicide, suicidal thoughts-

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Chapter 1

Dear diary,

Uh, hi? Haven't really done one of these in a while, but might as well give it a try, am I right?. God what am I thinking-..

~my counselor told me that writing in a diary could help with my depression and get things off my mind, don't get me wrong but I think my counselor is on drugs~

My name is Callie, Callie Grace Dippson, I'm 17 year old, I live with my mom Carry, step dad David, step brother Dylan and my dog Luke. People tend to get on my nerves. My counselor says people do it by accident, but I think people do it to improve their bitchy skill. Today is the first day in Virginia and first day of hell, my mom thinks I'm "overreacting" when I call school hell, like hey, at least I don't call home hell. I call living with dumbasses that don't know how to keep their opinions to themselves, like god damn, every time I come home from smoking weed with my friends, I hear them talking about how they want to send my step brother to this camp that'll make him straight, it's not his fault he's not attracted to men, it's my moms fault for making herself look so damn ugly that one day that he puked, man that day was the best day ever! That's the same day my best friend kissed me, god her lips were so soft and they tasted like Cherry, but after she had to say "No homo". Uh, yes, YES homo. We had to move after that, that's how we got into Virginia. I got to go. School time, yay.

Hey Diary, I'm back. School was pretty damn great, for a new kid that didn't know anything about anyone I made like 0 friends, yay! Well, one tried but I ended up hurting her, so no biggie. Who needs friends anyways, they're either fake or they're too sensitive. I just need a friend that's not sensitive and fake... I jus-...

-this chapter contains sexual parts-

My counselor handed me a diary that I had no tention to be writing in. I've forgotten about it until I was packing my stuff up. "Sweetie what's this?!" I hear my mom yell at my step brother. "Uhhh. Nothing mom!" I hear my step brother yell back, I believe he grabbed it from her cause when he ran up stairs he handed a book that says "Happy Thoughts". "I believe this is yours?" He said panting. I look at him in disbelief, "are you seriously fucking panting by going up twenty steps? Are you out of shape or something step brother?" I say teasing him. "Those are like 69- 60 steps step sister" he said panting more. I chuckle when he said 69. "What's so funny?" He says getting a little angry at me. "You said 69" I said laughing. He goes to my door and locks it. I instantly stopped laughing as soon as I hear my door lock. He walks towards me, gets on top of me, and pinning me down so I can't move. "S-step bro?" I whispered, "don't make fun of me when I'm fucking horny step sis" I blush super hard at the thought of what he's going to do. He starts taking off his shirt then mine, grabbing and squeezing my chest, causing me to moan. "Shhhh, you don't want to your mom hear how much of a dirty slut you are for me~" he said in a seducive voice. I bite my lip. It's not the first time he's done this, and I know why he's doing it but I don't want to stop him, and...fuck I'm catching feelings for my fucking step brother. "I'm-" I stop and bites my lip to feel my clit being rubbed "f-fuck" I moaned out quietly. He gets off of me after a few minutes of playing with my clit, he takes off my pants and panties then starts taking his pants and boxers off. When I saw his erotic member I bite my lip and my eyes widen. It was bigger than I remembered from last time. I heard him chuckle and that's when I snap out of my thoughts. "H-hm?" I tilted my head looking up at him. "You're so cute baby girl" he said smirking. He gets on top of me and slams into me hard. "A-" I get cut of by him putting his hand over my mouth. "Shhhhh, be a good girl and keep your moans quiet" he says moving his hands away from my mouth. He starts thrusting really hard, I tried so hard not to moan. The harder he got the more difficult it was. I bit my lip as hard as I can, not too hard to make my lip bleed but enough to not make a sound. I believe that made him mad and start thrusting even harder than before going deep, I couldn't help it. I had to moan. "Fuck daddy~" I moan as quiet as I can be. He stops after a hour of thrusting. We hear someone coming up the stairs, we quickly put our clothes back on, unlock my door and fix my hair. He looks at me and wink which just makes me blush really hard. The person that came up was David, my step dad. When I saw him I sighed because I knew what he was going to ask. "Did you really-" I cut him off. "Yes I kissed a god damn girl. It was by accident step dad, I got pushed into her. God stop making such a big deal about it damn" I say. No he doesn't know I'm lying about it, this nosy little bitch needs to stay out of my business. "You know I don't respect homosexual in this god damn house you faggot" my heart dropped when I heard those words and I just was scrabbled in that word he used. "Faggot" why does he have to be so homophobic. It was when I felt a sharp sting in my left cheek and my eye hurting so much knew I got slapped and punched. "Ow! What the fuck is wrong with you?!" After yelling that I got slapped again. I just shut up after a few more slaps and kicks and punches. I could've just ran away that very moment. But I didn't. I was frozen, I couldn't move. It felt like I was...gone.

