some people think that death is the worse thing that happens to the creatures of earth, but let me ask you something, did you do anything good to be appreciated for, as i said before our reputation is the only thing that last forever, if you are hezitating to answer this question please go check on your life again because life is nothing with no respect from people and from yourself either.
in my case, I took this idea in a whole different level, where i thought that the only way to get me a reputation and leave a mark is by making hard statements or fighting or other ways, it felt good at first, you can just imagine the feeling when you are doing something that most of your friends are affraid of, always keeping your head up even if you are wrong because for you that's the only way to prove your idea, even getting in trubbles for doing your best to afford something good for your friends, as they were called.
okay i will not ask you about life decisions, after all those are your problems, you think i'm wrong for saying problems? trust me i'm not, because once you take a wrong decision even if it's one decision, you will not be able to stop the problems unless you get back in your head and fix that decision, but yeah sometimes that problem teaches you more than you would learn in the right path.
as always my examples are from my life, for me i never regret a decision i made with my own will, wait before you say "but souhail you just said a bad decision can ruin a life", and i agree with you, but my friend a problem isn't always bad, you always, as a human being, learn from your faults and improve yourself. i didn't get to that level yet to talk about it because i'm really still wishing death to come sooner, even latelly i got back to my old habit of self harm, can you imagine that? after 4 clean years i jus took my shit out and started torturing myself, maybe i'm just a sick sadistic person as i was called once, and maybe i'm just as crazy as i say about myself. this decision is coming soon enough and i believe there must be a great change or else i will just keep my wishes till they come true