"Damn it. Now that I think about how I told Benjamin to pursue you, I realize how f*cking crazy I was and wish I could kill myself for it. If you didn't leave that year, you wouldn't be with Benjamin now, and you wouldn't like him. If only you didn't like him.
"Even in my dreams, I wish I could go back to that year we spent together. I would've definitely treated you right and agree to marry you and have children with you. However, it's too late now because the person you like is Benjamin, not me.
"After you stopped liking me, I realized I regret it all. Seeing you with Benjamin made me angry, and seeing you smile at Benjamin made me jealous. Even I couldn't believe that I could cry.
"But what could I do? Should I watch you be together with another man? No. It's torturing as hell, and that was why I chose to use such a despicable method to get you.