~a day later~

I've been unpacking at the new home all day and night. I got my bed set up and all that shit. I lay down and sigh. Dylan walks in. "Hey, get ready for school" he says then closing the door. I get and change my outfit. I look into the mirror "damn, another day in this god damn house with dumbasses that don't know how to keep their opinions to themselves" I say sighing. I look tired as fucking. I go downstairs and I see David looking at me, so I look at him "What?!" I say with a bitchy attitude. "Uh, do not have an attitude with your step father Callie. I don't give a fuck if you're in that mood or time of the month. You need to learn to respect your elders" my mom says. "Oh I'm sorry, but I don't listen to people that don't read the Bible when they should because of their religion, so mom how could you open the god damn fucking Bible than your god damn legs once in a while you dirty little who-" I was cut off by almost getting slapped by David. Dylan saves the day and come down at the right timing. "Hey mom, hey dad" he says with a smile, coming up behind me. David scoffs "hey faggot" he says mumbling under his breath. "Oh hey.." I hear my mom's voice change. "Oh wow, y'all are just so pathetic. Slap me all you want, but you can kiss my ass if you call Dylan a faggot again" I say out loud and I didn't mean to. My mom and David stared at me in disgust. I chuckle and start putting my shoes on. My brother walks towards me. "Wait fag-" I give David that look. "I ain't fucking messing around David I will moon you" I say smirking.

-at school-

"Sis wait!" I hear Dylan yelling from afar, I stop walking and I notice him panting, I smirk and blushes. "Still out of shape I see lil bro" I say teasing him. "Oh haha" he says smiling and patting my head. I was about to say something until someone tapped my shoulder, I turned around to see a blonde haired, snobby little brat. But once I heard her voice it all changed. Her voice soft, quiet and soothing. Her smile is priceless. And her eyes are a green hazel, I look down at her outfit, I could tell she's pretty nerdy. Definitely not my type but there's something about her I can't quite put my finger on it. I snap out of my thoughts when I see her hand in front of me. "Huh?" I look at her confused. "I'm Kate" she says looking down with her eyes shut, I grab her hand and shake it. "I'm Cassie" I say smiling. God she smells like lavender, her lips are light pink, she wears a..holy shit, a lesbian colored choker! God I love this girl already. "I like your choker" I say still looking at her choker, well, her neck. She smiles and blushes a little. "Thanks! Most people don't like it because it-" I cut her off, "because it's the lesbian flag colors" I say smiling. She looks at me shocked. "I-I" she looks off to the side, "I should really be going now!" She says before passing me, I grab her arm. "Wait, I don't hate" I say pulling her close to me gently. I could tell she's blushing. God seeing her all flustered gets me turned on, fuck. She looks up at me "w-wanna walk to class together" she says mumbling half the words. I smile and nods, she grabs my hand and we walk to class, surprisingly we're in all the same classes.

~after school~

I feel a tap on my shoulder, turn around and look up a little. It was Dylan, "Hey lil bro" I say smiling. "Hey, so that girl you were talking to at the beginning of school. You know she's a lesbo right?" He looks at me and I quickly remember what my mom and David said about having friends that are apart of the lgbt. "Yes.." I say looking down. He puts his hand under my chin and lifts my head up gently. "I won't tell on you as long as you don't tell your mom and my dad that I have a boyfriend" he says smiling. I nod to agree since I couldn't say anything cause I felt like crying. He pats my head "good girl" he says before heading inside the house, I follow in after him, going straight up into my room, after writing in my diary I plopped down on my bed and yawned. Just as I was about to fall asleep I hear a knock at my door. I sighed and sit up "who is it?!" I say in annoyed tone. "It's me" It's Dylan's voice. "What do you want?" I lay back down on my bed. "It's dinner time come on down stairs to eat" he says. I stay quiet. I hear him sigh "please, you haven't ate all day, you need to eat. For me?" He says, I hear him getting sad, but I was too tired to care. I didn't respond, "For your friend?" I hear him say. I sighed "fine, I'll come down and eat" I say getting out of bed and opening my door. I see Dylan has a smile on his face. "Come on Callie" he says running down the stairs. This boy has a lot of energy for someone thats out of shape. I walk down the stairs and I see him on the last step panting. He really needs to stop pushing himself, that's how you get put into the hospital. I pat his head when I'm close enough to him. He looks up at me and smiles. "Hi!" He says standing up quickly. "Hi.." I get off the stair case and walk past him, grabbing food for me to eat and heading back up the stairs. "Where do you think you're going you slut" I hear David say. I stop in my tracks, turned around and looked at him. "What?" I ask. "I'm going upstairs to eat, like usual" I say walking up the stairs backwards. "Sluts like you don't deserve to eat. Put the food back, we both know you don't eat for shit" he says in a bitchy tone. I scoff and put the food back, heading up the stairs once again just to get stopped at my tracks but by Dylan. "Hey wait up!" He says going to me. I look at him, "Not right now please. I just want to sleep" I say looking down. Her smirks and whispers in my hears. "You sure you wanna sleep? I'll tell mom and dad about your little friend if you don't let me use you" he says, making me shiver. "Why not I sleep and you use me?" I whisper back. "Great idea" he says quietly. I look down to notice he has a really, and I mean REALLY big bulge. Holy shit how horny is he? We walk upstairs to my room, shutting and locking the door. I get undressed so it makes it easier for him to use me. I lay down on the bed and cover myself up with my blankets. I watch him get undressed, he looks at me the sits on the floor for a bit jerking himself off until he cums a lot. I get up off the bed, walking towards him and I get down on my knees causing him to stand up. I lick up his cum then sucking the tip and that follows by sucking all the way down his shaft causing him to moan and groan. "F-fuck~" I hear him moan out while he cums him my mouth, I show him it then swallows it. He pats my head, "g-good girl" he says panting and smiling. The rest of the night. Well lets just say a lot of fucking, groaning, moaning and cumming (from me)

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Chaper 2

Dear diary,

God, why am I still this, I feel like a fucking 14 year old with problems. Well my life has been hell since day one in Virginia and I'm school. Okay I may have lied to you yesterday about not making any friends but I don't see her as a friend type of person. She's really something that I wasn't expecting to come into my life and take me by surprise or in this case by my heart. God I sound so cheesy. Anyways she has a good heart. She's told me so much about her on the first day of school. I just feel bad because if my parents find out she's a lesbian they'll make me stop talking to her and make me treat her like shit. I can't do that to someone that has a nice heart and loves to read. I know she's not my type but maybe she is my type and I just don't know my type at all. She's told me about her problems that has been going on for a long time and I just feel so bad for her. I wish I could help her but in doing so my parents would have to know and I can't let that happen again... 

I wake up in the morning feeling horny but I turn around and notice that Dylan is gone. I sigh "lovely". I get up, get dressed and headed downstairs. "No one's home? Huh. Dylan must've home to school early" I say to myself I get my shoes on and check the time "4:49. I'll make it." I start walking to school after grabbing my bag. I get to school two hours before it starts, I look around and smile when I see Kate. I jog towards her. "Hey Kate" I say panting a bit but smiling still. She turns around and gives me a weak smile. I stop smiling and hug her. "What's wrong princess?" I ask. I hear her sniffing but she doesn't answer me. I grab her arm and take her to a room an lock the door. I put my hand under her chin and lift her head gently. "What's wrong?" I ask again. She sniffs then sighs, "I-it's nothing. I-I'm fine" she says stuttering. I sigh and pin her against the wall. I see her blushing and fuck her pink cheeks are so cute! "Tell me what's wrong" I say putting my knee in between her legs. She bites her lip and starts grinding my knee. "Someone's needy" I say smirking, she stops and blushes hard "S-sorry" she says quietly. "Did I say stop?" I ask. She looks at me all red and I couldn't help but chuckle a bit. I press my knee up against her area. She whimpers quietly and starts grinding again. We ended up making out and fucking basically, no need to be detailed about this.

-after school-

"Callie!" I hear Dylan yell my name. I stop in my tracks and turn around. He hugs me tightly and I had no choice but to hug back. Fuck why does he like hugging me. "Yes lil bro?" I ask. "Hey I'm not lil!" He says. "I'm older than you so yes you are lil" I say teasing him. 

-after walking home-

We walk into the house and as usual I start heading up stairs. "Callie come here for a moment" I hear my mom say. I sigh and go to her. "Yes ma'am?" I ask. "How come you weren't at school?" She ask. "I was they must've just marked me absent" I say lying. Kate and I were mainly too busy making out and fucking the whole time, and we passed out afterwards. My mom sighs "Just don't let it happen again or I will have to tell your step dad. Now come here" my mom says opening her arms. I walk up to her and hug her. Her hugs are what makes me feel safe it always has been. "I love sweetie" I smile at those words. "I love you too mom" I say letting go of the hug and heading up stairs to go to bed.